28 Days, and How Everyone is Reacting

Oct 20, 2009

I'm now less than 30 days out, having just received my surgery date last week!  I've avoided telling most people.  I'd say only a handful know so far, but those who know have had some interesting reactions!

While I was going through the denial/appeal process with my insurance co., one of my coworkers (the only one I've told) was very supportive and trying to talk me up.  When I told her I got approved, her reaction to me changed.  She started saying things like "oh I guess I better start dieting right now so when you come back I will look smaller too.  Since you have more to lose, it will take you longer."  Um, yeah.  Wow.

My best friend doesn't want me to have the surgery.  He thinks I should stay exactly how I am.

My husband is already dreaming of my body post PLASTIC SURGERY and has been discussing breast implant sizes.

My brother didn't think I needed to get this done because it's only for "really big people."  Ugh, really?  My brother is 6'1" tall and weighs 250 lbs.  I'm 5'2" tall and weight 275 lbs.  He's such an ass.  :)  Then he started talking to me like I'm dying.  He started apologizing for being a bad brother and telling me he LOVES me!  (note:  my brother never EVER says "I love you.")  That freaked me the hell out.

I haven't told my daughter yet about the surgery because she's 5 and will start to stress too early.  I don't want her going to bed every night thinking she's going to wake up to me being in the hospital.

I told my client that I was going to be out, and I didn't tell him why.  He just told me to take care of myself.  I'm very lucky that I will get 3 weeks at home on disability and then I'll work from home for the rest of the year.  I really hope to return to work in January looking a lot different.  From what I'm reading, most people lose about 30-50 lbs in the first 2 months.  I hope I can come back to work in January closer to 230 or even 220!  That would be nice!

I'm trying to picture me under 200 lbs.  I remember being about 180 at my wedding 12 years ago, and I was fat even then.  I am setting my goal at 135 lbs, but I secretly want to be closer to about 115-120.  I guess it depends on how I start to look in those lower digits.

I had basically given up during my month long fight wth the insurance company.  Now I'm starting over again on the dieting portion.  I gained 5 lbs in depression and stress eating.  I'm trying to make up for that now.  I don't want to go back to the surgeon for my pre-op on Nov 5 and get yelled at.

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