164 and holding...sorta

Sep 03, 2010

Well, nothing has changed much since my last post. I am still living a normal life, not over-doing anything foodwise, and I am still losing. One to two pounds every couple weeks or so--fine with me. I can't afford the huge losses so quickly anymore anyway, right? I'm totally loving being a girly girl on occasion. I love to shop, always have, but it's sure more fun and satisfying these days.

I am hovering around 164 the last couple weeks. Brings me down to a size10/11, which once again, totally blows me away. I have to concentrate on getting a sexy, confident walk. I've always been a fast walker but now I find myself wanting to stand taller and use what I have. I've always been confident but now it's almost ridiculous! I do recognize myself in the mirror and it's familiar now, but still kind of a "what the hell?" kind of feeling. Like, I know it's me, I know I'm smaller and I LOVE everything about it so far, but still I can't sometimes believe it. And so I want to work it a little more.  It just shows you how much maturity and genetics play into your adult life as opposed to a particular weight at a certain age.

When I was 19 I weighed about 145. I lost about 20lbs pretty quickly working hard with horses at the racetrack (7 days a week). I was fit. I could barely fit into a size 13 jeans at the time. I wasn't over muscle-y, just solid. I have no 'built' muscles, just normal muscle mass now at age 53. I weigh 164 and can comfortably wear Jr's size 11 or women's 10s. Now, we've all had the convo that "sizes have changed" and perhaps they have. Maybe these 10/11s are really 12/13s. I'm still happy with that then, because I look forward to another size change downward.

Food still isn't very much on my radar--except when I'm at work. I have periods of extreme boredom and when I'm bored, I want to eat. So I keep jerky, peanut butter, cream cheese and some crackers, veggies with thick veggie ranch dip on hand. It doesn't take long to feel full, if not satisfied, but it gives my mouth something to do besides talk. I maintain another blog so that helps somewhat with the boredom. Nothing is tasting as tasty as I remember it being. I don't use salt now. I used to salt stuff BEFORE I even tasted it!! Can you imagine? I haven't had more than a bite of bread in over 19 months. I still eat crackers when I want that carby fix. Besides, gotta scoop up that cream cheese with something, right? Yeah yeah, it should be a carrot. Whatever. I'll take the veggies when I can. I am still getting in my 1000s of 1000s of ounces of water in every day--ha ha, never been an issue. It's funny though how some days I can hardly pee but a couple times a day and others it seems like it's all I do, and yet I would never think I'm dehydrated. ? Never feel crappy or weak or any of those signs.

I am cold pretty much all the time, or at least comfortable and not sweating. However, it's hard to continue to try to wear sandals and girly shoes with cold feet!! Tonight I am going out and am dressed for it now at work, except for my shoes. I'm wearing shoes that are covering up my feet--they are cold! Freezing! I am wearing a jacket in a 76* office. It often feels good to greet the parking lot and my truck at 5pm and 100*! Well, for a minute anyway. It won't be long before I'm back to wearing socks to bed. Geesh, what happened to summer???

I am still getting looks and compliments and lots and lots of encouragement and one of my coworkers is on the sleeve bandwagon. She's excited because she's got enough cash to do it. She had no idea it was 'cheap'. She figured it was $25k like the gastric bypass is. Best BEST thing I ever did for myself and I will always talk about it and encourage people to at least attend a seminar, get some of those fears and questions addressed and answered.

Looking forward to a 3 day weekend--doing nothing. Love it!

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