pseudonymdc
10 days, pre-op with surgeon, facing the abyss
Nov 06, 2009
Here I am! 10 days out from surgery, and the nerves are in high gear. I'm very worried and stressed.I think the emotions and thoughts I'm dealing with are probably typical. #1 I'm afraid of dying on the operating table or from a stupid complication that nobody predicted. #2 I'm afraid I'll get this done and then fail because I won't stick to the plan. #3 I'm TERRIFIED of being sick to my stomach every time I put something in my mouth (from reading other posts).
To respond to my own fears:
#1 The doctors have and will take every precaution to ensure nothing goes wrong. It's not my time. I have a beautiful 5 year old to raise, and she needs me.
#2. I will not fail because I am having my anatomy restructured and will not let that go to waste. I quit smoking, and I will quit depending on food for comfort.
#3. Everybody is different. I can't predict how my body will react, but I can be prepared for the possibilities.
Every day I get closer to the surgery, the more emotional I become. I am basically an emotional puddle right now.
I keep trying to look at before and after pics to remind myself that each of those people who have made such amazing progress started just like me.
I can find hope in the abyss. I can do this!
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About Me
Stafford, VA
Location
45.4
BMI
Surgery
11/16/2009
Surgery Date
Surgeon
Jun 16, 2009
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