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Changing My Trajectory
Jul 17, 2010
July 18, 2010I think of WLS as my last chance to change the trajectory of my weight gain.
In some ways, I feel ashamed that I couldn't just knock this weight off by myself with diet and exercise. In other ways, I'm proud of how I lived my life -- living life to the fullest (and eating whatever I want!). But the bigger I have become, the more difficult it has been for me to look forward to playing a game of tennis, or hiking, or playing in the lake. It hurts my joints too much, and I'm embarrassed that I huff and puff on what should be a simple walk. And most clearly, I don't want people to see me in a bathing suit.
I am here now because I see that my quality of life is slowly beginning to deteriorate, and I'm only 43.
My RNY has been scheduled for August 2 at Danbury Hospital with Dr. Laura Choi, pending insurance approval and hopefully getting a medical clearance from my doctor who gets back from vacation tomorrow after a long absence. Crossing my fingers that she'll see me even though I don't have an appointment.
On another note, I have become slightly obsessive about looking at this OH website daily; I enjoy looking at before and after pictures. I wonder how some of the people who had their gastric bypass years ago are doing now. And I notice that when people lose weight, one can see their eyes more clearly. I hope to be able to join the group soon, and perhaps 6 months from now I will feel more comfortable in jumping into pictures, instead of jumping out of them as I do now.
