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Today is day seven of my liquid diet.  It's getting easier.  I think the first three days are always the most difficult.  I have gotten past cravings, but I also find myself not wanting the liquids available.  I'm tired of borth and a little tired of the shakes. 

My motivation has been found in the amazing amount of weight I am losing.  I can finally use my bathroom scale again, which has a limit of 330.  That's been very encouraging.  So, now I'm fascinated by the fact that I'm losing so quickly and that my weight doesn't rise during the day.  Eventually, I'll have to curb my excessive weight checks, but for now, I'm enjoying the results.

I'm hoping that my total weight loss before surgery will reach 100 pounds, but I don't want to focus on that goal.  I'm going to let my body do what it will and follow the eating plan.  I find so much solace on this site.  I'm very thankful for this community where I feel like I can speak freely about my weight without judgment or cruel remarks.  :-)

I began considering this surgery about 10 months ago.  My BMI was too high for a safe surgery, so I've spent most of that time getting to a weight that made surgery possible.  Now, I'm about 9 days away from my surgery and it is becoming a reality for me. 

The surgery may mark the beginning, but for me, this journey began last summer.  It is culminating in the surgery now and that will begin the middle part of my journey.  This is the first time in my life that I feel that total weight loss and maintenance is actually going to happen.  I've been positive before.  I've felt confident before.  But, this time, I feel a great amount of assurance that this will work and that it will be permanent.

I understand that I have a responsibility to do my own part.  However, my body will no longer be able to saboutage or overcome my will.