Tiger Lover
October 30, 2006
Oct 30, 2006
I went to see Dr. Simon today. I have been self sabotaging myself. I have only lost 1 pound since the last time I saw him over a month ago. I eat all the wrong things, sweets, cookies you name it. He tried to give me a fill, but was unsuccessful. I go in on Wednesday for a fill under Flouro.
I have decided that after I get my fill on Wednesday I am going to crack down and take this surgery seriously. I am going to try and follow the plan and have only three small meals a day with no snacking in between. I know that it is going to be hard, but I need to do this for me. I have already given up on the surgery and I can't do that. I know I can make this work.
I am going to try and use my LA Weight loss protein bars to help me get through this. I am going to eat a bar for breakfast as late in the morning as I can stand to and then a bar as late in the afternoon as I can as well. Then I am going to have a sensible dinner. I am going to weigh out about 4 ounces of protein with a vegetable of my choice and a small amount of starch. I am going to eat as slowly as I possibly can and not drink when I eat (which I don't do now). I am going to try with all of my might to make this work. I need to do this for me.
My husband likes me as I am right now. He is very attracted to me at the weight that I am, but he promises me that if I loose the weight he will still be attracted to me. This is a huge fear of mine as he like chunky women and I am afraid that if I get too thin he will no longer be attracted to me. He assures me this will not be the case. So I am free to make this work.
October 14, 2006
Oct 14, 2006
I cannot believe it has been over a month since I have posted on my profile. I had the wedding of my dreams to the most wonderful, caring, giving man on September 9th. The wedding was perfect. It was a little chilly and very windy for our outdoor wedding, but other than that it was perfect. Everything went off without a hitch, as the saying goes. I wish I could relive the entire night all over again. I go back in for another fill on the 30th, but I have decided that I am not going to just fall down and let this surgery not work for me. I went back to LA Weight loss today. I am going to use their help to try and get down to 170 pounds. I just have to remember to follow band rules like not drinking after I eat for 30 minutes and such. Between the two I should start to see some results. I have to start exercising again. I stopped doing that when I went on my honeymoon and with starting the new job have had difficulty getting back into the routine. I am really, basically making excuses. I need to get off my butt and do it.
I had the time of my life the night before at my Bachelorette party with my three sisters, my sister in law, my cousin, my mother and my nieces. Half way through the guys returned from the Bachelor party so I even had my two brothers and my brother in law there as well. We had so much fun. And getting ready for the wedding was a blast. The reception was so much fun and everything looked wonderful.
I have not lost any weight since surgery other than the 10 pounds I lost in the first two weeks after surgery. My clothes are a little loose but I have lost maybe another 3-5 pounds but that is it. I followed the plan to a tee until I left for my honeymoon and had no luck. I ate basically anything I wanted on my honeymoon but because I had some restriction I got full quickly and stayed full for long periods so I did not gain any weight while I was away. Since getting home and starting my new job, I have found it very difficult to stay on plan. I find myself eating sweets regularly since they are so often available at work. And I also find that I do not get full easily and I do not stay full for long.
I need to get used to this new profile. I hope I can get it spruced up like I had it before with all of my beautiful tigers on it. Hopefully someone will help me get it there.
September 2, 2006
Sep 02, 2006
Only 7 days until my wedding. I cannot believe the big day is almost here. I am really excited and the plans are all set in motion. Bad news is the forecast is calling for rain. I am really bummed out about that. It’s a 30% chance but it’s a bummer none the less.
I have been really bad on my diet. I have been eating cookies and fried foods. I weighed in today on my home scale at 202. I was 198.5 a few days ago. I really need to get back on track. I don’t know why I can’t seem to make the right decisions. I was good so far today. Just had some grilled chicken, but I ate that too fast and it made me throw up. That was a first since surgery. I’ve never done that. Thank goodness too cause it was horrible.
August 22, 2006
Aug 21, 2006
Today I felt some more restriction than I did yesterday. I took longer than usual to drink my protein shake this morning and for lunch I was only able to eat 2/3 of a tuna fish sandwich on wheat bread when normally I can eat the whole thing.
I don’t go back now until the 11th of September, 2 days after my wedding. I am going to try and stay off of the scale until them and see where I am at that time. We’ll see.
August 16, 2006
Aug 15, 2006
Well I was WRONG! The dress has to be taken in an inch on either side. I lost a full inch in my bust and a full inch in my waist from the last time I was measured which was only about 5 weeks ago (2 or 3 days before surgery). I was so excited I could scream. The dress even looked better on me. This is so cool.
August 14, 2006
Aug 13, 2006
It is and so far I have had a protein shake for breakfast, and a can of tuna with lo-fat mayo for lunch at . I am just now starting to get a little hungry. I am debating if I am going to have another protein shake and then have dinner later or if I should have some fruit. I have some watermelon in the fridge which would probably taste pretty good right now. So goal is to eat three meals a day of ½ a cup per meal with no snacking. But I am also supposed to get a balance in as well, which is never going to happen if that is all I eat. So I am going to eat some other stuff when I am hungry like fruit.
With this fill, I should start to see some weight loss. I was in
So I am happy I got my fill. Now on to some much needed weight loss.
August 8, 2006
Aug 07, 2006
I am following my plan probably 85% of the time. I eat my 3 meals a day but they are usually more than ½ a cup because my appetite is rather high. I eat until I have the first feeling of fullness and I stop. I am eating proteins mostly. Tuna fish (in water) with lo-fat mayo, cottage cheese with spaghetti sauce, finely chopped chicken with spaghetti sauce, egg salad with lo-fat mayo, and protein shakes. And for snacks I am having cantaloupe and watermelon and SF puddings. Heck today I ate an entire cantaloupe over the course of the day. I don’t take a half hour to eat like they want me too. I am usually too hungry to take that long and I usually get in plenty of water.
I am waling a mile and a half at least 4-5 days out of every week, so I am getting my exercise. I’ll like to walk everyday, but that does not always happen. When I get passed week 6 and I know I am completely healed I plan top start running again three times a week and walking the other days of the week. I can’t wait to start running again. I burn so many calories when I run. I wish I could run now, I’d be loosing so much quicker.
I go for my first fill on the 14th. I can’t wait. That will help with the hunger issue and bring my appetite down. I will be eating less, hopefully and with the exercise I will hopefully loose weight at a faster pace. Why couldn’t I be one of the lucky ones?
July 24, 2006
Jul 23, 2006
July 20, 2006
Jul 19, 2006
What I cannot deal with is the BAD BREATH. From my body going into Ketosis, which is a good thing, because not I am burning stored fats, my breath is horrible. Gene doesn't want to kiss me any more. This really stinks, literally! I put away the scale because I was on it everyday and often more than once a day. I cannot be a slave to the scale. So I put it away and I will wait for my follow-up appointments at the
I was a little bummed that Dr. Simon did not come to see me in the hospital. I thought for sure he would especially given that I had cold feet right before and thought about doing a bypass instead. I was really having head hunger for a few days there but I realized that it will only conquer me if I let it. I have to be strong and stay on top of things and I know I can loose this weight fast. I'm doing really great so far. The bad breath really is killing me though. Oh well, it's only temporary and it's a small price to pay to finally get this weight off.
July 11, 2006
Jul 10, 2006
I had some cold feet this week. I even called my surgeon yesterday and talked with him about doing the bypass instead of the Lap-Band. We talked yesterday and again today at length. He assured me that I was making the right decision and that the Lap-Band was the right surgery for me. Especially given that I have a lower BMI. I told him my fear was that I cheat on every diet that I am ever on. He said that is the case with 95% of the patients he operates on. The Lap-Band will help me to not feel hungry it may just take a few adjustments. He said what makes this work is the fact that they see us so often. He said what I will need is just a lot of tender loving care and support at home and to exercise and to have some willpower. He told me he had faith that this was the right surgery for me.
So now I am down to 1 day 8 hours and 32 minutes. I am going to go to bed now and I’ll be that much closer to the new me!
