takeskare
THINKING
Jul 25, 2007
THIS FEELS LIKE A LIFE TIME
Jul 20, 2007
UMMM IIIIIIIIII.... THINK IIIIIIIIIIIIIII....... OUTTA.........
Jul 10, 2007
WELLLLLLLLLLLL WELLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL WELL
Jul 03, 2007
WHAT/////////////////////
Jun 27, 2007
1. TO BE ABLE TO BE HEALTHY AGAIN…. TO BE MED FREE (WELL AT LEAST THE 8 THAT I TAKE NOW…..BEING BIG IS EXPENSIVE LOL)
2. TO BE ABLE TO WALK AGAIN….. I LOVE WALKING NOW I AM IN SO MUCH PAIN……..
3. TO BE ABLETO SIT WITHOUT MY BACK HURTING ME
4. TO BE ABLE TO SMILE AND MEAN IT
5. TO BE ABLE TO BE INTIMATE WITHOUT THE LIGHTS HAVING TO BE OFF AND UMMM IMMA LEAVE THE REST OF THAT ALONE
6. TO BE ABLE TO SLEEP THREW THE NIGHT
7. TO BE ABLE TO BREATHE
8. TO BE ABLE TO CLEAN MYSELF PROPERLY
9. TO BE ABLE TO GO TO AMUSEMENT PARKS
10. TO BE ABLE TO ENJOY LIFE
11. TO ACTUALLY GO TO A CLUB FOR THE FIRST TIME
12. TO STOP PRETENDING TO ACTUALLY LIKE BEING IN THE HOUSE
13. TO GO TO A MOVIE AND STOP PRETENDING THAT I DON’T LIKE TO GO BC OF THE SMELL
14. TO ACTUALLY BE ABLE TO BE HELD BY MY GIRLFRIEND INSTEAD OF ME HAVINTO HOLD HER
15. TO BE ABLE TO TAKE A BATH I HATE SHOWERS…
16. TO BE ABLE TO FIT IN MY CAR
17 TO BE ABLE TO SIT ON A TOILET WITHOUT HAVING TO MANUVER MY WAY TO FIT
18. TO BE ABLE TO TOUCH MY TOES
19. TO SEE EVERYTHING BELOW MY BELLY
20. TO BE ABLE TO REACH MY ANKLES
21. TO BE ABLE TO JUST BE FREE AND LEARN TO LIVE A BETTER LIFE ………..
DAMN IT MAN
Jun 25, 2007
PEOPLE
Jun 21, 2007
IS IT JUST ME.............
Jun 11, 2007
AND NOW IT ALL BEGINS...................
Jun 07, 2007
MY LETTER
May 31, 2007
THIS IS THE LETTER THA I AM PLACING IN MY PACKAGE THAT WILL BE SENT TO MY INSURANCE COMPANY....... WHO I HAVE FOUDN OUT DOES NOT REALLY WANT THE LETTER BUT I WILL DO IT BECAUSE I WAS TOLD I WILL NEED IT...... PLEASE LET ME KNOW IF YOU HAVE ANY SUGGESTIONS THANKS
To Whom This May Concern,
Hello, my name is Ca Ky, ID# 000000000-00 I am a Single 26 year old female, who is currently weighs approximately between 391-393 Lbs. I am seeking to have an RN Y Gastric Bypass. This weight that I currently carry on my 5ft2 frames is not healthy for any height especially mines. My BMI is 71.5, I am considered to be Super Morbidly Obese. I suffer from: Hypertension, Sleep Apnea, Restless Legg Syndrome, Urinary Incontinence, Irregular Heart Beat, constant pain in my legs, back, side, and knees, Asthma, and lastly I have a high risk for developing Diabetes due to my family history as well as my current state of health.
The question that people always ask is: “ How could you let this happen to yourself?” and I always want to reply “Who would actually let this happen to them, honestly!” Obesity I can honestly say runs on both sides on my family. I have always been the larger person in my age group. I can remember taking my 6th grade physical and being told that I was 7 lbs from 200lbs. That was the first time I was ever placed on a diet in my life the first of many diets to come that never gave perminiate results. It was also the first year that I could not fit any of the clothes that were purchased for me for the holidays also the first of many years to come in my life.
I have tried numerous diets some I can not even mention but I will name a few for you: the first was a grapefruit pill diet---- I lost no weight, I only gained more depression and extreme abdominal pains, the next was a rice diet-----needless to say that did not work as well no weight was loss at all, I have also tried numerous diet drugs--- metabolife (20lbs), xandrine (5lbs), and Xenical------- which the side effects alone will make anyone stop taking them and honestly I lost no weight. At any given time the I have only lost an maximum of 20lbs. Yes, I did exercise while on the medications. I own and owned both an tread mill and exercise bike which I exercise every morning for 30 minutes. I also have spent hundreds of dollars on exercised dads’ including but not limited to: Pilates, Tae bo, and Richard Simmons. This is my last chance at life at living at being healthy. I am seeking this tool this surgery to help me to have a healthy life, one of which is livable, non painful, and non medicated. I want to be able to sleep without a mask on my face to able to walk again without feeling as if I am about to die to be able to wake up in the morning without my legs and ankles being swollen and my back hurting so bad that I can not move.
Hygiene, is one of the hardest things for me to keep up with at this point. One of the hardest things for me to do is one of things that I once enjoyed the most, take a bath. To even bathe myself is a chore. I have not been able to fit in my bath tub for the last year, I want to be able to do so again. I can not wash myself without my heart beating so hard and fast that I feel like I am about to have an heart attack and I am out of breath. I want to be able to see my feet and touch my toes. To be able to put my clothes on my body without feeling like I am dying without being out of breath. I also suffer from urinary incontinence I fear laughing, moving to fast, or just moving at all at times for the fear that I will urinate myself this I am so ashamed of this that I have told no one.
I love nature I love to walk, however I have not been able to enjoy it as I once have. My weight sits on my diaphragm and makes it difficult for my lungs to fully expand and due to the most of the medications that I am taking I have to limit the amount of the time that I spend in the sun.
This is not the easy way out for me this has become the only way out for me the only other assistance that is out there that will work for me as long as I work for it. I know the side effects and the dangers in having this tool installed in my body however I feel that the gains out weigh the means. I have a great support tam behind me from the associates at the weight management center to my friends and family who have spent time learning the side effects and also researching my needs before and after surgery and also every aspect of this procedure. I even have one who has come with me to each and every session of my classes.
I love my life, I love my family, and I want to know I need to know that I have tried and exhausted all of my possibilities with winning the war that I have been fighting with obesity my whole life. I need to know that if am to pass that I put up a great fight until the end. I am 26 yrs old I weigh approximately 393 and I know that without the assistance of this tool, this surgery being granted to me that I will get worse my health will not improve and I will continue this horrible nightmare that I am currently living in. I know that if this assistance is not granted that I will eventually cease to exist, I have tried tons of different diets, exercised, and medications and none have seemed to work alone or together. I see this as my last time at existence my last time as living as a normal functioning life. Thank you for reading this.