kcericson
So, why don't I feel different?
Jun 25, 2010
I am having a really hard time emotionally. I am now 9 days post-op, and I feel so....blah. I mean, I thought that I would be SO incredibly happy that I have had the surgery. Instead, I just kind of feel like I don't really care about, well, anything really. I just want to sit in my recliner and sleep.
Secondly, all I can think about it wanting to eat food. It seems like I just can't wait until I get off my liquid diet and finally get to eat some real food. I know, I know, I am separating from my former BFF, but I am not even wanting unhealthy foods...I just want to chew, and feel texture. I want to eat the grilled chicken, and taste the fresh vegetables from our garden. Why is this bothering me so much?
I still haven't felt a full sensation, and this really worries me...is this really going to work? Did I go through all this for nothing? I mean, I can literally eat a cup full of soup, or drink a cup of protein drink, and not feel full. I just stop after that because I don't want to overeat. Is this even normal? I can actually even take regular drinks (not on purpose, I just forget sometimes), and not feel pain that I have heard others describe.
I really thought after the surgery, I was going to feel incredible, because I knew that I had the powerful tool inside of me. Instead, I seem to be filled with self doubt. I don't see a difference, I don't really feel a big difference...and that's leaving me feeling a little down.
