Fears and tears

Jul 31, 2010

July 31, 2010

I'm sure I'm overthinking everything.  Look!  Two blog posts in one day!  

I've been thinking about the surgery -- less than 48 hours away -- and what I really think about is my fear of losing weight and then gaining it back.  I know it happens for a lot of people and I so don't want that to happen to me, after going through this whole process.  So many of us have been on diets before, but we relapse after a certain period of time.  I am hoping that this surgery is such a drastic measure that it will keep me on my toes.

Yesterday I was thinking about how much I will miss food as I know it -- I got a little teary about it.  The few people who know about the surgery asked if I'm excited about it.  No, not really.  But I know it's what I have to do -- I have to change course.  This is really the only option for me. 

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