Angela M.
Thank the Lord
Nov 03, 2006
My furrbaby...
Nov 03, 2006
If it is God's will, I ask that this day, the gift of healing be granted to her. Comfort her during times of unbearable pain, and ask our Lord to grant her peace and patience in suffering.
May God give her the fullness of life here on earth, or call her home to eternal glory forever. Amen.
My Baby =(
Nov 02, 2006
Well my dog didn't get any better last night- actually she got worse...so we brought her back to the vet again this morning (3rd time in two days) and she told us that she was losing neurological function rather quickly so we had to bring her to the emergency hospital at Tuft's School. They think its disc disease and something pressuring her spinal cord and she needs surgery. If it ends up being a cartilage clot then she needs to be confined to a crate for 6 weeks. I am so depressed, I keep crying. The med student sounded optimistic but while we were waiting another dog came in who had the same issue and same surgery and he had all these complications and couldn't even walk, he was being help up by a rear harness and only could function his front legs. I cant deal with this. My mom told me that if anything goes wrong that we have to put her to sleep because we can't take care of a crippled dog. She looked so sad in the crate hooked up to a catheter and IV and had pink bandages on her paws. My poor babygirl. The only positive is that there were people there with their animals who have traveled from all over the place- Alabama and Maine...that hospital is like the best of the best so I hope to God everything goes smoothly. I'll be praying for her. My brother is going to be so upset when he gets home from school. =(
Good news and bad news. They ended up not doing the surgery. They think that rest for 6 weeks will help her. Thats the good news- bad news is that she has to stay in her crate for 6 weeks and can't do anything- we have to carry her outside to go to the bathroom and carry her back in and put her in the crate. She might be able to come home tomorrow. I feel terrible.
Great news!
Nov 01, 2006
Poor Babyy =(
Oct 31, 2006
My poor puppy has been crying ever since 8 last night and she woke my mom up at 4am crying even more. She wont stop crying and we've noticed that she hasn't been wagging her tail for 2-3 days. She has bad back legs and is walking funny but just recently she keeps lifting her head up in the hair and burping and also straining to poop. She isn't constipated though and her legs keep giving out... I just don't know whats wrong with her. She is going to the vet in 15mins and I hope its nothing serious. I can't stand to see her like this. Poor puppy. She is my best friend. And my mom reminded me today that she "isn't going to live forever" but I just told her SURE SHE WILL! I can't think about that right now. Im staying home from class to take care of her. Hopefully the vet can help her out.
The vet thinks that she has a back injury. I dont know how that could have happend because she is always around me and my mom and we haven't seen anything happen. But she is on pain meds and if things don't improve she needs x-rays and possibly surgery. She can't even stand in front of her dish to eat, we had to put the food out on the floor and she ate it off the ground while laying down. I feel so bad for her, she is still crying non-stop. I wish there was something I could do. =( My brother just came home from school and he is usually such a tough guy but he ran to his room because he was petting Brandie and she wouldn't stop crying...so he started to cry. He didn't want me to notice but I did. That made me want to cry even more!!
SIDENOTE: I've always tried my best to be sensitive of other people but between last night and today I just realized how STUPID some people can be. And stupid people really piss me off. They have these attitudes like they know everything but the things coming out of their mouths either make no sense or make them seem like the biggest dumbf*cks ever. My rant of the day. kthanksbye!
Gosh
Oct 30, 2006
Oh yea...
HAPPY HALLOWEEN!!!
So my mom just got back from her physical and she got the referral. I tried calling my doctor to ask her about it now to see if she wanted to do the bloodwork ahead of time but I was told that she is out all week because she had a death in the family, thats really sad. But it also means that she is going to be swarmed with stuff next week so I hope she has time for me! But yea anyways- Im kind of bitter today- I got back from taking my test and I did well but Im just not in the best mood. Everyone is getting surgery dates except me. I try to be happy for everyone but its really hard when I never know if I'll get one. Im trying to be positive but its hard. REALLY HARD. Ugh.
3:45pm- UGHHHHHHH. Dr. Bourne from Fallon just called me and she said that she talked to Dr. Shukla (the medical director) and that everything looks really optimistic and that she talked to Dr. Arcand about me and he should be calling me today at some point. She said that surgery looks like it would be in the same time frame with either program and that I really need to make a decision. I dont know what to do anymore. This is like a tug of war. I feel broken. And I got another email from a friend today that they got their surgery date and although I am EXTREMELY happy for them I couldn't even respond because I cant handle all these emotions. My next appointment with my therapist is November 7th, CANT WAIT!!.
Not much new, but feeling cheerier!
Oct 30, 2006
Got a great email from Patti!
Dear Angela,
I just returned from a trip and was shocked to read your email. WHY did Fallon allow you to hope if this was going to be the final decision? I don't get it at all. I hope you made your feelings clear to them. I'm still in shock.
Now, the next step. I'm so glad to hear you are still fighting for WLS. Let your anger propel you right into a program that is better for you. You are too precious to not have the chance for good health. Are you going to continue with the group? I'm sure that is a difficult decision because of this outcome. But we love you and it might help you to stay strong.
Please stay in touch and let me know how you are feeling this week. I'm not afraid to drive in Boston, if you need a driver let me know.
Love and prayers to you,
Patti
YAY!! Her surgery is...WEDNESDAY! Wow I can't believe its that close. Everyone pray for her!
Inspiration
Oct 28, 2006
"Just because the road ahead is long, is no reason to slow down. Just because there is much work to be done, is no reason to get discouraged. It is a reason to get started, to grow, to find new ways, to reach within yourself and discover strength, commitment, determination, discipline. The road ahead is long, and difficult, and filled with opportunity at every turn. Start what needs starting. Finish what needs finishing. Get on the road. Stay on the road. Get on with the work. Right now you're at the beginning of the journey. What a great place to be! Just imagine all the things you'll learn, all the people you'll meet, all the experiences you'll have. Be thankful that the road is long and challenging, because that is where you'll find the best that life has to offer."
"Let your eyes stay filled with stars and your heart with glimpses of dreams to come true."
"Walk through life with your eyes closed. You never know where those little trips and falls may take you."
"Discouraged? Just remember that the darkest night did not turn down all the stars."
"Sometimes I thank God for unanswered prayers; remember when you're talkin' to the man upstairs that just because he doesn't answer doesn't mean he don't care; some of God's greatest gifts are unanswered prayers..." - Garth Brooks
Ridiculous!!!
Oct 27, 2006
Thank God I found a true friend in Lauren. I called her right after the phone call and balled my eyes out to her and then she let me come over and I almost forgot about the whole thing- but we talked and she made me feel better for a while. Its so good to have a wonderful friend- it makes the pain hurt a lot less. I am so lucky to have her. She's hardly known me for long and her and her husband welcomed me into their home like they've known me for years- it just feels so great to have a place that Im not judged and someone I can tell anything to. I don't know what I would do without that girl. Lauren really is my angel, I swear it.
NWH HERE I COME!!!
Just another day.
Oct 27, 2006