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Lets see, let's start at the beginning...
I haven't been around all that often and my slow weightloss is getting frustrating.  I have weighed myself today and I am 298.  so in three weeks its' only been eight pounds =o/  I dont understand it, I haven't changed my eating habits since the soft foods era with the exception of a few added meats, but it's hard for me to cook for myself by myself

I went to get my shot yesterday, and my whole arm is sore what is worse onthe slow weight loss is that ive been working out every other day walking and running on the treadmills and various stair steppers/gliders/sliders and weights for the arms
I cant tell a weight loss change and i know that it wil take time before i do but damn three weeks and only eight pounds?!?! 

well i am finally under 300 which i guess is the only plus.

school is very difficult, and it is hard catching up ive been trying to keep up with the hard lessons, and the lack of teacher, and codes and fast pace, it really is killing me.  

I keep to myself mostly still, I study in my room, take care of my grandmother, goto the gym and come back to my room to do more studying.  I never go out, still don't like going out by myself, not because its dangerous, because its not.  LoL  why go out alone?!?

I dunno what else to say... lol I'll try to update a little more often.

Highest Weight:  375-ish Start Weight At Surgery:  349  1st Week Post OP:  330  2nd Week Post OP:  324  3rd Week Post OP:  322  4th Week Post OP:  317  5th Week Post OP:  ---  6th Week Post OP:  307  7th Week Post OP:  ---  8th Week Post OP:  ---  9th Week Post OP:  --- 10th Week Post OP:  298

Whoa.  It's snowed like crazy last night.

I glanced out the window last night around ten, and I saw flurries.
I commented on how it was flurrying but didn't think anything about it.
I didnt even think it would be around by today.

Fast forward to today, I forgot all about the flurries.
I peek out the window and see ten inches of snow on my air conditioning unit.
=oO

I look down at the ground and see more.  Funny that.  I just want to crawl back in bed now. hahaha

mmmm chobani greek yogurt.
I am waiting for my second half of my check to get my laptop, and i got some money from my uncle's girlfriend for the babysitting taxes or whatever.  Sooooooooo

I have a shopping list... I am a tech nerd.  I want to take a look at the camara I want at best buy, so I can buy it on ebay for 150 dollars cheaper, with more stuff (i.e. mem card, tripod, case).  LOL   I wanna make sure I like the camara, and I can understand it, and stuff before I put that kind of money on it.  Especially when bought on ebay there really is no guarantee.

So I want to see if I like it, by doing some research at best buy.
I also have to get myself weighed... I never did last week, to see if I lost the last seven pounds-ish to finally be in the two's. 

So I should get going, omg that snow is daunting.
LOL  but I am a winter person,  I would rather go out in this that anything above 80.  I melt =o/
 

Crazy week.  I haven't weighed myself this week.

I need to start exercising more, I just get so wrapped up in studying I forget, and then it's like.... I'll do it tomorrow.  Just trying to understand this binary crap is frustrating, and this submask net stuff =o/.   25 = 11001   its like WTF im crazy lol.

I take care of my Grandmother almost fulltime, I used to before the surgery, but I can't lift her at all now.  She had both her legs amputated... well... its started last May she had two toes off the right leg, June she had one toe off the left leg; then in Sept she had the the right leg cut just below the knee, and then in Dec. she had her left leg amputated right below the knee.  Diabetes.

I coudn't lift her at all before my surgery when she had them both amputated, and much less now, nothing over 10 pounds as my doctor has instructed.  So my uncle is here taking care of her, but because I am studying so much, he doesn't want to bother me.  Well the other day he had her in the room on the commode (portable toilet) and he went to throw her pamper away.  (She has Alzheimers with dementia)  and he never told me he was gonna leave her on the commode.   Well she fell off the commode, head first because of the alzheimers she didnt put her hands up, smacked head first into the metal leg of the bed. 

She cracked her head open, the inside of her nose was bleeding.  She bled like I have never seen anyone bleed before.  We went through a whole roll of paper towels, 4 packs of gauze and a maxipad thing the emt put on her when they arrived.  All that within twenty minutes of falling.  To give you an idea, we took four thick gauzes, put them on her forehead, taped them to her forehead, and in less than five minutes the gauze was BRIGHT red filled to the brim with blood and blood began to pour down the sides of her face.  From two small cuts on her forehead, that kinda looks superficial, I jokingly tried to calm her down by making a joke that she will now look like Harry Potter. 

We had to lighten the mood because with the Alzheimers, while my uncle was holding the paper towel against her head, she was freaking out about the pain, and she was telling my uncle (her son), "daddy please dont hit me anymore, it hurts too much"  Which is heartbreaking. 

She went to the hospital with my aunt, and came back the next day.  I made a joke about her boxing people, and she was like "ya you should have seen the other guy, I beat the crap out of him".  LOL  That's my abuelita.  Oddly Ironic, she used to fight people too I have heard stories, lol, my youngest uncle apparently the teacher was failing him, so when she walked by the apartment building.  My grandmother from distance threw eggs out the window at the teacher landing every single one of them.  One time the man came to turn off the electricity, and she asked him to wait a few, that she was waiting for the cash to arrive and he said he would wait, but as soon as my grandmother went back to the house he went to turn it off, she flew down the flights of stairs and beat the crap out of him, the neighbors had to pull her off.  LOL

I think I miss the cooking the most out of all of it... OMG  my gramma could cook.... I salivate just thinking about it... there is no one that could cook like gramma cooks... it doesn't even compare....

She is doing alot better, the swelling has gone down, but her face is black and blue. 
Just thought I'd share and vent...

Before I begin I want to write a small rant... -ahem-

Dear mother nature,
Although I was very pleased to see you, in your two year absence.  I was not please at how many days you have stayed.  Since the day you first arrived I have only had you for 3 days, no more, no less.  3 days you have come, stayed, and left, I am not comfortable with this week thing you have burdened upon me.   You have outstayed your welcome, and must ask you to leave.   I know it has been a while so I forgive you for the extra days, but come next month, Get it together girl, and come back remembering who you were before.  
Thank you.

LoL  so today I had myself weighed hoping that I would pass the 300 mark and drop into the loverly 2's.   but not so.. which means I did not make my Valentine's day challange =o/
I have definitely slowed down, so I have to do sometihng about it.

Other than that I've been good.  I plan on buying my laptop soon... I thought I could wait it out until the new Windows Operating System comes out in November, but I dont think I can..... Imagine it.... touch screen  ^_^  -drool-.

mmmmm laptop.... lol what can I say I'm a nerd.

Highest Weight:  375-ish Start Weight At Surgery:  349 1st Week Post OP:  330 2nd Week Post OP:  324 3rd Week Post OP:  322 4th Week Post OP:  317 5th Week Post OP:  --- 6th Week Post OP:  307

Sooo... today has been a really good day.  More than I could probably hope for.

My parents came up to visit me from Virginia, taking the Chinese bus here to NYC.  My aunt bought a Valencia cake, and I took some advice, I made a Sugarfree pudding layered with special K protein cereal, it was nice rather good.  SO pudding a crushed layer of cereal and then a layer of pudding, and then a strawberry and a candle, I just didnt have time to bake anything.    But I definitely will have to try eggface's recipes. 

I blew out the candles off the valencia cake, and did not miss eating cake at all.  I gave my mother my deans list certificate and I gotta say I was really pleased.

BUT,  my biggest present on top of my parents being there, and my cousins, aunt, uncle, grandmother, was actually from mother nature......  it was one of my goals, and I am a little embarassed to say this, and its very funny that i am the one 'wishing' for this.... BUUUUTT I got my period.    LOL  it's been at least four years since I've had it, when I lost all the weight the first time I had it for about seven months, and before that it had been at least seven without it.  As soon as I gained weight it was gone again.  

It is something I thought might not come back, and I was a little worried because I am now thirty and I want to start dating, and my time for having children is nearing to an end soon so, I dunno I was scared.  LOL  So on my birthday, I got a gift from mothernature, LOL and I was so surprised and happy it brought me to tears.   I know, as my aunt said she's trying to get rid of hers lol.

Well enough of that I have to get to finishing my paper.
It is due tomorrow night, and I still havent really started.. It will be an all nighter.  >_<

^_^
yay!

I am officailly old!
lol ugh... sadness....
I dunno what else to say lol but yay
Friday the thirteenth!
I'll write more later when im not so tired.

For some reason this blog can't count, it says it has 8 comments when there are only like three, or four, I dont know why.

And right now the HTML code I wrote wasn't working. 
And I finally got it to work, but it wasn't on my part, I wrote the code correctly, it just texted the code instead of use the HTML as I wanted it to.  

Highest Weight:  375-ish Start Weight At Surgery:  349 1st Week Post Op:  330 2nd Week Post OP:  324 3rd Week Post OP:  322 4th Week Post OP:  317

Sugar-free gum is a lifesaver... Ive noticed my hair starting to 'fall out'  just more than usual when I brush it...   I hope it doesnt fall out too much, it just started growing not even a month ago... I was having this problem before for some reason it was thinning out.   so im a little worried with whatever was going on before and now the wls it im worried it will be pretty bad.

It had snowed here nonstop for like 12 hours.  I don't know what else to write about, I'm just wasting time.   blah  I have so much homework I just dont want to do any of it lol .  I should head to bed, apparently my friends from New Zealand arent on, sometimes I stay up late to talk to them, so now I have no excuse to stay up.  So I'm going to bed.

So... Went to my Appointment today I am at 317.  ^_^  So I might make the OH Valentine's day challenge goal, and my birthday goal of 300 or less... ^_^

Been studying hard, so I had no me time.   Binary is about to come out my ears... These two networking classes I have now are brutal.  I wasn't prepared.  The awesomest thing ever though that I didnt expect is.... I got a letter yesterday from the school... and in it... I got a certificate stating I'm on the dean's list.  ^_^  YAY!!!  sooo exciiiteeeeddd.

I was told that the 'foamy' mucus stuff that I get sometimes when I eat, might be a deficiancy of vitamin B1, or at least when I get the B1 shot it will go away almost completely.  I am supposed to go later this week to get it done.  In my hurry to make it to the appointment I forgot my wallet with my insurance card, and my diet food book.  So I couldnt get the prescription done right there for her to give it to me, I had never been to that pharmacy.

I met some really nice people at the appointment today.  I got the go ahead to start introducing wheat noodles, and cereals, and cracker-type foods.  But I know it has alot of 'white flour' but at least it will help me with this 'crunchy'  craving I've had recently.

I've had nothing but soft foods.  Something in my head has been screaming crunch something lol.  so when I had the go ahead.  I chomped five almonds.  I am good.  ^_^

When I did the research study for the diabetes sugar thing, they told me I would get paid, and today I picked up my check, and I got 140.00.  For a student that has no income, THAT is alot of money.  So things are looking good... if only I can figure out these subnet mask calculations.   =o/

I am scheduled to see the surgeon next in April.  So we will see what happens.  I'm excited.  I'll try to post more often, I am on here a lot, the forums and stuff, but when it actually comes to writing blogs, I just can't be stuffed to do it. 

Hmm... my knee has been killing me, I think it's because all the walking I am doing, obviously more than usual.  I was told to use the Vicodin pills I didn't use from the surgery (which I never touched any of them) and see a specialist.   So I've made an appointment to do that. 

So I went to the research study today and found out.

I do not have dumping syndrome.
Which in way worries me because now I have to be doubly accountable on myself.  Not that I wasn't before but it made me feel like there was a 'scare tactic' you know.   It helped kept me focused because I didnt want to dump, so therefore didnt do the sugar route.  It's hard to explain, I know it SHOULDN'T change anything... but in a way it kinda does.

For the surgery they test diabetic patients and non-diabetic patients (thats me)  with sugar intake.  I had it done once before the surgery, and once afterwards.  It's two days, and then I dont see them until once a year, they see how well your body reacts to sugar and how Gastric 'cures' diabetes.

They make you drink this orange sugar concoction which just thinking about it makes me shudder even now at how sweet it was.  And I sit there for four hours while they draw blood every few minutes.  Simple really, and I get paid for it too.  It's not boring they're really fun people and we 'hang out' and talk about alot of things, but you can listen to music, read, or sleep.

I asked her when abouts do people have the 'dumps' after drinking the orange sugar slush, and she said about twenty minutes, and meanwhile I had passed the 2 hour mark...   ooo not cool.... and considering its like more sugar than anyone would normally have in a day.

She said look at the bright side, I won't dump in a restaurant.  Nice.... yes it is a plus BUT.

I feel like this unknown territory, that was "scaring" me straight is no longer there. Not that it really makes a huge difference but, this whole thing is a Mind game, and it's like a trump piece I no longer have.  Because it is a mind game, and if you say it isn't you havent experienced Head hunger.

I go again tomorrow, but I dont have to drink it, its intraveneous sugar.  .

Tomorrow I have to be up early to goto the research studies.

They approached the WLS group during the first 5 hour mandatory orientation I attended. It is a research study about how WLS affects Diabetes, and sugar intake in general. 

And another research study  that just asked for an extra vial of blood to test other things

I volunteered I mean why not.  I am doing the weight loss anyway might as well help people with their research study that could help other people in the future.

I do not have diabetes.but they used me anyway.
Tomorrow I have to be up really early to go take the study and on tuesday too.

A slight plus, I get conpensated for my time, which to be honest I probably would have done for free.  I don't understand why peope would say no to that sort of thing. 

For the first one I get two hundred, and for the second one I get a metro ticket.
And for a full-time student with no job that money helps me out alot, and lets face it a metro ticket would be awesome.  Since I'm on the far east side and my hospital is on the far west side. 

Anyway I plan on taking a long walk today.

I found these little poland springs bottles of water that are only 8oz's they are tiny, when i use all the water I filled them with protein drink and marked the 4oz part.  


well i'm off I want to do some major walking today,  I just totally feel up to it.