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3/2005

Mar 08, 2005

3/9/2005 I have put the poodle, Curley, and I on the Catkins diet ha, ha. We have gained since my surgery consult from too many carbs. Except for dog biscuits and his dry food, he gets only protein table food for treats and snacks from now on. As for me I am drinking a sf no carb added Carnation instant breakfast for lunch and breakfast with only protein for snacks. Dinner is my choice and my evening snack is low to medium carb. After Scot goes to bed it is back to protein if I stay up late and get real hungry. At least I won't gain anymore, but it will allow me to eat at a few more restaurants before surgery. I have had my last hurrah with the desserts already.

You'd think with me being the "baby girl" my parents would want to be here for the wls, but heck my oldest brother was in the hospital three days 60 miles away and they didn't visit. My mom travels all over the country with her poor health so she could come if she really wanted to. I have always known I couldn't count on my brothers. Scot is a rock and that is what counts!

I have done some nice things for myself lately. I ordered two beautiful stainless baby spoons and four cocktail forks off of E-bay. I finished making a robe for the hospital that has pink poodles in the fabric, anything for a laugh. :) I bought things like a nail file and a new toothbrush for my hosp. bag. I also bought some lounging pj's. One pair does not look like pj's and is very loose in the waist so I will wear it to and from the hospital. I didn't have anything that loose and I will be going in at 5:30 AM.

3/14/2005 When I am post-op do I have to come up with low carb terms of endearment for my poodle Curley? Instead of Sweetie, Sweetie, Sweetie do I have to call him Sweet n Low, Sweet n Low, Sweet n Low or Splenda, Splenda, Splenda? Say it isn't so! When the groomer messes up his poodle do, we call him Muffinhead. Flax Seed Cracker Head just doesn't have the same ring to it. What do I call him instead of my little Cupcake Boy? My little sugar-free pup, uh I mean popcicle or Curley Swirl? Instead of Sweet Baboo should I try my little Bamboo Shoot?



Keeping it simple, let's just say my dad has decided to come for the surgery. I am very pleased. We will have a good time before hand and it means a whole lot. I am really getting excited. Pre-op tomorrow and all my classes Wednesday. The book I got doesn't say anything about bowel cleansing, that will be the first question I ask. LOL

3/17/2005 I have no real damage that I can tell, but I took a bad fall tonight. I slipped one foot only on my bathroom floor and did the splits and landed almost in a complete split. The fall was because of the slippery floor and not my weight, but I almost couldn't get up because of my weight and fear of getting on my bad knees. I was afraid that I was going to have to call the EMTs for help. Between my husband and I, we figured out how to get me up once I scooted out of the bathroom where I could move around. No way could Scot lift big me. I am sore all over, even my breasts which went flying. I have a feeling tomorrow is going to be bad. I do have muscle relaxers, pain pills and Celebrex all of which I can take because I an pre-op.

My pre-op stuff this week was a hoot. The lady that did one of my health histories was sooo slow. She adjusted her glasses, her throat and her wig between each and every question. They split my blood work into two sessions. They did my EKG with my bra on. They definitely don't stress over anything at St. Mary's, they won't get any ulcers there, but I think they are carriers.

I had my carpets cleaned today. They weren't real dirty and they didn't get them very clean. I complained. They said call the office and we will come back. I said, but you are here now.

3/23/2005 Wow, 1 week to go! I can't wait. I need this surgery more and more each day. I don't think my back is going to heal this time until I lose some weight. I can barely walk a block without it hurting. If I sit in a dining room or restaurant chair for more than 15 minutes my left leg cramps up very painfully when I stand up. I am having increasing difficulty getting up off my reclining sofa. I could go on and on. My new beginning is just around the corner!

Our visit with Scot's mom and sister was fun.

I really wanted a cigarette today. Almost broke down and bought a pack to smoke just one, but I am so close to my date. If my surgeon detects it in my blood on the day of surgery they will send me home. I bought candy instead. :( Pretty darn sad.

2/2005

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Jan. 2005

Jan 07, 2005

"Tough"......love!

"TOUGH"......love!

"There's noooooooooooooo crying in baseball.....!!!!!!"
That's the sentiment (scenario) that comes to mind sometimes when I hear some of the comments from people who've already had the surgery. In case you haven't made the connection, that's a line Tom Hanks made famous in the movie "A League Of Their Own." Resorting to tears or just giving up every time the going gets tough, or your sick of taking vitamins, getting in protein is hard, water doesn't taste good, etc, is NOT going to make you successful or keep you healthy. ENOUGH already! It's time to LOVE yourself enough to get "TOUGH" with your aftercare. Your long term health is worth it!!

Success comes with a backbone, NOT a wishbone!

First and foremost, you have to keep it POSITIVE. As with everything in life, if you think you can't - you WON'T! Simple enough?

I have to wonder when "we" (as adults) finally take ownership for our actions, our life and our health? We have been given a gift, a second chance to actually LIVE life again instead of merely existing in it. It's up to each of us to do that as healthy and productively as possible.

We're ALL statistics waiting to happen and the insurance companies are chomping at the bit. The bean counters are eager to drop Weight Loss Surgery ("WLS") from the policies; some already have. Don't you know that any negative feedback thrown into the mix only strengthens their cause? I may not be able to control every thing that happens to my body after WLS, but most things I can. I CHOOSE to take control and I will be a positive statistic when the numbers get counted.

We live in a spoiled society, expecting everything in life to come with a buncha really cool choices. Well, guess what? When it comes to your health, you're not always going to get a choice. You either DO IT and stay healthy, or you DON'T and your body pays the price.

The way I saw it, I had a 90 day healing and adjusting period after surgery. My 'super morbidly obese' body had more then enough stores to survive the learning curve. In turn, it gave me plenty of time to heal, adjust and learn. For those of you OVER 90 day's Post-Op, the probation period is over - its time to get serious and LIVE what you've learned.

~*~ You say you can't get in enough liquids through out the day, don't like the taste of water, or just keep forgetting? -- TOUGH! It's not an option anymore. Find a way to do it, get suggestions and tips from others in support groups, message boards, etc. Read, learn and JUST DO IT!! Why do you think there is a choice here?

~*~ You say you don't like the big horse pill type vitamins, or the tart chalky chewables? ...it's, just too many to bother with? Or maybe you just can't remember to take them? -- TOUGH! You gave up the option NOT to take vitamins when you agreed to have your insides rerouted. FIND a way to get them in; crushed, minced, chopped, liquified, in a shake, etc. No exceptions, your health depends on it.

~*~ Protein is a must. So you can't get it all in via foods and you don't like the way the shakes taste? -- TOUGH! Either get it through your meals (and there are a gazillion food choices out there) or supplement it with protein shakes and bars.

Trust me, I don't drink my protein shake every morning because I think it tastes like a chocolate blizzard from Dairy Queen. Ive tried many varieties over the last 2 years. I'd even venture to say 25 of the top sellers/flavors have crossed my lips. For the record? I've yet to find one that is as 'delicious' as boasted by the distributor. So what!!!! I still drink one every morning. My HEALTH dictates that I need "X" grams of protein per day. If I'm not getting enough from my meals then I supplement a shake. 'Nuff said!!!

I've actually walked the walk and reached my goal. Yep, I've stumbled a few times with my food choices and you know what? I'll trip a few more times. BUT, some things I will never fail at -- Vitamins, H20 and Protein. This surgery is a gift, I owe it to me and everyone else fighting the approval process, to do it right! I will continue to choke down my vitamins, my water and my protein every single day, for the REST OF MY LIFE. Some days will be easier then others, regardless, no days will be missed.

It's all about discipline. Create a routine, set a timer, develop a pattern, tie a string around your finger, glue a note to your forehead, whatever it takes.

You're an adult - take responsibility! If this surgery doesn't slap a back bone into you, not much will.