psychnurse76

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i had some friends over tonight and my friend wanted to show her man what i used to look like so she made me show them my old pics on here. but i was so embarrassed. wtf? dude, i know i have come a long way so why do i care? well one pic in particular i look like a big white godzilla but i wouldnt even click on that one. Anyone else feel the same way? or am i a weirdo?
side note: ok i know i am a little out therre but im not talking eccentric..

but i cant. have u ever been sure that something wouldnt bother you then when the reality of the situation set in you realized it was just too much to handle? sucked bawls huh? yeah, i know what you mean.

is for the funkin birds! lol

It still trips me out how differently men treat me now. There is this really really young guy who works at the gas station i go to by my house and he is always trying to convince me to take down his number! wth? and he is wayyy hot. lol seriously though I think he is under 21. Hey, im not trying to be the object of a chris Hansen interview you know. But yes, i have thought about taking his number but i wont cuz its just wrong. oh well at least he brightens up my day huh? lol

yeah so my cuz had given 3 pairs of designer jeans a few months back cuz they cut in at the waist and she couldnt wear them. at that time neither could I (they are size 18) but now...not only can I wear them BUT they are baggy!!! holy mierde! I am shocked I was happy to wear a 24 but a 16? im now that my bottom is catching up with my top lol! I wear a 14 top....*sniff sniff...bye bye  boobies lol

so today really sucked. I have been sad all day and i can't snap out of it. a very very good friend of mine made a very good decision which in turn negativley effected me. I even tried watching tourettes guy on you tube (which always makes me laugh so hard i cry) and I might as well have been watching a blank screen. what am I gonna do now? i need something more to look forward to...or a good slap across the head to snap me out of my funk...sigh...sniff sniff i will miss them terribly...

update...
yayyyy!!!! that person decided not to take themsaelves away from me! ahhhh... I feel way better!

since last week!!! yay me. wahooo. ok im done lol

met someone or experienced sometging that changed your whole way of thinking? its like my values that have been in place for  my whole life have changed because of one experience. after 31 years i am now completely unsure of who I am. and usually i am someone who knows exactly what i want, how im gonna get it i mean, i always have a plan now though, i am lost. but in a good way i guess. i just nee dto get used to it. Guess i cant ALWAYS be in control huh? LOL

ok this sucks ! i feel like crap. and and and im a being a big sissy la la. my head,throat,nose and chest hurt. heard enough yet? cuz  still got more...i sound like a 10 year old boy cuz of my throat, and i have no energy. ok i think i am done now...well, for now anyways

so i went to breakfast with my grandma whom i havent seen in about 4 years or more. (After my grandad died, she kinda drifted away) ANYWAYS, she has been with this man angel (who is of from mexico) for almost 15 years now. He is very nice to me always has been. well when they saw me today all he could do was call me flaca (skinny) LOL! his english es no bueno but he is so damn funny. He tries hard, but it just doesnt always come out right. I had to keep telling him not yet, but hopefully soon. He told me not to lose anymore weight. I just called him borracho and told him he needed some glasses LOL