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Well I went to my pre-op appt. they took blood, did an EKG, chest X-ray and urine sample.  I met with a nurse filled out tons of paperwork and I am scheduled for 8am surgery on Thursday I have to be there at 6am.  Like I will sleep the night before anyway.  I can't take my multi vitamins anymore until after surgery but things are on thier way!

I freaked this morning because I forgot my Optifast at home, I was rushing out and it slipped my mind.  The good thing is I have 2 slim fast Optima's at work so I think I will just used those and broth, I have broth at work I should keep a few extra shakes.  Oh well.

The great news is I am down 6 pounds!  My scale says 7 but that is naked but I will just stick with what ever I get professionally.  So I am now officially in onederland! My next goal is to get into the 180's so I can weigh as much as my hubby.

MY KINGDOM FOR SOME MUSHIES!!!!!!

Ugh, I knew it. PMS is here. I feel extremely tired and headachey today. 
I am doing good though, infact I am having some broth right now. I feel very hungry today but I know that is my PMS talking.  According to my scale I am down 6 pounds but I can already feel a difference in how my tops are fitting. Not much but they don't feel as snug, I actually wore a sweater yesterday that I have not worn in quite a while because it was a tad too snug. It fit just right yesterday!  That was a good feeling and a good motivator to keep on trucking.  Tonight I have to go to bed very early so I get get up and be at the hospital at 7am for pre-op. She said if I get there at about 6:30 she will be there and we can start early so I am going to try.  It is about 45 mins to an hour from my house so it will be an early start for me.  I will post my official weight loss once I get it from thier scale.

I can't believe that this time next week will be my last day watching from the sidelines. Next week I get into the game!!! 

Well, it is obvious I do WAY better at work then when I am at home. I have not thought about food all day and when I am here really have no problems with my liquid diet. I can't believe I have made 7 days without food, it is so amazing to me. If you would have told me a year ago I would be doing this I would have laughed hysterically and said "yeah right". 

I don't feel bad actually, a little tired now and then and I spend way to much time going back and forth to the restroom but my joints are not aching like they used to and I feel better.  I have a lot going on this week so hopefully it will occupy my brain.  Tomorrow they are coming to deliver my sons playground set we bought him. We had a landscaper build a really nice area behind the pool cage for Liam so we are putting in a little fort with a rock wall, swings, slide etc.  Then Thursday they are coming to put in all the mulch and we can use it. I am sure the next several days will be spent outside with him.  It will be pretty when it is all done, one side is for Liam the other side we made in graduated steps and planted all different kinds of bamboo. Right now they look like twigs but when they grow they will be 25 feet tall in clumps that are 4 to 6 feet wide. It will be soooooo nice.

Anyway I kinda started to ramble there.  I hope DH doesn't cook anything good tonight. Although I have to admit, not having to cook dinner every night has been AWESOME! I get to play with Liam while Daddy cooks for a change. I could get used to this!

Hugs to everyone who needs one

Well I went to bed about 45 minutes ago but I could not sleep. I had a bit of a rough night, I was fine all day until my DH came home and made dinner. The smell of it made me soooo hungry!  I think I am about to start PMS'ing since my period is due the day of surgery (oh great). I got a rush of anger and went upstairs and had my optfast up there and had a good cry.  After I was done I Felt a lot better and decided to exercise for about 15 minutes to shake it off.  I got over it quick but I am very nervous about how I am going to do during my PMS. I usually get massive hunger and can eat forever without feeling full. Not to mention I will bloat and feel yucky during all of this.  I wish I was on the pill so I could play with it a bit to push it off or make it sooner but I have an IUD and can't do a darn thing.  Oh well what can you do but go on.

One a good note I talked to the hospital today and I have my pre-op appointment on Thursday at 7am. They said it will take about 2 hours. I think after the appointment it will feel like I have taken another step.  I am curious to see what my weight is.  Well I better try to get some sleep. Tomorrow is my halfway mark through this liquid craziness.  It is so amazing to me what all of us on OH are able to achieve. We should all be proud of how strong we are!

Well I have to say I am so proud of myself. It is day 6 of liquids and I have not cheated one bit. This weekend was a true test of wills.  Lets see.....

Saturday we went to Disney Hollywood Studios, on the way there my hubby and son ate McDonlds in the car, it smelled SOOOOOOOOO good. I had to help feed my son and I didn't even lick my fingers.  One good thing is my son gets the apple dippers instead of fries so I didn't have to hand him any fries.  Then in the park of course they ate chili dogs and yummy stuff, but I brought in my drinks and a thermos of broth in our backpack so I sipped on my broth and had my Optifast when I was supposed to.

Sunday my parents, my hubby, my son and I went to the Renaissance Festival in Tampa, they were having a big Easter celebration so we thought we would do that.  We had a blast, my son is very big into knights and horses, swords and sheilds and all that stuff.  It was very hard though since in the morning some guy gave us a huge free breakfast so I sat by and drank my shake while they ate. Then at lunch they had chicken bites, fries, spaghetti, tempura veggies then they had elephant ears!!!!  Once again I sat with my broth smelling it all.  I just kept thinking thats ok, they are getting fatter and i am not.  

It is so strange to me that I have spent 6 days with no food, it has been quite an eye opener.  You do learn that you live without food. My doc said they do the 2 weeks of liquids, one to shrink your liver to make recovery much easier but also to make you realize you need to start eating to live not living to eat.  Well it is working!

I am getting a bit nervous though since I have not heard from the hospital to make my pre-op appiontment. My work is bugging me to find out when so I think I will call them and bug them.

Finally a good note, according to my scale as of this morning I am down 5 pounds!  I am not making anything official until I get on a medical scale. Whoo hoo, if I keep this up I will be down 15 pounds before surgery.

Well it got a bit rough this evening. I got really hungry and it took all I could do not to eat. I had a shake and a ton more water and I took an excedrine and after about 20 minutes I felt sooooo much better. I had a ton of energy so me and my son acted like crazy fools for a while before Daddy got home with dinner for the two of them. I could not stand to smell it so I was so proud of myself.  I went up stairs into my exercise room, closed the door, put on a show I had DVR'd the other day had my water and I did my stationary bike for about 20 minutes before I started feel really weak then I did my ab-lounger until I felt like my abs were going to explode.  They were done eating so we played for a bit then put the little twerpy to bed and my hubby and I played some XBox for a bit and now I am on here before I wrap it up and go to bed.

I have to say the product "Better Than Bullion" is the freaking BOMB! Man it tastes so good and I can have broth.  They have a ton of flavors as well. So far I have had the Chicken, ham and turkey. Ham was not that great but the other two were delicious. Tomorrow I will try the vegitable, mushroom and beef.  They had a lobster one but I wasn't going to go there.

Oh yeah I have hit the lovely liquids in liquids out phase that everyone talks about.  It is just ever so fun.  Not to mention I measured all my water today and I actually drank an entire gallon!!! I am not sure if that is good or not but I used it to fill up when I felt hungry. I was a pee machine, I must have went to the bathroom 900 times today geesh.

Well off to bed, to start another day. At least it is Friday. I don't think I could stand working another day in the office without hurting someone. The hard part will be at our Friday meeting when the donuts, pastries and breakfast shows up. I will have to put some vicks vaporub under my nose to get through that meeting.....hmmmm....wonder if that works......

Well I made it through day one. I had a horrible headache all night but I think it was more so because I didn't have any caffeine all day so I took an Excedrine with caffeine and that seemed to really help.  I feel pretty good this morning. I bought a really cool water sports bottle that has the measurements on the side and an attachable ice block that attaches to the inside of the lid to keep your water cool. My doc recommended I find one that looks almost like a childs sippy cup as it will help me sip water and less air after surgery.  I am using now because they said I have to make sure I get no less than 64oz of water in during the liquid diet to flush out toxins etc otherwise I could get nasty stomach aches.  I love water so it is no problem for me.  

We spend a lot of time at amusment parks and stuff like that so I also bought a theremos that holds about 4 of my optifasts so I can go the parks and not worry about food issues since they do not let coolers. They do allow backpacks and we always bring one with all of Liam's stuff such as change of clothes etc so I will just stuff it in there.  We are going to Disney Hollywood studios this weekend so it will be a test of wills.  I am curious to see if I get real tired from all the walking with only taking in 800 calories a day. One thing is for sure I should drop some pounds this time.

Sunday we are not having Easter dinner but my folks are coming over to have an Easter egg hunt with Liam and spend the day. We did Easter last weekend. 

Last night didn't bother me to be around food when Doug and Liam had dinner. Of course it helped that Liam had fish sticks and Doug had a tuna sandwich and the smell of it was not very pleasing.  I am so excited to finally be on my way. I took my measurements last night (see below) I didn't have time to take my before pics so I will do that tonight.  They did take a before pic of me at the docs office yesterday too.

Neck                       = 15.5"
Arm (bicep area)     = 14.5"
Forearm                 = 11"
Chest                     = 47.5"
Waist                      = 42"
Thigh                      = 27.5"
Calf                         = 16.5"
Hips                       = 45"
Knee                      = 19"

Ok so I am much calmer today than yesterday. I went to my surgeon this morning and got my 2 weeks worth of Optiast and started it today. It doesn't taste as bad as I thought but I do have a headache already. They are really rich so they make you gag towards the end.

As for my cardiologist I got there early just to make sure and the girl was oh so sweet to me. She actually did apologize so I was very nice to her.  The doc came in we spoke he cleared me and to make me feel better he gave me a temporary letter to give to the surgeon and then he dictated a letter right in front of me that he will have typed up and faxed over by Friday detailing all my info.  So I feel much better now. My next stop will be pre op the week before surgery. I hope time flies now. 

Tonight I am going to take my measurements and my before photos (yuck).  I went and purchased all my needs for the pre op diet and surgery today while I had time so I am ready to get on with it.

Ok a quick rant before I leave work. I just about freaked out on the girl from the cardiologist office. I am for sure finding a new doc after all this.  I called this morning to find out if my letter of clearance was done so I can pick it up tomorrow.  I get no call back so at 3:30 I called her and forced my way to talk to her. She said oh, the doc and I are finishing up with patients and we will go over it for him to sign off then, I will call you back. I was like WHAT??? I faxed over the EKG you made me go get last week and you are doing it just now???

Anyway so I get a call at 4:45pm and she says, well the doc wont sign off until he sees you, he said the EKG looks fine and he doesn't see any reason not to clear you but he wants to be sure but he doesn't have an appointment before your surgery.  Needless to say I wigged out on her. So she puts me on hold and comes back and says we had a cancellation can you be here at 4:15pm tomorrow. I was short with her and said I will be there.  

So can someone tell me what will seeing me in person and doing another EKG (which I did last week) do to make him "sure"?  I am soooo pissed right now I am glad he can't see me today as my blood pressure is probably off the charts!!  So they made me spend my co pay to see my regular doc to get the EKG for nothing now I have to see him and pay another co-pay for him to look at me and say ok.

I will shut up and do it but so help me if he gives me any grief I will snap. My hubby wants to go with me just in case he tries to give me any crap. My hubby has a way of not taking no for an answer so I think I will take him up on it just as a safety. I feel sick.....

Well today is my last day of food before I go on the two week liquid diet.  So officially it all starts here.  From now on the scale should be going in the right direction (otherwise it will be going out the window).  I am trying so hard not to have last supper syndrome. Last night I was good, I picked up Thai food and I had Nam Sod which is a traditional Thai salad that is very healthy with lettuce, carrots, lemon grass, ground pork (I have it with chicken) fish sauce and lime juice and a few other ingredients but you get the jist.  It is quite yummy and healthy.  They are very close friends of ours and my son LOVES to eat there. I think my son got all the good eating habits that I don't have. He loves tofu, avacado, broccoli, carrots and everything good for him.
It helps we don't give him junk, as far as he knows gummy snacks are candy.  He has had lolly pops and junk but we do not make it a norm. Same with french fries he gets apples and McD's and steamed broccoli as a side if we go to a restaurant.. He loves it really, he is not big into fried or sweet stuff. Thank God!

Also I had to note a funny thing I have experienced. I have had several overweight people get upset with me over lap band and it puzzles me.  My BMI is right at morbildy obese I am 5' 1" and 204 lbs, I carry my weight pretty well, it is spread out quite evenly so most people think I weigh less but it is still very obvious I am fat.  I had a few "fat" people tell me I was not fat enough for surgery and how in the world did I get approved.   I was shocked that they were not supportive of me no matter what my size but even after I explained the fact that my heart only functions at half of its capacity they still made me feel like I was not worthy. Rather strange really, not that I care what people think since I am doing this to be healthy and see my son grow up not for cosmetic reasons. I have a husband who loves me as I am, looking good is just a great side effect.  Just thought I would share that since it really shocked me.