13 Days, Making Lists, and Vampires

Nov 02, 2009

I'm now 13 days away from my surgery.  The time seems to be ticking by quickly, but not quickly enough.  :)  I'm making a million lists of all the things I need to get done before I leave work, for family, and for myself.  I feel like I'm doing all kinds of preparation, but I'm not really prepared.

I have not lost weight, and I'm going for my pre-op on Thursday.  During my whole insurance fiasco, I had given up hope and ate my emotions as usual.  I put on about 5 or 6 pounds since my first meeting with Dr. Mo.  I think he's going to be mad, but I am praying he doesn't cancel my surgery.  I guess I'l see in a few days.

I feel like there is so much to do, but I can't quite wrap my mind around what it is!  :)  Yes, I'm freaking out.  I know once I calm down, I'll get it all sorted out in my head.

I've been testing protein shakes and different brands of mulitvitamins.  I have so many vitamins I almost don't know what to do with them all.  I don't like about 2/3rds of them.

Emotionally, things are getting weird.  I'm at peace with my decision.  I'm scared to die on the surgery table or from some massive complication, but I have a sense of peace that I'm actually going to be OK.  I'm having all those "what if" thoughts and wondering if I should do things as if I am going to die.  But I don't think I will die.  I'm praying that God will be in my corner on this, and I'm really praying he will see that my little girl needs me!

I will be taking before and after pictures and measurements soon.  I'm trying to wait until the weekend just before the surgery. 

November 16 will be here and gone before I know it.

To be honest, I'm excited for the surgery, but I'm really looking forward to watching the Season 1 DVD set of Trueblood that I bought for my recovery!  :)
 

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