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Well things are about the same for me . Hanging in there . I have gotta step up my game and start moving my ass and see if that produces a plateau breaking result ! LOL  I blame pretty much myself I have been hobbling along but not busting my ass so it is all on me .LOL  My body loves the 204-207lbs range for some reason. Not complaining too much as it is much better than the 261lbs range !!!!   I had my little unfill and that has helped alot I can now get down dense proteins. i had to cancel my next fill due to ins. issues. The Dr's office told me that my fills were covered 100 % now by my ins HOWEVER 2 wks ago I got a nice fat bill that says otherwise and come to find out after alot of headache.... my ins is applying this to my dedutable since it is a "procedure". So I have a 300.00 bill and could not afford to add to that right now as I am already paying off some things in relation to my surgery.:( So this month I am taking a break .Hopefully will go next month as I am starting to realize if i take my time I can eat more so I will need a fill by then.:)   I am not broke up about not being able to go b/c I was a little scared of being too tight again this soon after my unfill (a month) we were going to play it by ear. Anyways ....
Well the surgery wars continue on here and then yesterday someone posted a link to a post about a study about longterm lapband results . I KNEW I should have not even read it ....LOL but of course I did and I kept it civil but stated my case. I honestly DO NOT think the OP meant to cause any sh*t storms she just posted it but of course there were the usual naysayers as well as several who do not even have bands that were rambling on . I would not even weigh in on a post about another surgery type.Main board or not. If it was headed as ....RNY failures I would not even read it b/c it does not pertain to me.Some people are just negative and want to cram that down everyone else's throat. Or they have too much time on their hands. I have shit today I cannot hardly keep up on the lapband forum much less troll other boards , even the main one,  looking for trouble.
So I read a post from a particular well known band basher and her statistics were WAY off as usual and before I thought about it I posted out of frustration asking where she got them and then happened to remember a part of the above study so I looked and that is where she got it from but had reworded it slightly so I DELETED my post as anyone would do.Well she either read it in the seconds it was up or knows how to access deleted posts b/c she posted a flip comment  over  my DELETED post!!!! So I promptly , and maybe I should not have....hahaha, told her just how I felt about her. I think she is a whiney,bitter, angry person and I did not include the fact there is nothing wrong with her band she just does not work it and chooses to balme it instead of getting her ass in gear and finding out what to do to make it work.JMO !!!!JMO !!!!  I am seriously thinking about taking another break from here and just maintaining my blog. This is so stupid and yeah there is support here but some of the BS you have to take to get thru to get it sucks!!!! I am sick of feeling attacked on our own board as well as other boards . Someone mentioned there should be a haters board and there should !!!! Take all that negativity there. No one really wants to hear it. I am NOT talking about ppl with issues or questions asking or expressing frustrations and fears and such I am talking about the whiney ppl who make you think the band is crap and will never work for anyone! I think they suck and should go on and poison the air somewhere else.
OK PMs rant over for now....can't promise it will not resume !

OK.... I gave in and posted on a "band bashing" post . :( I know....I know ....WEAK ! LOL   I get SO tired of the same ppl coming on here not to objectively give their own experience which happens to be bad but to come on here and day after day try SO hard to make all of us with bands regret it or fear it and those who are looking into bands run in horror! They spout facts and every once in awhile throw out some link to read but make outrageous  claims that the band just does not work most of the time.Maybe I am stupid but there are only a handful of those band bashers on here there are way more ppl here who are having success with their bands. There might be 10 posts on here and they will jump on the one negative one and go ...AHA see the band does not work ! Any complications....here they come ....AHA the band does not work!   If they spent as much time tryin gto work their band or fix their issue as they do on here spouting band hate ....MAYBE they would have had some success .  I know there are those that it does not work out for due to no fault of their own , then there are those who just have crappy Dr and after care and that contributes BUT dare I say there is also , I fear a group that a) had unrealistic expectations for their band and when it did not immediately produce magic results they claim it "does not work". OR B) when they have any problems,which are a risk for all of us, they claim it does not work. NOOOOO....it did not work for YOU.That does not mean it will not work for ANYBODY !!!! Open your eyes and your mind and realize....Not every WLS works for everyone.  There are plenty of ppl on everyone of these boards who are not happy with their surgery choice ....feel it did not work for them....some have even revised . In the long run ....it does not matter which road we take we are all on the same journey ....to LOSE WEIGHT.  I get really pissed about this on here and even take breaks from here because it is SO redundant and aggravating. :(

Welp all is well around here. I am doing well since my slight unfill the other week .I am eating good protein and veggies and loving my band. I had went up a little while my band was too tight and after being sick  for the last few days I lost what I was up AND another pound leaving me at....204 !!!! I am SO excited!!!! Onderland is only 4 little , measley pounds away!!!! YAY !!!!
Welp just checking in going to dose up on meds lol still have a sore throat. :(  
I got to change my ticker tonight !!!! This is the lowest I have been since surgery.:)  Woohoo.

OK....OK....waves white flag !!!!   I made an appt this morning to get a lil unfill on friday! I am just too tight. I can bearly get down mashed potatoes or soups since having my last fill a few wks ago . Mine uaully take a wk or wk and a half to kick in  so now I am SUPER tight!  :(............       Boooooooooooo....
I need to be able to eat proteins and veggies like a salad and this gurgling and air and getting stuck crap is a real downer! Not so much as the fact my wt is NOT moving. BUT.... I have faith this will fix it and I'll be back to doing my thang real soon.:) Never had an unfill so I dunno .... should not be a big deal.

I am SO excited !!!! I went to Old Navy today and bought new jeans in a size....16 !!!!  I started this journey in a tight 22/24. I did the happy dance in the dressing room.Hahahaha.  On a side note I think that I am too tight and am giving it a day or so before I call the Dr . It is almost my TOM and I have some sinus things going on . Not gonna let it go too long though. I think this is why my wt loss scale wise has kinda stalled again honestly . I seem to be losing inches though! My clothes fit different lately.:)
Ok so just on here tooting my own horn ....Beep ....Beep !!!! :D

It has been forever since I posted . My grandmother was sick and passed and the kids have been sick so I have just kind of been lurking.LOL  So anywho I do have a NSV to report.... I have bought several new things lately in a size....16!!!! I will admit it needs a little stretch to it but I do not care a 16 is a 16!!!! I can often fit in the juniors plus  in the 17 also.;D SO exciting. I started this journey in a 24. I STILL have not gotten to onderland but it is oh so close. I am going to give myself  this month and see how it goes.Gotta get there. Starting to see and worry about lose skin.Bahhhhhhh.... So I am going to research some exersizes for my inner arms and thighs.Bathing suit season is fastly approaching and I am gonna wear one this year by gosh! I also just made our summer vacay plans at the beach.Mid July. I would love to be down 15 ish by then. Not holding the breath or anything just saying.:)
I bought a pair of capris (size juniors 17) and they have distressed places on them.They look so good i have been wearing them non stop hahaha who cares if it is 50 degrees ! I have been lucky and we have been having a warm streak so it has been appropriate to wear them.:) It has been in the 60's and 70's alot . Even if not .... I wear them!!!! I got them in the JUNIORS dept !!!! Hahaha   So excited about this . I also cannot wait til summer that is my favorite season. Tanks and flip flops.Woohoo!!!!

Things are going great I am down to my all time w/ the band low of .... 206 !  I am flooding my body with dense proteins and water and the lbs seem to be coming off so far.=D   I am having to learn the whole ....NOT ONE MORE BITE thing.I keep thinking " I can have just one more bite " but NO !!!! It is painful and even sometimes comes back so just a little advice "wen you are done you are done! " .LOL I guess that is the food addict in me wanting  just a little more. That is no good and I am slowly learning to push away and get a box or give it to the dogs (which they like LOL) or put in straight away in a plastic container and in the fridge to get away from the temptation. I am feeling good and looking better and am able to start shopping in the "regular" sizes now. Not always but alot which is great to me. I still sometimes feel like the skinny girls are looking at me and go what is she doing over here. Hasn't sunk in yet that it is OK for me to be in that area too! LOL
My shoe size as gone down one whole size! So I am now getting to buy new shoes.=D  
Welp I am off I will check back in soon!

I am at 207 !!!!! YIPPPEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE !!!!
Only 7 more lbs to ONDERLAND !!!! I can smell it :)

Doing well . The Prilosec and giving up caffiene must have done the trick  cause I am all better ! I am SO glad too :)  I had a great day eating today and got alot of good protein in YAY !!!! I have been doing mostly beans and such for protein while my tummy healed but did add in some really soft meats in the last day or so.
I think I am losing inches cause I am noticing my things are looser and I went to put on my favorite heals this weekend and they were too BIG !!!! LOL   I am going to have to go down a size I think. Anyways I am trotting right along and loving it ! Just checking in :)

Well I went to see the Dr today. It was a regular appt. I have lost 9 lbs by their scale since last visit last month!!!! YAY !!!! We talked about my reflux thing and decided not to do a fill and to ditch things that would cause reflux mainly.... caffiene ......:(  Starbucks and I are NOT happy about this but if I must give it up I will do it . So I will go decaf .  WHEWWWW don't look forward to that. He said I will probably be needing a fill in a month so I will go back then and see .
The reflux thing has calmed down alot and is now much more of a gas thing. He showed me on a diagram what was likely causing the back up of acid and so I am feeling better about that. Also that it seems to be getting resolved with the Prilosec.I think I have a little tummy bug so that might be a major factor in the symptoms going on right now. Three of us here have the same things going on so it is not just me.LOL I am taking it easy food wise....soups and mushie type things mostly.
I am so excited  about my weight loss !!!! 9 lbs is ALOT !!!! WOW