January 7th, 2009

Jan 07, 2009

I am finding it easier to look in the mirror and like myself of late. The weight has to go that is for sure but I am starting to realize the weight has nothing to do with me. I wish my feet didn't hurt so much because there would be no stopping me. I realize am so much more than this fat that invades my body and my organs. I can't wait to break free from its awful hold on my body and my mind. I keep wondering what it will be like to be active again. Chasing my sweet lil Oreo around in the yard I can picture his big ears perked up, his goofy lil face with his tongue hanging out the side of his mouth. I know he would be so happy to go on long walks, what a wonderful creature because right now he is okay with just hanging out with me.  Thank goodness he is a lil dog and can run and play in the house.

I am thankful for this upcoming surgery and the life it will be giving me. I refuse to die during or after this surgery because I DESERVE TO HAVE THIS NEW LIFE AND ENJOY IT!
I plan on
1-Taking Oreo on long walks
2-Playing with my upcoming grandchild who should be here in April. I should be able to keep up with him/her when they are a toddler
3-Getting out of a closed cock pit Kayak without having to tip the boat over and fall out of the boat
4-Taking my kayak on moving water and not worry about having the boat capsize and me drowning as I swim to a shoreline
5- Sitting  with my legs crossed, breathing at the same time and looking great while I do this.
6- Wearing underwear that doesn't have the waist elastic so tight that they roll down
7-Bending over to garden
8-Bragging to anyone and everyone who will listen how my feet feel great
9-Getting rid of my cpap or at least having one with lower pressure.
10-Dancing on a wet lawn without fear of falling.

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