Heather Hunnie

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So, today's the day....my very 1st surgiversary! I wanted to take the time to post, so that I can look back on this and know what I was thinking, feeling, etc.

I've said it so many times, but...I just feel so blessed! Before surgery, when I was so sick, I used to wonder why God was punishing me--giving me so much pain and dispair. But, now....175ish lbs lighter, I finally know why I had to withstand all that pain. I know I had to do it to prove to myself that I was sooooo much stronger than I thought. But, also...I needed to endure all the pain, so that I could know how wonderful this truly is. Had I never known the pain, I would not know the pleasure and joy I feel now!

My whole life has changed...I have changed. It's not just the way I look. It's so much more! I don't worry nearly as much as I used to. I was always worried about how far I had to walk, would a restaurant have tables becauae I wouldn't fit in a booth, what kind of people would be there, would i feel out of place, etc....

I just don't think about all that stuff now. Instead, I think about what kind of fun I am going to have, or the things I need to get done--I think about doing, rather than not doing, being rather than not being. It just blows my mind!

I am soooooooo grateful! I feel so lucky! I will NOT waste this chance....this amazing miracle that God has brought into my life!

Life is soooo sweet! =) (Even without sugar!LOL)

So, I know it sounds crazy! But, I am so thrilled that I am now, OBESE! When I started this journey I was 340lbs and I was 325 when I came home from the hospital. That put my BMI in the Super Morbidly Obese category! But, now 6 1/2 months out and down 110lbs since surgery and 125lbs all together, at 215lbs, I am now OBESE! It feels good to have the "Morbidly" part gone! I was so sick when I started this and I knew that I wouldn't live that long the way I was. Plus, I really wasn't LIVING at all! So, I just thought I would post because it really makes me happy. I don't know if I was really happy before. I think the fat and the bad health and the inability to move, breathe, walk, LIVE, was just blocking all the positive feelings. So, now, with 125lbs off of my body....let the good times keep flowing! And, maybe one day soon, I might even be "Overweight!" LOL

That's right! It is finally, finally, finally here! I have dreamed of this day for sooo long, but honestly didn't know if it would ever really come. But, it has.....Last night, for the first time, I went down to 0 units of insulin...wait, let me repeat that, in case you mised it...0, zero, zip, zilch units of insulin!!!!!!!!!! And, more importantly, this morning, my sugar was 108--lower than it's been in quite a while. My numbers have been fine, but 108 is fabulous! I will admit I am up a bit earlier than normal. Usually, I test about about 8-9am, sometimes even 10am, and today I am testing at 7:15am. But, ya know what? I don't care. I am going to enjoy this!!!!! I will enjoy every little bit of it. No more needles! I can't even believe that! No more worrying about bringing refrigerated medication in a cooler, when I go away on vacation! I just feel healthier than I did yesterday. I mentally, feel better knowing there's one less medication in my system. My body is regulating and becoming, dare I say, normalish.

As you can see, I am just plain psyched! I am off to get ready for my Good Samaritan Hospital Support Group meeting. I can't wait to tell them all my fabulous news! I love my RNY and I love myself for finally doing it!

Have a fabulous day, I know I will!

I have finally crossed the 100lb mark and the 100lbs since surgery! I am currently down 103lbs since surgery 118lbs total!!!!!
I am really proud of myself! I have worked really hard, made many changes and I feel so much better! I am really on my way! I love my RNY and all of my friends and supporters! I never could've done this on my own!

 Thank you to Stephanie L. for this most FABULOUS Century Card!!

 

 
     
       
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                                             Thanks to Lizzy for this cuuuute siggie!!!!!



  

So, I just had the greatest lunch and I thought I would share it with all of you!
I am sure some of you may have had this, but I never did until I tried it at a diner. But, I made a better version myself! YaY for me!

Oh, and I posted this recipe on thedailyplate.com if you want all the nutritional info. =)

Heather's Super Chunky Yummy Chicken Salad
I know, ya love the name! =)
This makes 6 servings =)

1     12.5 oz. Can of all white meat Chicken packed in water
3-4   tablespoons Hellman's Light Mayo
1/2   cup Chopped Pecans
1/4   cup dried cranberries--I realized mine are sweetened, but if you can find  
                                                 non-sweetened go for it!

Drain the chicken and empty into a small bowl.
Break up the chicken with a fork.
Stir in 3 or 4 tablespoons of Mayo--to your liking.
Measure out the pecans and cranberries and mix evenly through the chicken salad.

Measure out 1 serving--this recipe makes 6!
Enjoy with crackers, veggies, or even by itself! It is definately chunky and crunchy enough to stand alone!

Enjoy! Let me know how ya liked it!  =)

March-So, 3 months out--I posted a new avatar--but not sure I see a difference. I mean, I do see some difference, but not much. I am down 67 pounds since surgery and 82 all together, so that is a darn good chunk and I do feel it in clothes. But, don't think I SEE all 82 pounds. But, really, I FEEL much better than before and my sugars are on the downward slide--slowly, very slowly. But, that is ok with me! They're going the right way, so...I really shouldn't complain! Well, I will try to check in much more often. =) Hope you are all doing well, too.

Before I go....so, I posted a rant on the Rants & Raves board. I guess I just was in a pissy mood. And, once aagin, I get attacked there. Then, I feel terrible because I was just in a pissy mood. So..my point...I'm really not a mean person. I am done with Rants & Raves. I am just not meant for that board. So, please don't think badly of me. I really am a nice girl! =)


So, since my last post, I am trying to get my liquid in each day. I have started using smaller bottles so that each one goes faster. =) I aim for 4 bottles a day, which puts me just over my 64 ounces. I have also tried to start exercising, though I think I over-did it the first couple of days because boy, was I sore! I am also logging my food in on thedailyplate.com, to help track my protein, calories, carbs, etc. It seems to be helping me. When I don't take a look at what I eat,in list form, I mean,  it seems to be so easy to eat too much, even now. So, I am trying to do the right things and I am hoping that I will continue to see results, both with my weight and my health. It's kind of funny because the other day, I calculated how much I have lost so far and I realized that it was a good chunk of weight. I had my surgery on Dec. 1st and I am currently at 285 pounds--down 45 since I came home from the hospital and down 60 from my highest of 340! So, when I sat back and thought about that, I mean 45 pounds in less than a month and a half--that's pretty darn good! (Of course I don't really see it yet, but I can feel it in my clothes.) So, I shouldn't beat myself up so much--I'm doing okay. I know that I had and still have lots of medical obsticles, like my diabetes--so, as long as I am losing and paying attention and doing the right things--like drinking and eating healthy foods, why am I upset with myself? LOL I guess I had a preconceived notion of how much or how quickly I "should" lose. But, I need to let go of that--I think I have. =) And, now it's just one day at a time--I know I sound like an addict, but I am finally admitting that maybe I AM an addict--well, recovering, maybe. As Oprah said, both her and my drug of choice is food. So true.

Well, I guess I celebrated too soon and jinxed myself. My sugars have now been creeping up and I have had to increase my insulin and I am just beside myself. I didn't have this surgery so I could be skinny or so I could wear a size 8. Those were just bonuses to me, that came along with everything. I really did this to make my diabetes better and to improve my health overall. I wanted my feet to be better and hurt less, my legs to be less swollen and I wanted to be able to walk and just feel better. I wanted to be able to go back to school and finally, finally finish my degree and I wanted to finally, finally be a teacher--that I haven't been able to do for ten years--ten! And, I want to have a baby, so badly...And, now I just feel like none of this will ever happen. I know people keep telling me that I need to give it time and maybe I will look back at this one day and laugh at how silly I am being, but right now I just hate this. I am just so depressed about it all. It felt soooo good to see my sugars in the normal range for the first time in ten years. And, now...I don't know. No, I lied...I do know....I know I need to drink more. I know I need to walk..continue and do more. I know I need to continue watching my carbs. I know I need to chew my food well and try to eat more slowly. I know I need to just keep doing this. But,  I just....wish I was feeling like all this effort was working. I mean, I have lost weight, but for some reason I feel like it's not enough or not fast enough--not by my guidelines, but just by what I have heard other people say. I am terrified it will slow or stop. What would I do then? I just was feeling so good last week...and now....complete 180.
Anyway...I guess the only thing I can do....is just keep doing....it just sucks...I wish I felt better about it. Maybe I will at some point...I guess I will keep hoping for that day. I guess I will just buckle down and do all the things I know I need to do and maybe it will pay off. I'll let ya know!

Oooooh, pretty!

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