I didn't stray too much

Apr 15, 2021

Spring break came and went, and I was able to visit my sisters in New Jersey and my son In Florida. My mom and my youngest daughter were absolutely sure that I was going to break my diet and gain weight. Yes, I strayed from my usual diet, packing in more calories than was healthy, but man, didn't that food taste heavenly!?

But, you know what? I've been doing so good that I took that week to bask in food heaven for a bit, but in the back of my mind I knew that I had to step back in line, and not over do it. I only gained one pound, and I'm happy to say that it's completely off now. I'm now down to 250 pounds, 19 pounds lost.

I am the little engine that could, lol


On Track

Apr 01, 2021

Well, I finally gave in and bought myself a new scale and I'm happy that I've lost 18 pounds thus far. I started off weighing almost 270 pounds and now I'm down to 251, yay me!


I'm visiting my sisters back east and then I'm flying down to Florida to visit my son. I plan to stick somewhat to my diet and not deviate too much from what I've been eating at home. I'm pleased that I'm losing weight, but I'm definitely not satisfied.


I think I can. I think I can. I think I can.


Colon Cleansing

Mar 07, 2021

Of all the times I've been on diets and excercising, it never dawned on me to cleanse my colon. I've been seriously considering it, but I don't know when I'll actually do it. I regret the fact that it never ocurred to me to do it while the "stay at home" was in place. Now that we're back on site at school it is definitely not a good time for it, but it's a definite go for me. I've never done it, and I think it's time. Let's see what happens. 

I ordered a variety pack of protein bars with 20 grams of protein and 0 grams of sugar, so the label says, but I still find them too sweet. The protein bar is called think!and I've yet to eat a whole bar in one sitting. I completed my first two weeks of dieting and I feel good about myself, and how I haven't fallen into temptation. I'm not really on a strict diet, so if I want a taste of something sweet I'll go ahead and try a morsel just to appease the desire of eating something sweet. I've been very good in that department. 

I would love to go back to the gym, but all the gyms in my area are still closed due to Covid-19, and I'm not motivated to workout in front of my laptop with someone else at the other side of the monitor, and I definitely am not motivated to walk up and down my block after work, either. 

I wonder how much I've lost?



Mar 02, 2021

On February 19 I went for a routine physical checkup. I was shocked when I got on the scale and saw the numbers go all the way up to 269.5!!! I had weighed myself 19 days before, and I was weighing 265 pounds, but in just 19 days I had gained 4-5 pounds.

Well, needless to say I'm once again on my neverending weight loss journey, but this time I'm starting off where I had not left off. I'm almost 30 pounds heavier than what I was when I last weighed myself. I started dieting on February 21st, and I haven't weighed myself since I was weighed at the doctor's office, but that's fine with me. I don't want to be controlled by the scale, and I want to be pleasantly surprised when I do get on the scale and see how the weight has shot down.


I have never weighed this much!!!

Jan 31, 2021

I'm not blaming the COVID-19 pandemic in any way, shape or form. I only have myself to blame for my eternal failure in losing weight. 

I've gain much much more weight than I had ever imagined, and now I'm tipping the scale at 265, 265 reasons why I feel miserable!!!! But, I'm going to take my head out of the sand and start again. When, oh when will I feel happy with my appearance, with my weight, with, the weigh I feel?


I've lost 20 pounds

Mar 15, 2020

I should be happy, but I'm not. I've been down this same road so many times since I had weight loss surgery almost 12 years ago. I started my weight loss journey again and I'm down 20 pounds. I was tipping the scale at 250 pounds and I decided to lose EVERYTHING in a year.

Let's see if I can hang.



Just maddening!!!

Jan 09, 2020

I think I've been down this same street a gazillion times trying to lose weight. I started this journey back in '08, and I've never been able to reach my goal. I had started going to the gym in 2018, but that didn't last long due to my finances, and me being exhausted after work.

I've started my weight loss journey again and I hope that I do reach my goal. I just got engaged on December 25th to my high school sweetheart (it's a very long love story), and we're planning to get married in 2021. My fiance is extremely underweight and we make the perfect "10". He's 1 and I'm 0. I'm tipping the scale at 250 and he's not even bumping it at 100 pounds. Yes, he's that underweight! 

I've never been this overweight in my life, only when I was pregnant with my last child, and that's because I WAS PREGNANT READY TO PUSH THAT BABY OUT! I feel disgusted with myself, and I really want to lose all this blasted excess weight. This weight is taking a toll on me, and I want to feel well physically.

I hate the way my body is responding to the excess weight. I hate the fact that I can't bend down without running out of breath. I hate the fact that I have a bit of a difficult time trying to get out of bed, trying to stand up from a sitting position or walking without dragging my feet. I hate the fact that sometimes I feel that my legs are about to buckle because of my weight. I hate the fact that I tire easily and prefer to be sitting or lying down. I hate the fact that even taking a shower and reaching to wash where the Sun don't shine is somewhat of a task. I hate the fact that drying myself is becoming a chore after I shower. I hate, I hate, I hate, I hate looking myself in the mirror and seeing how fat I am and how my head is ridiculously smaller than the rest of my body.




Back to square one!

Jul 09, 2019

I feel as if I will never ever be able to lose the weight that I want to lose. I always start up very motivated, and somehow I lose all motivation even before I reach my goal halfway. Will I ever be anything less than 220 plus pounds?

I stopped dieting and working out soon after I had started last year, and I just packed up the pounds again. I just weighed myself and I'm up to 240 pounds again. I'm concerned, though, because as of lately I've been having a difficult time breathing and I'm always out of breath. Even when I walk from anywhere in the apartment I get out of breath and find myself panting and gasping for air. I'm also getting pains in my chest and they are very constant. 

What am I to do?


Exercising Works Wonders!

Aug 11, 2018

I started my weight loss journey again on June 27 after visiting my oldest daughter, husband and kids in Florida. My mom, who was also visiting from Puerto Rico, made fun of my weight and how I look, mercilessly, nonstop, and really thought it was funny and okay to ridicule me in front of the family. I felt hurt, very hurt, and decided that enough was enough.

I returned home determined this time to get rid of this excess fat once and for all, for good. I started dieting and 8 days later I joined the gym and got a personal trainer. At first, I would just think about my mother's rude jokes about my weight and it would bring tears to my eyes as I did my water aerobics. No one saw my tears because my face would be wet from the water, but I felt angry and the angrier I would feel, the harder I would work out in the water. 

I am happy to say that I've kept up with my exercising and healthy eating, and I'm thrilled that I'm finally seeing the results of my working out on a regular basis. I haven't been working out with my personal trainer because I owe money for the training sessions, but I've been able to use the facilities and I do take advantage of it. I love doing water aerobics. I also have done the treadmill and the other night, my daughter and I did the bikes, but my butt wasn't too happy with that one. My current weight is between 223-225 pounds, and although the scale doesn't make me too happy, I can see that I look slimmer now than what I did when I reached 215 last summer when I tried losing weight without exercising. I can't and won't let my guard down. I've gone down this same path too many times in the last 10 years or so.

I want to be able to fit in a size 16. Once I reach that goal any more weight I might lose will all be a big bonus.


I'm Losing!

Jul 07, 2018

Well, I've been going to the gym since July 5, and I hope that this time I reach my goal. I joined LA Fitness and decided to trying having a personal trainer to see if this time I can actually get rid of all the fat in my body that's making me so miserable. I start my first training on Monday, but I've been going to the gym everyday since I joined. I started off with the assessment that they did, and although it was only an assessment, it was a workout and I sweated, so I can say that I worked out on Thursday. Yesterday I walked on the treadmill for an hour and covered one mile, yay me. Today I went to the water aerobics class and had a blast. It was a lot of fun and I can actually feel my muscles being sore.

I've cut out all processed sugar, processed foods, table salt, fat and starch from my diet. I've taken to eating just chicken breast, ground turkey and fish (tilapia and salmon). I now eat greens and I'm hooked on all those delicious smoothies I make at home with fresh fruits, vegetables, and greens. Thanks youtube! I weighed myself today, and I'm down to 230, but when I was weighed at the gym when I signed up, the scale read 237 which was crazy because I had weighed myself in the morning and I was down to 234. I'm sticking to the numbers on my own scale. If the numbers on my scale are off, it's still a great motivator for me.

I bought a protein powder, but I really don't like it because I bought french vanilla flavor, and I just find it too sweet. I'm already used the the natural sugar from the fruits I use for my smoothies. I have no craving whatsoever for sweets, but I do have cravings for salty things once in a while. Whenever I crave something a bit salty, I'll eat a crispy tortilla, like the tortilla chips.

Let's see how this goes.




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