time's flying-no weight lost

Jun 07, 2012

im just past 7months post op. ive been having a bunch of tests done. Turns out i ultimately DID have a "botched" surgery. i dont even know what my recourse is at this point. this would explain my slow weight loss all these months, my nausea, feeling of hunger...etc... my "pouch" looks more like a slightly larger tennis ball perched on top of a tube about 1/4in wide... it just all feels so wrong. this journey has been bitter sweet, i have finally lost enough weight to appreciate the surgery. being that i didnt have the surgery for 'vanity' reasons, it feels somewhat a waste. the ailments i had prior to wls that were attributed to my massive weight are still present and issues worse, i guess im still asking myself why did i do this. im so glad this has been successful for so many others, however, i cant share in the joys-i actually feel a sense of jealousy that i have yet to feel pleased with this decision. i also need to readjust my eating habits because i find that since i dont eat much,i usually just graze all day. the vegetarian way of life is working a little better for me than eating meat. i will put forth more effort to loose more weight before my surgiversary...

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