Tiger Lover
February 1, 2006
Jan 31, 2006
I got my EKG today. Doctor says everything looks great. Tomorrow is the psych eval. I am also going to have a sleep study done as well, just in case they need it. I never get a full night’s sleep, and I never feel rested in the morning no matter how much sleep I do get. Hopefully I can get that scheduled rather quickly.
January 31, 2006
Jan 30, 2006
Today was not such a great day for me. I am feeling really down about my business. Sales are not going well and to be honest I really hate going to work each day. I just want to crawl back in bed each day after getting my son off to school and stay there. But I get up each and every day and go to my store, knowing very few people if any, are going to come through my doors. My fiancé has invested so much money into this business that I feel obligated to make it work. But I hate it! I wish I could just walk away and get a real job with a paycheck, and medical benefits, vacation time and a retirement plan. But I am just venting. I feel so numb emotionally today. Not depressed, just numb.
Well I have my EKG scheduled for tomorrow and my Psych Eval scheduled for Thursday. Then in 7 days I have my initial consultation at
University
Hospital
. I am really excited about this appointment. I just pray that I am approved through my insurance. If I don’t get approved, I will not be able to have this surgery. I am hoping that United Health Care is not as stringent as some of the other insurance companies out there. I also pray that the approval process moves along very quickly. Wouldn’t it be awesome if I could get approval and have my surgery by the end of March?!?!?!? = ) I’d have 5 months to loose weight before my wedding. Woo Hoo!
Well I have my EKG scheduled for tomorrow and my Psych Eval scheduled for Thursday. Then in 7 days I have my initial consultation at
January 27, 2006
Jan 26, 2006
Today is Friday. In a few hours I'll be heading to my Sister's house for the weekend. She is more than 3 hours away. She just had knee surgery, so my son and I are going to visit and help her out. I can't wait. I have only 11 days until my initial consultation. This weekend will help me get through 2 of those days. I am really excited. Next week I have my EKG and Psych eval scheduled! Woo Hoo!
January 26, 2006
Jan 25, 2006
Well I am down to 12 days until my initial visit with the surgeon. My blood work has been done; my EKG and Psych Eval are both scheduled. I have been exploring the OH website a lot over the past two days. This website offers so much. I am so glad that my friend told me about it. The message board is a great place to vent and get things off your chest. It’s also a great place to get feedback and advice. And I even learned today that there is a post-op pregnancy forum. Gene and I are getting married in September and we’d like to have two children. So it’s so nice to know that there are other women out there in the same boat as me. I can’t wait until February 7th! I’ll keep you posted.
January 20, 2006
Jan 19, 2006
In 18 days I have my initial visit at the surgeon's office. Being the impatient person that I am, I contacted the hospital and asked if there was anything I could do to move the process along faster. They suggested I go ahead and schedule my psych eval with Dr. Tim Hayes. I have already gotten approval with my insurance to meet with him. He just called me minutes ago and scheduled my appointment for February 2. They also told me that I would need an EKG and blood work as well. I have already had the blood work done, so I went ahead and scheduled the EKG with my primary care physician for February 1. Things are progressing nicely. I just hope that I am approved rather quickly for the surgery.
January 16, 2006
Jan 15, 2006
I am down to 22 days until my initial visit. I just emailed the hospital and asked them if they would tell me about what appointments I would need to make with the Psychologist/Psychiatrist and Nutritionist and if there were specific people I would need to meet with. I would like to see if I can get a jump start on the process by setting my appointments now. I have already gotten my letter from my primary care physician and had my blood work done this past week. So hopefully this process will move along quickly. My friend had the gastric bypass and she had her surgery 3 months after the date of her initial visit. I can only pray that my process moves along that quickly.
January 9, 2006
Jan 08, 2006
Well only 29 days until my initial visit. I am really excited about my appointment and the prospect of having this surgery. If I am this excited, I can’t wait to see how excited I will be when the surgery date comes along. I explained the surgery more in depth to Gene and he was quite receptive to it. I am looking forward to his attending the first meeting with me.
January 5, 2006
Jan 04, 2006
Just 33 days until my appointment at
University
Hospital
. I cannot wait! I just cannot keep weight off on my own. A few weeks ago I was on a TV show called
Bridge Street
for my basket business. I just received the tape of the show (as it was live and I was unable to see it) and was amazed at how I look. Of course the woman on the show was rather tiny, but I looked so large compared to her. I cannot believe I have let myself get like this. I think back to the days in high school when I "Thought" I was fat and think “if I only knew what the future held for me”.
My fiancé hugged me yesterday and told me he thought I was sexy and was going to miss me as I am today (he likes bigger women). He said he doesn't really want me to have the surgery as he's afraid I am going to be tiny. He is being supportive none the less. He's even going to go with me to the appointment on the 7th of February. I will never be tiny, as that is not my goal. My goal is to be healthy. I would love to be 150 pounds again. I know that with the banded weight loss surgeries one tends to not loose as much as with the gastric bypass, but I just don’t want to go that route. I don’t have any support in my family for that surgery. But I do have their support for the banded surgery.
I’ll be getting married in 9 months and 4 days. I just pray that it does not take too long to go through the approval process and have the surgery so I can loose some of the weight in time for the ceremony. I just don’t want to be a fat bride. Many of Gene’s friends will be meeting me for the first time. I want them to meet me in a good state rather than as I am today in my worst! I’ll keep you posted on the progress!
My fiancé hugged me yesterday and told me he thought I was sexy and was going to miss me as I am today (he likes bigger women). He said he doesn't really want me to have the surgery as he's afraid I am going to be tiny. He is being supportive none the less. He's even going to go with me to the appointment on the 7th of February. I will never be tiny, as that is not my goal. My goal is to be healthy. I would love to be 150 pounds again. I know that with the banded weight loss surgeries one tends to not loose as much as with the gastric bypass, but I just don’t want to go that route. I don’t have any support in my family for that surgery. But I do have their support for the banded surgery.
I’ll be getting married in 9 months and 4 days. I just pray that it does not take too long to go through the approval process and have the surgery so I can loose some of the weight in time for the ceremony. I just don’t want to be a fat bride. Many of Gene’s friends will be meeting me for the first time. I want them to meet me in a good state rather than as I am today in my worst! I’ll keep you posted on the progress!
December 8, 2005
Dec 07, 2005
I canceled the appointment with Dr. Mecenas office in
I have my appointment in February with Dr. Cunningham. Dr. Cunningham would not be my surgeon though as he only performs the gastric bypass. What they told me is that they schedule the appointment with any of the surgeon’s that are available just so we can go though the initial consultation.
August 16, 2005
Aug 15, 2005
I just added my photos below. I can't stand the way I look and feel. I was just looking at a picture of me taken this time last year. I can't believe how much a person can change in one year. I yo-yo so badly. I am looking forward to meeting with Dr. Mecenas in a few weeks.
