Schaefersgirl
For Me To Remember
Feb 10, 2010
It's early morning and I find myself too excited to sleep. In a few hours I will be going to my orientation and as I examine my thoughts, realize that I feel as though I am getting ready to truly start my life. Butterflies flit through my stomach and I have to acknowledge the nerves that are on end too; it's not hard to understand that, with how shy a person I am. Because I have always been overweight, I learned to put up barriers between myself and the outside world and to know that I should let them down is a little overwhelming. I am feeling a surge of confidence though, and am ready to take on whatever is heading my way. There has always been this person that I knew I was inside and have hated that when others look at me, they don't see her. I get judged before even being talked to and people don't get to know how funny I can be or how loyal I am to those I consider my truest friends. I feel as though I've been given a vitamin shot of self-esteem because I'm finally doing something to take care of myself and I don't care what anyone else thinks about it. This is for me....for my health...for my life.
