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Happy Surgiversary Month!

It's fitting isn't it - Courir Pour Votre Vie

Hot & Cold - Just what the hell? Here I am doubting again. Not just doubting...but absolutely 100% sure in the idea that this boy does not give one hot shit about me. It's my fault of course...

Whatever comes will come - I am feeling alonoe. I have a husband and a boyfriend but I feel alone. I am actually going to say some things I dont want to admit. I miss him. I want to seehim. I want to be wher...

Mmmmm I know dats right! - I went for my day 3 workout today. Somewhere in teh early morning light/dark I felt a black woman stirring in my soul. LOL I saw my training partner arrive but he did not come o...

Unleashing the Beast - Release The Kraken! HAHAHAHA! Well if I must. Yesterday I came home and got to work moving furniture around to make the house feel a little more put together. Jeff came home and...

Focus focus focus - OK....so yesterday was good....today was good....but both still sucked. I was supposed to have my first real sex with the boyfriend. We have had sex but it has always been rushed a...

Yep, Wrong Again - LOL, so it was only about 30 minutes after I wrote my last blog that the "other" proved me to be wrong again. He texted, and we had lunch. And it was a nice lunch. Just sat in the ...

Writ.e it down....sort it out - Its been a while since I wrote on here. I started a blog somewhere and now I cant find it. LOL. Only me! So lots of things have happened. I am not 100% proud of all of them, but I ...

Back To It! - OK, time to hit the reset button. I find it very hard to commit to my diet and exercise when I have a clear cut goal in mind. The goal changes continuously. When the current in...

The Road to Freedom - The psychology of weight loss is more transparent from this side of the glass. When I was bigger, I was willing to tolerate things I should not have....because that is your lot ...

goals for the next 6 months - reach goal weight tummy tuck arms and legs fix credit veins done freedom to be myself again....and for that to be ok.

If I Write I'll Cry - To me that is as good a reason as any to not write a blog this evening. Yet here I am. I guess I am hoping that it will make me feel better. Like a cathartic cleansing. It wont. Bu...

A Lesson Learned - Ok, so this is a gross blog, but I have learned a serious poo lesson. I have never had digestive problems, so it has been particularly hard since the surgery to deal with that as w...

1/3 of The Way - Yesterday I did the math and at 43 pounds down I have lost 33% of my excess weight. I am one-third of the way to my goal. It does not seem like it. I see a difference...but it does...

Status Quo - I'm feeling more optimistic today than I did yesterday. The scale stayed where it has been, but I felt better. We found out today that Jeff's Dad has a lot of health issues we were...