Hi.. I'm back

Feb 02, 2024

Ugh.. such a stressful life. I'm SO over it. 

I'm FAT. My bmi. Is over 30. It's depressing. Upsetting. Disgusting, and all that. Life hasn't been friendly in quite awhile, I've fallen back to food. I think I'm back into the bariatric program.. AGAIN!!  I'm Disgusted with myself that I'm here. AGAIN.  I met with the new bariatric team and I'm getting the acp? I can't remember what it's called. The doctor does an endoscopy and burns your stoma to restore the fullness, of which I have NONE. My high blood pressure has returned, my knees and back ache. Back story ... we lost our home in a flood and remained homeless for 9 months. My nephew was murdered, then my son in law died of colon cancer at 51 leaving my daughter a military widow with 4 children. My sister basically had a nervous breakdown after her son was murdered. My daughter lives in Japan as they're a military family.. now she has 4 kids to support in a foreign country. Life sucked for a long, long time. I'm struggling. I hate this. I don't like feeling like this. I'm sad and disappointed in myself..... what I said would never happen. Here I am..fat again.. please pray for me, I need to get it together ????

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