tiffers1983
And the hurt continues...
Sep 11, 2010
I don't know what I did, but as my shift goes on, I'm hearing from friends that another so called "friend" was talking crap about me at this same get-together... I don't understand what I EVER did to deserve being treated like this... I am one of the nicest people you meet, but I guess I'm just too vulnerable. I am so open to people, and I get hurt so easily by those people. I guess no matter how surgery has changed me, that will never change. I have become more open in telling people how things are, but I'm obviously still too open and nice and caring towards people who don't deserve it. It just hurts that I can't help everyone, and that people can't take care of someone who actually cares about them. Once you've hurt me, there's no going back. I will never see them the same again... I will forgive, as I always do, but I won't get close to them again. I just hate it... I'm sure one of the things said is that I'm "ugly" too... that's always something people say about me. She's nice, but she's not cute at all... Really??!!?? I don't need to please them with my looks, but they should keep their thoughts to themselves... I just hate this. I hate feeling like this. I don't deserve to be treated like this when I'm so sweet to people, and open, and receptive to them no matter who they are or what they've done in life. God gave me this tender heart to help people for a reason... I just wish (*in a perfect world*) that I could help everyone, and that everyone would be loving and sweet back to me instead of trying to be "cool" with their friends or trying to make people laugh by saying mean things about someone else... It's not cool... I'm not perfect either, but I don't say hurtful things about people to others like always seems to happen to me... grrr... Once again, thanks for listening... I needed to vent, and this is the only way I can vent when I'm at work it seems... No one else wants to talk to or listen to me at this hour! lol Maybe it's seriously time for me to move to Florida or somewhere out of state like I've always wanted... Maybe that's what God is preparing me for... who knows...
