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Yippee, I am down 34 pounds as of this morning!  Only one more pound to make my goal before my fill on Monday so I hope I can do it.  It has not been easy I will tell ya, it has been a lot of hard work. I have been faithfully logging my food intake and exercising my butt off....litterally!

I am now up to running 24 minutes in my 60 minute trek, I am so excited about that!  I actually love to exercise now. My husband said he never thought he would see the day that I beg him to make sure I have enough time to work out when we are busy.

I had a NSV this morning, I have a bunch of Bongo jeans, I don't think they make them anymore but I used to LOVE them, they are sized goofy so they are marked about 3 sizes bigger than what they actually are. For example the Bongo 14's are actually tighter than my other 12's.  Anyway I have one pair of 15's I have not fit into in years and I am actually wearing them to work today!! whoo hoo! 

I am looking forward to Monday so I get my next fill and keep this trend going.  My 3 year old son as I have mentioned before is OBSESSED with Star Wars, he wants us all to dress up as Star Wars characters for Halloween this year, they have a really cute costume for Padame but it is rather tight and revealing so my goal is to be able to get it and be confortable in it by the time Halloween rolls around. So I think another 15 or 20 pounds will definately put me there.

Hope everyone is having a great Friday! I am soooo ready for a weekend.

Things are still going good. I did slack off on logging my food this weekend and I did eat rather badly but I did work out. I am back on it this morning so I hope I can squeeze off another pound or so this week before my fill on next Monday.  I am down 33 pounds so far so I still have 2 more to lose to make my goal by my next fill.

I do find myself hungry all the time still and I can tell any swelling I had from my last fill is completely gone. I can chug water again and eat lots.  I do feel a slight difference though so I am eeking closer to my "sweet Spot". In the morning it is a slight bit tighter and I do get things stuck if I do not chew them well so something is happening I am just not where I need to be quite yet. 

As far as exercise I have been doing great.  I am now able to run for 20 minutes out of my 60 minute walk. I am only 10 minutes away from my goal.  Eventually I would love to be able to run for the entire 60 minutes but I know that is quite a ways off.  I can't wait until I get good enough to go running outside, I am not comfortable doing that just yet so I stick to my treadmill.

I am not going to post again until I can say I am down another pound so hopefully you all will hear from me soon!

Well I am glad I have started to log my food and to buckle down, it is starting to pay off!   I am finally down to 32 pounds lost and feeling good about it.  I have been working out an hour a day and still jogging 15 minutes of it.  This means I only have 3 moure pounds to lose before my fill to make my personal goal, I have 12 more days to do it.

The great thing about the band is by now I would have given up, before I would have stalled out, given up and started gaining weight back. With the band I didn't loose when I stalled out but I didn't gain either and my body didn't allow me to freakout and binge on crap food.  I know physically I cannot do it.  It also give me something to be accountable for, I know if I fail at this even with the lap band I will dissapoint more people than myself. Not to mention I have to report to my doc each month and I would be really embarassed to face him if I gave up.

I am glad to finally be going up again on this roller coaster ride.

Ok I have been logging what I ate and all my exercise and I have learned one thing.  I am eating too much!  It gets so frustrating but I am going to try week 2 of logging my food but this time I am going to really pay attention to what I eat and stay on track. Last week was to get an understanding of what I was doing wrong.

On a good note I have been working out like crazy and i am now able to run for 15 minutes of my 60 minutes on the treadmill. I am half way to my goal.  My TOM showed up last night so I am hoping all the bad eating I did last week was because of that. I am at 31 pounds down so I still have 4 pounds to some how get off in 15 days if I want to make my personal goal!!! yikes!!!

I think part of the problem is everyone tells you to do something different. Some people say no more than 1000 calories some people say 1500 calories. You have to eat protein but those items can be high in fat and calories. If you eat too much you won't lose if you eat to little you won't lose either.  Sometimes it feels so frustrating Oh well, I guess you just keep pushing yourself along do the best you can. I hope my next post can be a happy one where I can start out with "yeah I lost ... pounds!" 

Only I can make that happen but I don't seem to work very well with myself.

Ok no more sitting and waiting for this thing to do the work, I need to get my butt in gear and be responsible for this.  I feel myself slipping back to my old fat girl and I will not have it

So I signed up to the website dailyplate.com and I have started to log ALL my food and exercise.  I am a bit shocked that my calories are higher than I thought they were and they have so many cool gadgets on the site so you can see the percentages of protein vs fats vs carbs and all sorts of cool stuff.  If you have not checked it out you should.

Anyway I am going to commit to doing this for 1 week and see what happens.  Today was day one. A good thing is the last few days I have been using the treadmill instead of the eliptical machine to change up my workout.  It felt SOOOO good to get on there.  Last night I did about 30 minutes before the power went out and I lost where I was so I jumped on the eliptical fo a while but I walked at 3mph and for 3 of those minutes I ran!

So tonight I get all ready to get on the treadmill, I get started and before I know it I had walked at 3mph for 60 minutes and 12 of those minutes I RAN RAN RAN!!! I was so proud of myself! I have to take it very easy and keep an eye on my heart rate as my doc doesn't like the idea of me running with my heart issue but I have to tell you it felt awesome!!!

I think each few days I will try to inch it up a bit more, my goal is to be able to run for 30 minutes straight.

So lets recap, if all goes well with my "notch kicking" then I want to set a goal of being down 5 pounds by my next fill. So that will put me at 170 pounds and my next fill is July 21st (3 weeks).  You all will have to keep me in check too....don't let me slip without smacking me around a bit.

Well off to bed since I know tomorrow I will barely be able to walk!!

Well restriction is still there but has relaxed a bit. This fill was definately different than the last one. I am eating less, just a little bit less but I guess it is one step closer.  I go in for my 3rd fill on the 21st of July so I have some time to see how it goes.  I have been working out really good but not losing really.  I did get down to 31 pounds lost but I keep boucing between 31 and 30.  I am just going to keep on trucking and see what happens.  I know I need to kick it into high gear so I lose at least 4 or 5 pounds by my next fill or I am sure my doc will make me keep a food log.  

This weekend was fun though, we went to Disney again for the last weekend of the Star Wars Month and my son got to see the Star Wars parade. I carried our backpack the whole time again and it was full of frozen bottles of water so it was really heavy!  I am sure walking and carrying that thing for about 8 hours did some good for my body. Sunday we cleaned around the house and jumed in the pool for a bit. 

I still need to take some pictures I think my last one was at 181 or something and I am at 175/174 now. Maybe I will do that today and get them posted.

Well this fill seems to be a little different than the last. It only took a day or so for the restriction to go away before. I guess I am getting to the point where I am having real restriction.  I still have to be very careful of bite sizes and how much I chew it, the thought of projectile vomiting across a restaurant during a full on dinner rush just doesn't fall into my plans for a relaxing evening.

We stopped at Micky D's Tuesday (yes I know my doc would rip my band out for hearing me say that) and all I could eat was 5 chicken nuggets. The funny thing is it was not so much that I was full but I got sick of freaking chewing! Holy cow, people must have thought I was gnawing on Goodyear nugget. It took me about 45 minutes to eat 5 of them, in the past I would have inhaled about 20 nuggets along with what ever else was within my reach. I am sure at some point in my life I have eaten a napkin or a straw wrapper!!

Last night we had Thai food and to put this into perspective, normally I would have eaten 1 egg roll (at least) and a very large portion of pineapple fried rice, panang chicken with lots of rice or a huge order of Pad Thai. all of those dishes probably equal about 3 cups of food at the very least.
Well I love Nam Sod made with chicken which is a salad made with ground chicken, peanuts, sliced ginger, red pepper, red onion, and lettuce with fish sauce, lime juice and a bit of chicken broth. Oh and lots of hot pepper.  It is a spicy dish but extremely healthy and usually falls on the macrobiotic diet.
ANYWAY, normally I could eat the entire salad a few egg rolls and still be hungry.  Last night I ordered it and I would not even say I ate half of it and a half of a half of an egg roll and that is all I could do. My 3 year old ate more than I did and this is a kid who can't finish a hot dog without the bun!

It felt good to share my salad with my hubby and still throw some out, except for the fact that my garbage bag had a leak so I spent the night cleaning freaking fish sauce off my kitchen floor before my 4 cats went into convulsions from sniffing it. It is still going to take me a while to not want to order too much food. I keep thinking I can eat like a cow like I used to and have to fight myself not to over order out of gluttony. Now I pretend order in my head, i.e. I think well the "fat ass" me would like this this and this but the "vomiting sucks" me will take half of this....

Morning time I really feel the restriction, I have trouble getting my small pills down. They go down but sit for a minute before working through.  I have been trying to break them in half but every once in a while I forget and get the deer in headlights look after I swallow them waiting to see what happens.

Also I have been working out every day so the scale better start moving or the next thing it will hear is "PULL......BANG"

Well enough of my silliness, I have 1.5 hours to finish an ad but can't seem to focus.

Well I had my 2nd fill yesterday, I am up to 3.6cc's in a 10cc band.  I would have liked more but I know you have to take it slow.  I have lots of restriction today but as I learned from my first fill, as the swelling goes down that will change.  I decided yesterday to use this as a "refresh" if you will. So even though my appt was not until 3:45 yesterday I did liquids all day. I have been working out every night again and I am going to keep a closer eye on what I am eating but the good news is, guess what......

I finally made the 30 pound mark this morning! Whoo hoo! 

I am on full liquids today so I have some pudding and soup for the day. I am sure I will bounce around  on the scale for a while but seeing that number for the first time was exciting. 

My blood pressure has been staying perfect on my lower dosage too, which is a good sign considering my cardiologist was not  even sure I would EVER be able to stop taking them with all my heart issues.  This was one of the biggest factors in me ever being able to have another child so if I can control it without meds and get this weight off then I see no reason why I cannot do it.

Anyway, tonight is my son's soccer practice and it is picture night. I am so excited for him.  I designed the logo for their shirts but we won't have it in time for the pics.  Since they are only 3 and 4 year olds and there are several teams they got to pick the name of the team so they picked the "sharks" since they are light blue.  I designed a cute shark with a soccerball logo for them. It always seems to get other parents excited when they find out I have graphic design experience. Everyone is always asking me to do little stuff. I don't mind though, I love to be creative. I will have to upload some of my work one of these days.  

Hope everyone has a great day.

Well, the craziness is subsiding a bit. My tradeshows are over and I fell exhausted! Way too much work crammed in a small amount of time. Oh well now I can get back to focusing on ME!

I go for my fill today at 3:45 so I hope I will get some restriction. The scale is still not budging. I did however start working out again which felt wonderful. I want to at least make my 30 pound loss by July 3rd which is my 3 month Bandiversary. 

One cool thing is now that it has been warm enough we have been in the pool a lot more and I have to buy a new baithing suit as mine is too big for me now! How cool is that!  Not that I really want to go baithing suit shopping since I know the minute I start trying them on my confidence will crash and burn but hey, its a start.  I know I will never be a beauty queen in a bikini but I at least would love to raise a few eyebrows!

Anyway I hope everyone is doing great, I miss you guys since I have not been on much!

I know it has been a while since I checked in. This week are both of the my tradeshows so I am still going nuts-o.  My weight is STILL not budging. it is PISSING ME OFF!  Oh well, I go for a fill on Monday so hopefully that will get things in motion.  I got back to working out last night now that I am not pulling 15 hour days and it felt really good.  My son started soccer last night so that was cute. He was more interested in chasing the girls around than playing. (just like his father).

I have to post my inches for 2 months which was the 3rd of this month but have not had time. I lost 7 inches for my second month and a total of 23 inches since my 2 week preop diet.  Still bouncing around 27 to 29 pounds. My body is fighting getting me to that 30 pound mark damn it.   Hopefully now that I am able to exercise again it will give me a boost.

Oh yeah I almost forgot, last week I got some meat STUCK bad. I was chewing and talking to my son and didn't even think about it and swallowed.  The minute it went down I knew I was in trouble.  It HURT SO BAD! I could not even keep my own saliva down. I almost went to the hospital it was so bad.  I threw up for 4...YES 4 hours. I was so scared my band would slip. I have never felt pain like that in my life. Childbirth was less painfull.  Nothing I did would work, finally 4 hours of throwing up later I started getting up some of it and it all came out. I was miserable. For 2 days after my stomach and chest hurt from all the barfing.  LET THIS BE A WARNING CHEW YOUR FOOD AND BE CONCIOUS OF WHAT YOU ARE DOING WHEN YOU EAT.

Well just wanted to do a quick update and let everyone know I am alive and thinking of all of you. Hope everyone is doing great!