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Wow, this last fill I had a few weeks ago has completely thrown me for a loop. I almost went and got a little taken out but decided to hang in there and figure out what works for me.  I am glad I did and I think I am getting the hang of it all. I was not loosing any more weight but I think I figured out I was not eating enough. I have now been able to get in more calories and I am down 41 pounds so hopefully I can get back to losing.  This is teaching me (FORCING ME) to eat slow, cut everything into rediculously tiny pieces and there is NO WAY I can drink with my meal or I barf it up.  I was worried because I had threw up several times but I have it under control now and have not in a while.

On the down side I think I have a severe lack of potassium, I have been getting dizzy, bad leg and feet cramps, SEVERE fatigue and muscle weakness.  I went yesterday and she took a ton of blood and my doc is going to run the gammut of tests for me. She thinks it is either B-12 of potassium either way she will get me all fixed up.

This whole trip has been an amazing learning experience, it has been everything from scary to wonderful. I would not trade it for anything and I am so glad I did this.  I look and feel better than I have in years, I cannot wait to see the difference as the scale moves farther down.

I am down 40 pounds as of today!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
This fill has been SOOO much better than any of the others, I have truely felt full with a small amount of food for the first time in my life!

I am soooo excited! Only 7 more pounds and I am no longer Obese!!

Wow.....just wow....

Well the hurricane decided to spare us once again. I tell you one day Tampa's luck will run out but I hope it is not any tme soon.  We should have some rain and wind later today but nothing to crazy. 

I am so excited! This morning I am down another pound so I am past my halfway point!!!!!!!!! YIP-FREAKIN-EEE!  I am down 38 pounds which makes me 167. I can't tel you the last time I was 167 holy crap.

I went to my doc yesterday and he gave me almost a cc so I now have 4.4cc's. He is very conservative with fills and I respect that. I know he doesn't want me to rush and be throwing up all the time causing a band slip and neither do I.  He is very please with my resaults and said I am right on target.  I will upload my new pics today too.

Also a funny story. I was talking to my neighbor who has a 3 year old who is my son's best buddy.  They live right across the street from me.  They have been away for a while on vacation so we have not seen them in quite some time.  They were sitting looking out the window and they saw me and my son playing outside and her son said "who is that playing with Liam mommy?"  She said "that is Miss Vikki, silly" and he said "what happend to her, she looks like a little girl". 

Note to self...buy neighbor Matthew a really nice Christmas gift.

	Before	4 Mos	Totals
Neck	15.5	14	1.5
Bicep	14.5	12	2.5
Forearm	11	10	1
Chest	47.5	42	5.5
Waist	42	35	7
Theigh	27.5	24	3.5
Calf	16.5	15.5	1
Hips	45	40	5
Knee	19	15.5	4.5
			30.5" lost!

Well I had to say it. Two weeks ago I made a comment that we are going to get through a whole hurricane season without getting anything and here we are getting ready for one.  "Fay" is coming sort of our way. Last night they said it was going to hit Tampa Bay (me) but this morning it might hit further south but they said it is extremely unstable.  Either way we will get high winds and tons of rain so tonight I have to put all my stuff in from outside and throw all my patio furniture in the pool (keeps it from flying all over the place)  We stocked up on water and I pulled out my hurricane kit last night so we are ready.  I don't think it will be bad at all but I prefer to be prepared since my hubby is a deputy so he most likely will not be home at all so that just leaves me and a 3 year old to fend for ourselves.

When I was pregnant we were side swiped by a hurricane and it got pretty bad at my house. Part of my neighbors roof blew off, we lost a tree and we were without power for a week!!  I was big and prego with no air conditioning, hot shower, TV or anything, IT SUCKED!!!

Anyway on to the good news. I am down another pound so I am at 168!! Yippeeee. I am .5 pounds from my halfway point.  I go to the doc this afternoon for a fill, I hope he gives me one, I need it!

I had a NSV this weekend. I went to my parents house on Saturday and my Mom had a bunch of clothes that she was getting rid of and most of them fit me!!!  My mom is about 130 pounds soaking wet, very tiny and cute (I took after my Dad of course).  The shocker was one of the pairs of pants was a freaking size 10!! I also tried on her new black dress that is just gorgeous and it fit me.  I was so excited I could have cried.  Normally I would have told her I didn't even want to see them so I could avoid the hurt of nothing fitting.

But not this time! This time I felt fantastic. This band was the best thing I have ever done for myself. I took some new pictures yesterday so I have to pull them off the camera and add to my comparison.

Have a great Monday everyone!

Things are still going, I finally got that last pound off that I had gained back so I am at 169 again.  I get a fill on Monday so I am looking forward to that for sure.  Things have been hectic lately but trying to stay on track. I need to get my butt exercising more but I don't even have time these days to sit down let alone exercise.  The cool thing is I am wearing a cute pair of pants that I have not been able to wear in years and they are actually a little loose!  Well only 1.5 pounds to go and I will be at my halfway point!!!  I hope I can get to that before my fill on Monday, I am going to buckle down hard the next few days and see what I can do. Hope everyone is doing well!

Oh yeah, I have to post my measurements but I lost another 7.5" last month.  I am down I think a total of 30.5"!!!  I will take a pic this weekend as well.

Well turns out most of the weight gain was TOM, I have less than a pound to get off to be back where I was so that makes me feel a little better.  12 more days until I see the doc so I hope he gives me a fill this time. I will have to take my measurements today for my 4 months out, I forgot to on the 3rd, maybe I will take a photo too, not sure it will show much.  My next goal is to get to my half way point which is 37.5 pounds so I am less than 2 pounds away from that.

I can't wait until I snap out of this funk!

Ugh I have been so frustrated the last week.  I hate when I get like this, I was PMS'ing and of course eating everything in site. I gained 3 FREAKING POUNDS back, did horrible with journalling my food intake and didn't exercise either. My TOM is just about over so now I am regrouping and trying to get myself flying straight again.  Just pisses me off that I have no self control sometimes.  I certainly hope he gives me a fill next time, I have basically no restriction and I am hungry all the time.  

I understand he wants to take it slow etc. but I feel like this whole month is going to be a write off and it didn't have to be.  I feel like such a failure right now, I hate that, yesterday was my 4 month bandiversary and I should be excited about that but at the moment I feel a little let down.

Ok pitty party over, back to basics and get rid of these 3 stupid pounds, I hope when my TOM is done it will help them vanish as well.

Not sure what happend but all of a sudden my weightloss is kicking into gear. I work up this morning and I am down to 169!! I can't tell you the last time I was 169!  The funny thing is I have not been exercising as well and my calorie intake has been a littl higher. I am wondering if I was eating too little calories or if it is just the change.  Maybe next week I should exercise like crazy and eat less calories and it will shock me into more wight loss. I have heard if you alternate your calorie inake and exercise it can keep your body from freaking out and trying to hang on to fat.  Hmmm not sure but I am HAPPY!!!!!!

36 pounds gone for ever!

Things are going well, I am down another pound, making it 35 pounds lost!! I have not excercised as much as I would have liked to this week but it has been very busy and time has been hard to come by.  I am looking forward to a good solid workout this evening.  Hard to believe 2.5 more pounds and I will be halfway to my goal already. I seem to average lately a pound each 7 to 8 days. Not as much as I want it to be but I will take it. I also don't want sagging skin so I am not going to complain.  Everyone at work constantly make wonderful comments and I get hit on a lot lately.  I feel like I walk with my head higher and have loads more confidence.

I am wearing a size 12 pants and a junior large top today and I feel great in it. I never thought I would even get this far.  I have to stay positive and even though at times I feel frustrated or it is just not happening fast enough I know it WILL happen and who cares how long it takes as long as I know there is a finish line at the end of this.

Life is good, I have a job, a wonderful husband and son, a beautiful home and I feel healthier than I have in years. I need to stay focused on that and know I am very lucky and should be very thankful. I can't control the economy, so what if we are struggling financially right now, it won't kill me and we will get through it so I just have to live life and be happy!

Ok I am done, I will get off my soap box now.

Well I am not sure how I am feeling...I went for my fill today and he didn't do one because I am doing so well.  So I am stuck between being proud and being bummed out for no fill. I have an appointment on the 18th of August for a fill and he said he will do one then.

I understand his point that the band is just a tool, the weight loss has to come from you and your hard work as well but I guess it just felt like a set back for some reason.

However I am not going to let this get the best of me. I am going to continue what I have been doing which is logging my food and exercise, working hard at it and going with the flow.   I just feel like I am still hungry all the time and have to fight it so hard. I guess that is where I have to learn that the band isn't magic, the physcological side will always be there, it is up to me to keep up the fight.

What a hard lesson to learn, I hate Monday's.......