6 months today

Apr 26, 2010

Wow, its been six months.  I am on top of the world.  When I got on the scale yesterday it read 236 lbs.  I was hoping to be down six pounds by my birthday, which is this Thursday, but what the heck.  I have't been this small since high school.  Today I have energy, I have confidence.  I like the way I look.  I like being able to shop in "regular stores".  During this past Xmas season I was still super morbidly obese.  When we went out shopping with my sister and her friends they would go to a store like Forever 21 and I would have to wait outside.  Nothing I bought from any store looked good on me.  Often times I would squeeze into the largest sizes in the Big Girl stores.  I was embarrassed to be in my own skin.

Today Although I am far from perfect, I do feel worthy.  I feel worthy of the attention I get from other people.  I feel worthy of the compliments I get from others.  I have an absolutely gorgeous younger sister.  She and I was at a bar at the same time and this guy that I was noticing noticed me back.  He was flirting with her too, but just think I was in the running with a guy that probably considered me to be just as beautiful as my sister.

I feel amazing.  I would do it over again in a heartbeat.  Without WLS, I probably would never get to know life again.  I am still a big girl (size 16/18)  but now when I walk in a room, I walk in without shame and embarrassment.

This past Friday, I met with my surgeon.  He said he is very pleased with my weight loss thus far.  They took a bunch of blood and said I would hear from them if there was a problem.  Other than that I don't go back until October 2010 (one year out). I do sometimes panick and think my weight loss is at a halt, but when I chat with other VSGers I get reassured.  I am taking a dance class 2 times weekly.  I am moving more, chasing kids, playing basketball, and gardening.  i am so grateful for this opportunity.  i sat in church for years and prayed for God to help me with my weight/health.  In my heart I know that he was right on time.  Thank you God.

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