100 pounds gone for good !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Sep 26, 2009

Well I got up this morning and knew I only had a few pounds to go before I hit the 100 pound lost, I got on scale and started crying...It said 208, I have not weighed this number in almost 10 years. I am feeling great and am getting my self confidence back.I am lovin me..Thanks everyone for helping me,especially my man. I love u Steve...Its 9/26/09 and I am hoping to see the Onederland soon....
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Sept 1 and loved Vegas baby ..........

Sep 01, 2009

Its 9/1/09 @ 3:10pm, Steve is 44 today, Happy Birthday baby !!!!
I weighed in this morning at 216, I didn't get down to 210 like I wanted to for Vegas,but Im ok with it. Let's talk Vegas....It was amazing. I loved it very much and had a great time.So much to do and so much food all over, I couldn't eat too much but what I did eat was great. We walked miles and miles and didn't sweat that much. The plane ride was great,going there I was alittle nervous but we got a window seat and Steve let me sit in it,we seen the Grand Canyon, clouds, it was so beauitful, coming home it was night time and again we got a window seat, I looked out for alittle while and then fell right to sleep woke up 20 minutes before we landed. Las vegas was wonderful so much lights and people. I cant wait to go back. I will put my pictures on in a few days. Well just wanted to drop a blog.ttyl...........
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August........How time went by so fast...........

Aug 03, 2009

Wow its August 4th @ 8;51am, in 10 days I will be in the air almost to Las Vegas. Im alittle nervous but can't wait.Steve and I have been to AC for a night or 2 ,we stayed in PA for a weekend, but now we will be flying and staying away for 5 days. No kids,no work ,no dogs,no nothing but him and me. What a dream I can't believe its going to come true.........

Back to why I am writing, I haven't blogged in almost 2 months. I am weighing in at 228, I haven't weighed that in 7 years. I am feeling good but about a month ago I was getting very depressed,severely depressed and having BiPolar doesn't help,so I went to see my pcp, she is amazing and she started me on Prozac, I am seeing a therapist but not till 9/11 so she helped me. I do feel better, I started walking in the morning with my friend Christine,I am back at the gym,I stopped going for 3 weeks. I feel like my life is getting better. I am becoming happy with my new thinner self. I did become gigglie and flabby thats why Im walking and doing the gym. I am also losing my hair bad,so I uped my protein shakes to 3 x day and try to eat aleast 1 meal with protein a day. Food and I have no relationship anymore. I do miss it sometimes but then there are days I can go with out. Steve loves the new me and is excited about me getting to be around 170,I won't be happy till Im 145 so we will see. He has never seen me at this weight when we started dating 6 years ago I was about 240, yes he has had me only fat so this is a whole new body for him....I do believe he likes ,his hands are on me more and I am told I look good more. We bowl on tuesday nights for the summer and he is doing amazing a 140 average and he just started bowling me, I have been bowling for 4 years and have a 120 average..I dont know..Well I have some work to do.I will write soon.. I love the new me I am becoming................
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June is almost over .........

Jun 22, 2009

Today I went to see my lung surgeron and any surgery we were thinking about is on hold as of now. My nodule is only 6mm,very little and I am not getting it cut out yet. I am 2 months 2 days out from my WLS, I have lost 52 pounds. I still get sick when I eat,some foods won't even go down or they come right up. So I do believe I need to go back to shakes. I hate shakes but they will help me acheive my 145 pounds I want to weigh. I have lost so many inches all over except my thighs,I either measured wrong or they grew but they gained 1 1/2 inches,Im hoping I messed up measureing cause I dont want nothing going up . Im so excited ,when I got on the scale saturday morning (6/20) I weighed 256,I haven't seen that # since 2003,bones are starting to stick out ,my boyfriend is enjoying the changes with my body,every week he is sleeping with someone new..lol... I don't see the weight gone but I sometimes feel it. I can't wait to see it. I am hoping by Auguest 14th,the day I leave for Las Vegas I am weighing around 210. THat would be perfect. Well I will be back to write soon.....
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Another day Another problem !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Jun 05, 2009

Well Its 6 weeks after my surgery and Im starting to see the weight alittle. I have lost as of this morning 42 pounds, I think I should have lost more but I haven't worked out and I don't eat right,so Its my own fault.Since my surgery I haven't had it easy. The first week I get thrush mouth which last about 2 weeks, then I try eating some food which doesnt work well,then I get these stomach spasms for awhile till I go to the hospital,then I find out I have a 8-9mm nodule on my lung,so now i have to go get that takin out ,I am hoping its not cancer but something in me is telling me it is and I will be alright.This surgery will give me my third chance to live. My first is when I was a born,my second is the day of my surgery,my third will be the day they take this piece out of my lung. So my RNY saved my life twice and I will forever be thankfull for it. I am getting alittle better with food,I do realize I need to eat during the day and drink my shake at night. Eating dinner makes me sick,so I will change the way I do things. I started back at the gym and hired a trainer Chris, to help me for the next 6 months.My boyfriend Steve is being wonderful thru this all. He starting to like what he sees,which makes me want to work harder to look good for him.I love him and my kids so much. They are my world,my reason to breathe. I am getting happier everyday, I just want 6/23 to come and go and I start living again.I am not stopping now,I will work hard till the day I go into the hospital and will work hard the day I am allowed to go back to living. So thats my blog for now.I will be back to write soon.........
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One month...how time flys..........

May 21, 2009

Well yesterday was 1 month. I lost 32 pounds and lots of inches off of everywhere on my body. I can't really eat yet, and i hate protein shakes. They taste yucky. I take all my vitamins and try and do my best with the protein. Im suppose to eat alot of food according to my dr's booklet he gave me in the hospital,but I can't and when I make stuff after a few bites I am so full. Its hard to believe I only eat alittle food ...I started the gym, and Steve and I started walking. Id like to be 50 pounds thinner by July,we will see. Well gtg just wanted to update ....
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Its been a week

Apr 27, 2009

Well today is a week my surgery was done. I haven't felt that good. The weekend was hard Steve was working the whole weekend and my kids were in and out.I felt very lonely.On saturday night my mouth wasn't feeling to good so I went and brushed my teeth ,then I looked in and its all white.I have Thrush mouth.I called my surgeon,he called right back but he had nothing to do with,so I call my pcp 3 times before they called me back,they gave me medicine so I have been using it since yesterday. Im starting to feel better.I just got up and made dinner for my family.Im home alone again but thats ok. I do feel depressed , I am still doing clear liquids.I can't wait to start drinking protein shakes ,I think I will have more energy. With my mouth so bad its hard to drink anything so I hope Im not messing myself up.I am sipping water CL,apple juice,having SF Italian ice,Im not crazy about jello anymore. The smell of food kinda makes me hungry I think. I cant tell.Well Im going to take a shower and hopefully my family will be here soon. One other thing ,I cant wait to start the gym...I also cant wait to to feel some weight gone... Bye...
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Im Home !!!!!!!!!!

Apr 22, 2009

Im home and feeling ok...I went in on monday at 11 and they took me right away,I started having some doubts and anxiety on the operating table but I knew if I didn't do this I would be dead soon,I started having high blood pressure and my body hurts all the time I hated the person I became,so I stayed and they put me in lala land,then I woke up and I hated the operation,I had to have Open RNY and it sucks right now. I was in so much pain and yes i said it a few times I wish I didn't do this,My family came in and seen me I was telling Steve I shouldn't have done this, he was great ,rubbing my head,saying You will be ok, they left and i laid there thinking I was going to die, but then the night nurse came in ,first thing she said is " my name is Mari and I had lap band done, you will have regrets but it gets better". So after talking to her and crying I did feel better. She washed me and then I was told I was sitting up,not even 12 hours went by and they want me to stand OUCH ...but I did it,I kept telling myself I can do this also I did it to myself....So then I was put in my own room after being in recovery for 26 hours,the hospital was very busy & over booked with operations. I was in my own private room, my sister in law works in the hospital and i was taken care of ....So i figured i would do better in there,nope, I was in pain and miserable. I just wanted to go home.I walked the halls,cryed some ,got pain meds at first every 4 hrs then they changed it to every 3 hours,which helped,Its time to go to sleep I look at the bed and wanted so bad to jump in it,it just looked so comfortable,but we know u can't jump with a 6 inch cut so I tried  to some how get comfortable,but that didnt work either ,I had a great nurse and she would every 2 hrs and 40 minutes be there with my pain meds.Well I didnt sleep that night either. I came home  wednesday night around 730pm,and i have 6 dogs that missed me so much, I had to be blocked like the president walking in my house,but I made it in and didnt get kicked in the belly.I got situtated and wanted to sleep next to my man.So we got in bed it was alittle easier when u have someone right there to help,I wasntreal comfortable but I was home and snuggles to my man...

Its thursday and Im feeling ok,Im trying to figure my vitamins,liquids and walking..Thank you everyone that wrote,I will get back to all soon... I am going to rest ...I can't wait to start losing my weight and I can't wait to say I love my RNY................
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Tonight is it !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Apr 19, 2009

Tonight is the last night of ever being fat again.... Its been 8 months and a few weeks that I have been waiting for this moment.Its a great thing but the last few days have been horrible, On thursdsay 4/16 ,my boyfriends wonderful mom got very sick with a Type A Aorta Diseection,on friday she passed away ,its been so sad,my heart hurts cause i love her so very much,she was coming to stay with my family on the day of my surgery and cook and hang out with my youngest daughter. We just seen her on Easter, Im sad without her and know she is happy I made this decision for the surgery.............................................
.I LOVE YOU MOMMA MARGE>>>God has you as a beautiful angel..


So now I am eating some stuff shells and waiting 3 hours to drink my GOLYTELY not sure why they call it that,cause I know its not going to be litely coming out...Oh well I didnt have to do a liquid diet so thats good..Im so anxious and nervous and excited and everything ,my stomach is in knots ...So I will try and write something tomorrow,I have to be at hospital at 11am and my surgery is at 1,my wonderful sister in law works at the hospital so I will get great service by the nurses...So sexy skinny me here I come with a vengence......
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I have 4 days left and Im so excited .............

Apr 16, 2009

Well today is 4/16/09 and I am so excited,I did my preadmission on 4/13 and it all went ok,the lady black and blued me taking my blood,other wise it all was good.Now I am just waiting ,getting everything in order. I will write back on sunday before I drink my stuff...lol...GOLYTELY !!!!!
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