Jennifer L.
I have been heavy my whole life. I don't ever remember being under 100lbs... I am sure I was (no baby is born at 100lbs!) and looking back through my pictures as a young child (before I was 7 years old) I was a beautiful baby with minimal chubbyness. The earliest I remember knowing my weight was when I was in the 4th grade. I weighed 145lbs. Kids teased me all the time... I had rocks thrown at me, boys would pretend to ask me to be thier girlfriend then run away saying "eww! I'd never be your boyfriend!"... I was made fun of when I bent over (one kid yelled "where did this wall come from???), when I drank from the fountain "Hey! Save some for the whales! oh wait, you are one!", and things of that nature. I didn't have a date until I was 18, nor did I have my first kiss. When I graduated from High School I weighed 245lbs. Then I left for College... I went to a small bible college in TN called Johnson Bible College. There I had a new beginning in my life. Because we didnt have cable tv in the rooms and it was a 20 minute drive to get just about anywhere I walked... and we were based in the smokey mountain area... so my walks were very hilly... and I would walk probably 5 hours a day... its how I met alot of my friends (walking, meeting them, then walking with them and talking). Due to that I ended up losing weight and being 170lbs. I hadnt been that small since jr high. I maintained that weight loss for about 3 years.During those three years I learned how different life is when you are smaller. All the sudden men were interested in me... I had confidence and I would follow my dreams! I pursued being a singer/songwriter until I met my ex fiance... he took advantage of me and I haven't been the same since... I still maintained that initial weight loss but it began to creep back on... but since I was single and free with no responsibilities I was able to keep the weight down because I had no one to be accountable for except myself! Then met my husband....my God Send because he helped me heal from what my ex fiance did to me... We got married and pregnant on our honeymoon. During my pregnancy the weight came back, and with a vengence. I had a very difficult and hard pregnancy. I was on bed rest for a few months prior to delivering him because of my high blood pressure. I didn't overeat or see my pregnancy as a time to indulge. I honestly didnt eat a whole lot more than I was eating before... to the point where my huband told my dr on me and my dr got upset because I wasn't eating enough. However, my son is now (12/24/2008) 6 months old and I weigh 270lbs... about 30lbs heavier than my heaviest weight before. I was devistated, still am, but I am doing something about this. My whole family is heavy.. my mom, brother, aunts, cousins... all are pretty heavy. I feel my health deteriorating and I need to be around for my son and my husband. My husband loves me no matter what.. which is a nice feeling to know that he isn't commenting on me needing to lose weight or anything... he pretty much lets me know he supports me and thinks I am beautiful no matter what size I am... but I need the weight off for me... and he understands that. I am now in the process of seeing if WLS will help me. We will see how my journey ends
