It's SO SADENING!!!

Apr 06, 2012

SO.... I was chucking straight ahead toward surgery. Everything was completed, had a little over a month to go, I started dieting to lose weight before hand, had lost 10 pounds in a week, EVERYTHING WAS LOOKING GREAT! And then....

I woke up one morning and their was....sorry for the faint at heart....blood soaking my bed. Which still wasn't too alarming because I have irregular periods, but it was still strange because I had in fact been having a regular period. So I called off from work that day (luckily I did) because I was changing like every hour!

Then the following morning, I woke to the same thing and in addition to that, I felt something in my mouth. It kinda felt like I had bit the inside of my jaw, so I looked in my mirror and was HORRIFIED to see blood clots! I knew then that something was TERRIBLY WRONG.

To make a long story short, I went to the ER and they ran some test only to find out that the platelettes in my blood were a 1 when they are suppose to be 400! Because of my platelettes being low, It caused me to start bleeding out. I started getting dots under my skin, which were blood vessels breaking. I've NEVER seen something so STRANGE in my life!
 
I was admitted to the hospital, had transfusions, was bed ritten, OH, it was terrible. And MOST DEPRESSING AND DISHEARTENING overall is IN NO WAY CAN I HAVE SURGERY right now. I was absolutely crushed. To make matters worse, I still don't have an answer as to why my platelettes dropped. And to further worsen the situation, I have to be on a steroid called Prednisone for a few months to raise the platelettes. Let me tell you, THIS MEDICINE SUCKS!!!!! It has you feeling drugged all day! I also have to get my blood drawn EVERY WEEK. AND ON TOP OF ALL OF THIS PEOPLE, I won't be covered for FMLA till May SOOOOOO I have to push through everything and GO TO WORK!

But people..... everything happens for a reason. One of the MAIN REASONS that a surgeon REFUSES to touch, or even see a patient, is if that person has a clotting problem. I mean, the one thing that could stand in my way of surgery, the Lord placed in my way. In no way do I ignore signs, I see it and I accept it. In NO WAY did HE want me to do this now, it's just not my time.

I'm staying prayerful and asking the Lord to heal me. By Christ stripes I am most definitely healed. This is way bigger than this health problem. HE just didn't want me to do it and I hear HIM. They did reschedule my surgery for July but I'm not counting on it. The Lord is the captain of this ship. PLEASE people just keep me in your prayers...

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