shannondita
I am so suprsised I didnt get pulled my cops today!
Jun 21, 2007
(2 reasons that is bad...
1. Never eat and drive with the band, you eat much faster than you would at home at the table because you are not concentrating on eating
2. bread and MY band dont mix)
Soooo I took two bites of the yummy, warm sweet almost cake like cornbread and it got stuck...HORRIBLE PAIN....I grabbed the food bag and dumped out the food and had empty Boston Market bag on my lap while vomitting....while making a left turn in traffic...while a cop was there on the side of the road.
I mean I couldnt just slam on brakes...I couldnt pull over...and I HAD to throw up.....The pain was so severe I was tearing up. I looked in the eyes of the officer as I turned... I dont know if he thought I was just crying... or pregant and getting sick...or not paying attention at all.
I got home which is less than 2 miles from Boston Market...and damnit it if there wasnt a couple carrying bibles heading my way as I got out of the car....I ran in the house and locked the door..LOL
The funny thing, or weird thing about getting sick on the band...its not like vomitting when you feel horrible...you just spit up what is stuck and the pain passes and there is no sick feeling.
A few minutes later I was able to eat my meal...that is where the pics came in the play...
Sheewwww...what a day... I need a nap!
260---258---253 today!
Jun 21, 2007
Went for fill today
Jun 21, 2007
My port had 2.2 cc in it and he increased to 2.3. Wow I can tell that 1/10 of a cc!
Shannon
Back on track!!! Finally!
Jun 20, 2007
Remember that feeling right after surgery that nothing is going to stop you? That you are on top of the world and are going to take it on! I lost that feeling and was drowning in low self esteem and depression.
Today I found that feeling and I am going to appreciate it daily! The support group I went to tonight really helped. There were new people there that were deciding on the surgery and had alot of questions to ask. Being as outspoken as I am ( thanks mom!) I told everything about my experience. At the end of the night a nice lady asked for MY phone number...like I was going to suport her! I was delighted that someone saw a rolemodel in me. That feeling came flooding back in!!!
Ok so what did I learn at meeting:
-The people with RNY losts lots of weight vs the bandsters were losing far less.
- I am not the only one that is dealing with food issues...your desire for bad foods doesnt get taken out during surgery..nor do they implant will power ( or patience in my case.)
- my weight loss is right on track
-my weight gain is a small bump
-support groups feed your weight loss drive
- new people find hope in your story, even if you gain 6lbs :)
-I am not a failure!
Shannon
Up six lbs~
Jun 20, 2007
She was glad to know to that I am seeing a therapist, and encouraged me to go to their support meeting tonight. It meets once a month at the hospital.
I didnt get a fill because the hospital took to long registering me and my Doc had a surgery to get to. I will get my fill at 10 am tomorrow!
Woohoo!
I'm am so embarrassed!!!
Jun 18, 2007
I fucking hate my life!!!
Started therapy last week
Jun 17, 2007
Having the surgery I thought that very day...I was free! I realized over the next couple of months that I had not been released. There was some work that needed to be done before I could claim freedom. I have to face my addiction: food. I want to know how I got to be over 100 overweight...when did I fall out of love with myself and let go....I am very excited about this. I know that I am on the right track now.
Shannon
Date night Saturday
Jun 11, 2007
As for spark and chemistry atleast for me it was totally there. Again I felt great and had confidence that I didnt have begore surgery. I feel very comfortable with him and it was a great time.
On the downside, he lives out of town and he is not interested in anything long term or that is my take on it. But I look forward to having fun with him in the future. See if it leads anyhwere.
Shannon
Date night Friday
Jun 11, 2007
He was tall, dark and handsome but there was no spark. Even or especially when he went in for the first kiss. Nothing.
Well it did teach me that I am attractive and gave me a huge bit of confidence!
Date will be here in 10 minutes
Jun 08, 2007
I feel pretty and look good...compared to 2 months ago. he didnt know me then so that makes me nervous. I look great compared to then, but not where I want to be.
Maybe I should have waited until I was smaller.
I will let you know what happens.
Wishing I had ran an extra mile..lol
Dear God,
Thank you for Spanx!
Shannon