dicastro1010
Waiting...waiting..still waiting
Jun 27, 2011
I am still waiting for my appointment with the surgeon. I am FINALLY done with the Kaiser options program. I know that my lab tests came in. I found at last week that "everything" was done according to Kaiser and that they would be sending my Authorization letter to Pacific Bariatric, the place that will be performing my surgery.Now I have to wait to get a copy of that Auth letter before setting my appointment at the surgery center. Then they will do some more tests, and a few weeks after that I will be scheduled for surgery. Right now they are scheduling for September. By the time it's my time to get scheduled, who knows what month it'll be. Is it me or does this process seem to be taking forever?
I know that I am just being impatient. If I was losing weight right now maybe I would have more patience. I really need to get into the gym more and drink more protein shakes. I seem to do fine in the AM and the afternoon. Most often even having shakes for breakfast and lunch. But then, dinner comes and bam! I blow it. Either on too much to eat, too many sweets, or often times a combination of both. What a horrible existence to rely on food for my contentment! I say that I don't- but my actions tell a different story.
I have a membership at 24hour fitness that I barely ever use. I've been thinking of joining this other gym called "crunch" fitness that has a super low monthly fee plus has unlimited tanning included for just $20- a month. It's also on my way home from work which might help me to go more often. Either way, I need to just "do it" as the Nike people would say. Maybe just a change of scene would help since I have been going to 24 hour for over 15 years. I don't know.
I don't know what the deal is. I used to be a gym-rat or work out a holic, whatever you want to call it, but since I have gained all this weight I feel so unmotivated. I'm not embarassed or anything to go, in fact, when I do go I always tell myself that I should go everyday, and I can't believe that I don't. But then- low and behold ...I don't.
I hate the thought that I will be like this forever. I know that once I lose a bulk of the weight I will make the gym a regular enjoyable habit again. I just have to make sure I never allow myself "off" the wagon.
So there you have it. My rant for the day.
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About Me
Escondido, CA
Location
23.2
BMI
Surgery
09/14/2011
Surgery Date
Aug 21, 2010
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