kenken
another boring blog !!!
May 24, 2010
after reading so many blogs over the past two years about where people are and their experiences through weight loss surgery . I'm just as tired as you are and quit bored with it all. even though i know its important for people (and myself) to "get it out", to "share"........i still go to support groups not to "hear" how people are doing ,but more so to "feel" how they are doing.
so here i am writing another boring blog, and here you are reading one. and no matter what i write its going to sound like everyone else who is almost two years out, trying to convey something new on how we look, feel,fear, how people treat us different now that we've lost 150, 200lbs....(treat us better and worse), how people who "spoke" to us before surgery never say a word to us now without any explanation, how people who "never spoke" to us before surgery smile and make conversation like we are old friends. The occasional conversation with a friend who is secretly jealous that u weigh less than they do, work out more than they do. family who cant stand the fact that you are happier than they are........how for their own selfish reasons wish u never had the surgery-- because you are never home much anymore, dont want the same foods they still eat, cant shop for clothes where they shop--......jealous because you can get on the Sea-Do and ride it without fear of falling off (its almost impossible for a obese person to get back on a water craft after falling off in the water, we cant push ourselves up...most end up being towed back).......how people at the gym.(especially trainers)..stare, wondering how u lost that much weight!
and i, you, try to remain humble, knowing that surgery was a true "Gift", one that must be taken care of, must not be forgotten, abused. Fear of the "old" us keeps us jogging, weight training....moving. everyday learning more about who we really are, what we really need, want out of life, from others
trying to find love, dating has been a whirlwind......my buddy laughs at me because its hard for me to pick up on the Q's of when a girl is coming on to me.......i think she is just trying to make conversation........having never been hit on in the past, you dont always see/ hear the signs................... its an amazing feeling, a humbling feeling to see a smoking hot Hispanic girl come in to Starbucks behind you just after she finished working out, thinking "yeah, maybe one day".........and have her come up to the coffee bar standing next to you while she fixes her drink and before leaving asks you " if i give u you something would you use it".....after a short look of bewilderment..you look down to see she has handed you her name and number.........lol, sometimes dreams come true, but now what do i do with the dream, is this what i Really wanted, and why do i want this?? ( I'm not a flake, i mean i know what to do...but......) a new frontier for sure..........but i have a girlfriend, one so pretty people ask me "how did u get her ??"
scary, do i mess up a good thing for something else....
was i so different before surgery?? i feel like the same person inside, how can perceptions about a person change so much just through losing weight, people who met me after surgery never believe i use to weigh so much.
i think more questions have come into my life after surgery than before, more options, more choices, more decisions to make....not all of them will be the right one of course, but its both fun and a little scary. and when will it end, i wake up every day thinking that today is the day i go back to being 425lbs, the ride/ the dream is over
and in my head, I'm still 425lbs, i still think like a fat person, still overeat.....whats the surgical procedure that fixes that??? and whats next for me?? how will i look, 6moths, 6 years from now??
whatever, I'm done..thanks for checking in , and for reading another boring blog...........KEN
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so here i am writing another boring blog, and here you are reading one. and no matter what i write its going to sound like everyone else who is almost two years out, trying to convey something new on how we look, feel,fear, how people treat us different now that we've lost 150, 200lbs....(treat us better and worse), how people who "spoke" to us before surgery never say a word to us now without any explanation, how people who "never spoke" to us before surgery smile and make conversation like we are old friends. The occasional conversation with a friend who is secretly jealous that u weigh less than they do, work out more than they do. family who cant stand the fact that you are happier than they are........how for their own selfish reasons wish u never had the surgery-- because you are never home much anymore, dont want the same foods they still eat, cant shop for clothes where they shop--......jealous because you can get on the Sea-Do and ride it without fear of falling off (its almost impossible for a obese person to get back on a water craft after falling off in the water, we cant push ourselves up...most end up being towed back).......how people at the gym.(especially trainers)..stare, wondering how u lost that much weight!
and i, you, try to remain humble, knowing that surgery was a true "Gift", one that must be taken care of, must not be forgotten, abused. Fear of the "old" us keeps us jogging, weight training....moving. everyday learning more about who we really are, what we really need, want out of life, from others
trying to find love, dating has been a whirlwind......my buddy laughs at me because its hard for me to pick up on the Q's of when a girl is coming on to me.......i think she is just trying to make conversation........having never been hit on in the past, you dont always see/ hear the signs................... its an amazing feeling, a humbling feeling to see a smoking hot Hispanic girl come in to Starbucks behind you just after she finished working out, thinking "yeah, maybe one day".........and have her come up to the coffee bar standing next to you while she fixes her drink and before leaving asks you " if i give u you something would you use it".....after a short look of bewilderment..you look down to see she has handed you her name and number.........lol, sometimes dreams come true, but now what do i do with the dream, is this what i Really wanted, and why do i want this?? ( I'm not a flake, i mean i know what to do...but......) a new frontier for sure..........but i have a girlfriend, one so pretty people ask me "how did u get her ??"
scary, do i mess up a good thing for something else....
was i so different before surgery?? i feel like the same person inside, how can perceptions about a person change so much just through losing weight, people who met me after surgery never believe i use to weigh so much.
i think more questions have come into my life after surgery than before, more options, more choices, more decisions to make....not all of them will be the right one of course, but its both fun and a little scary. and when will it end, i wake up every day thinking that today is the day i go back to being 425lbs, the ride/ the dream is over
and in my head, I'm still 425lbs, i still think like a fat person, still overeat.....whats the surgical procedure that fixes that??? and whats next for me?? how will i look, 6moths, 6 years from now??
whatever, I'm done..thanks for checking in , and for reading another boring blog...........KEN
Thats whats up!!!!
Nov 23, 2009
I usually only post when I've visited the doc, but I'm past 1 year now, so i only go once every 6months........in any event this is more of a way for me to keep a record of where I'm at, what I'm feeling, and doing............
I'm glad to still be attending my support group every month or so, i still find it helpful to go back and check in........its about accountability and maybe even helping someone else out. this past group was about staying on course through the holidays........wow, did i need that class, i love the holiday season, i like the cool weather, parties, all of it..., last year i had just had surgery and was so focused and dedicated to WLS that i didn't care what someone put in front of me i didn't eat it, i could have cared less. this year however, lol....ok, I'll take it.....my coffee intake has increased alot, so has my sugar intake, cookies, etc..but, i haven't gained a pound......in fact, i have lost weight over the last month or so,and my body fat percentage has fallen more than 2.5% ove that time, the key is I've increased my physical activity some.........its helped, i know if i wasn't doing it i would be adding pounds.
Did my first long distance trail run yesterday, I'm paying for it today however, I'm totally sore, everything below my waist hurts, even my toes, lol, i kicked a few rocks running down hill. it was big fun however, no regrets......11.3 miles through the Santa Monica mountains....very beautiful, ocean and mountain views....felt good for the first 8 miles, then, POW......its cool, I'll recover........ so far so good, I'm still on tract and enjoying the ride of WLS good luck to all of u, and happy holidays.
ONE YEAR
Sep 21, 2009
Well, one year ago today i was in the midst of recouping from WLS, at about 415lbs..glad that it was over, looking forward to my progress 3 months, 6 months, 1 year after surgery. And here i am.....down more than 200lbs from my heaviest (425 at consultation)..... 198lbs from my surgery weight.........
Hard to know where to begin. my most recent visit to the doc went well....all my levels are pretty much on target, blood pressure was 120/60........my good cholesterol levels are high as well as my vascular health (one of the best the docs said he has seen from a wls patient)......i kinda celebrated by going to breakfast at Jacks', a visit to Starbucks, then headed to the beach for a swim (hadn't been to the beach to swim in alot of years).......then later headed out to a little night spot with a couple of friends........had a little sushi and a couple of drinks........all in all a pretty good day. Of course its been a amazing year...alot of ups, some downs but I've learned that no day or journey will be perfect, there are no success stories without obstacles. You just have to push on. I wish that everyone could have accepted my weight loss, but you quickly learn that it upsets a few people who use to tease and make fun of you for being fat,..and now u weigh less than they do, you work out more than they do, you look better in clothes than they do, you are attracting more people than they are........it brings out alot of insecurity in people.............but, o well.....whatever.
I hope to just keep doing what I'm doing....i hope i can stay motivated, my biggest fear is to become complacent........i hope to never take my WLS for granted., i believe it was truly a gift. And like any great gift, u want to cherish it forever, protect it. LATER
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Hard to know where to begin. my most recent visit to the doc went well....all my levels are pretty much on target, blood pressure was 120/60........my good cholesterol levels are high as well as my vascular health (one of the best the docs said he has seen from a wls patient)......i kinda celebrated by going to breakfast at Jacks', a visit to Starbucks, then headed to the beach for a swim (hadn't been to the beach to swim in alot of years).......then later headed out to a little night spot with a couple of friends........had a little sushi and a couple of drinks........all in all a pretty good day. Of course its been a amazing year...alot of ups, some downs but I've learned that no day or journey will be perfect, there are no success stories without obstacles. You just have to push on. I wish that everyone could have accepted my weight loss, but you quickly learn that it upsets a few people who use to tease and make fun of you for being fat,..and now u weigh less than they do, you work out more than they do, you look better in clothes than they do, you are attracting more people than they are........it brings out alot of insecurity in people.............but, o well.....whatever.
I hope to just keep doing what I'm doing....i hope i can stay motivated, my biggest fear is to become complacent........i hope to never take my WLS for granted., i believe it was truly a gift. And like any great gift, u want to cherish it forever, protect it. LATER
10 months post-op
Jul 25, 2009
Wow, I'm very close to being official.......1 year post-op..........time has flown by.......a lot of ups over the 10 months , some downs , but no complaints. Just came from the docs everything looked pretty good, been slacking a bit on my B's....but overall doing well with the weight loss....surge weight was 420, i weighed in with the docs at 240.5, I had emergency hernia(umbib) 3 weeks ago...so i haven't worked out much at all......in fact the site got infected, very red and swollen....doing anti-bio tics....and the whole thing to try and recover...........hard to know what to write first without dragging on about allot of b.s non of u care about.........so il stop..lol..........i will post a bunch of new picks..............we all likes pics.............
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6 month profile
Mar 21, 2009
Just came back from the docs last Thursday, it was my 6 month check-up..............I'm officially down 145lbs from surgery, i currently weigh 275lbs......from a surgery weight of 420.........everything is on target and i feel pretty good...........those damn blood test are so accurate, it showed my calcium to be a little low as well as some b vitamins and a little low in iron, all of which i take a little inconsistently...........they were dead on, i just had to laugh a little inside when the nurse looked at the results..........I've been trying to get on top of it..........i really hope to lose another 30-40 lbs..........i know i can, I've just been little lax lately..............i eat fairly well during the week, but i get a little stupid on weekends, i will have to pull it together if i want to stay on target.................i have another 5 mile trail run on April 4Th, a few friends from work found out and they want to go, they saw my pics from the last race....................tough, tough run...........but fun........anywho.....good luck to you all......keep focused, and remember the gift.......................later..................
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All over the place??!!
Feb 12, 2009
my weight , eating habits, emotions, physical activity........all of it, all over the place.............my girl broke up with me 3 days ago, lost 10 pounds in the last week, eat great some days, lousy on other days (mostly weekends) weekends seems a time to celebrate, i don't even think I'm doing it consciously.........i want to be out, wear my new clothes.......i want to walk, be seen, eat, just celebrate where i am.....celebrate how i look, how i feel..........Some days i run 4 miles, other days I'm to lazy to do anything............anyway......i hope i can get some consistency going......i have my 6month check up in one month.......hope to drop another 10 pounds by then.....................later
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First 5K
Feb 02, 2009
Jogged my first 5k yesterday....redondo bch.Superbowl run........good race, lots of people showed up.........had alot of fun........went with my girlfriend who walked the entire distance, but it was cool, this was my thing, just glad she came along and participated......first two miles went ok.....started slowing the last mile or so.....at 300 lbs, its hard to keep a fast pace so i did most of the race at about a 5mph pace, slowing to about 3mph for the final mile......finished in 43min10sec..........i have finished faster (at the gym) but the crush of people and slowing in the turns slowed my time...........its all good, just glad i finished......what is the calc if i did 3.1 miles in 43min, whats the pace..........i will figure it out................since i have been running i have been super hungry, don't really understand why.......ate alot over the weekend......trying to keep it under control........but i kinda like running.......the most i have ever run without stopping is 1mile, and that was in high school...........to be able to jog 3 miles without stopping once is a huge accomplishment for me......want to do the 10k next year........still on a mission though to drop another 50-60lbs and start weight training.........alright.....later
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4 Months Post-Op
Jan 15, 2009
well well, 4 months post op.....for some reason it feels as if i had the surgery years ago.........alot has gone on in 4 months........certainly physically......emotionally to i guess.......surgery weight was 420, this morning i weighed in at 307.......my goal for the last two weeks was to get out of the 300's.........only lost 1 pound during the Christmas to new years period.....i know why too.........too many truffles, eating out, and not enough gym............i blame my new girlfriend..lol....:)..................jk.......but i have lost 6 pounds over the last 7 days.......so hopefully i am back on track.........went walking yesterday..........figured i did 4 miles.......jogged about 1 and 1/2 of it................feels good though........i will be running/walking in my first 5k, on super bowl Sunday..........my hope is to compete in my first triathlon maybe Oct/Nov of this year................i guess 113lbs in 4 months isnt bad..............and i am not being facetious, sometimes i feel guilty when i am eating.....as if i am doing something wrong.......for some reason i feel as if i should be much further along than i am..........but time has given me some perspective.........i have done alot in 4months.............i just don't want to be unsuccessful in this program........i did alot to get to this point, waited 3 years just to get the surgery.........i dont want to fail.
o.k...........enough of me........take car u all........i am putting up some new pics today or tomorrow, at 3 1/2 months.............later.
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o.k...........enough of me........take car u all........i am putting up some new pics today or tomorrow, at 3 1/2 months.............later.
Right On Track
Dec 18, 2008
came from my 3month check-up with my bariatric surgeon yesterday............everything is well.........blood work was perfect (surprised to see my cholesterol at 131)..........and I have lost 95lbs since surgery........life is pretty good right now.........I have no complaints......my goal is to lose about 30-35lbs over the next 3months when i return to the doc for my 6month exam..........later
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30 days post-op
Oct 17, 2008
Cool, I'm finally 30 days post-op.doin well, went to the doc's office yesterday...blood work looked good...and in the last 30 days i have lost 41lbs......i don't think i can keep going at that pace...but i will be happy, losing 12lbs or so every month.....still in the gym 3 days a week, .....40 minutes of cardio and about 30min of weight training...i return to the doc's office in 2months time.i hope to have lost 25lbs ..hopefully.............later
About Me
CA
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29.8
BMI
Surgery
09/15/2008
Surgery Date
May 16, 2008
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