On the wrong track and I know it

Jun 07, 2010

WELL, I HAVE DEFINITELY FELT OFF CENTER FOR A COUPLE WEEKS NOW.  I DON'T HAVE A LOT OF ENERGY LKE I HAD BEFORE.  I HAVE BEEN IN A CRAPPY MOOD.  I HAVE COMPLETELY REGRESSED.  I HAVE NOT LISTENED TO MY BODY, EATING MUCH MORE THAN MY BODY NEEDS.  I HAVE EATEN JUST ABOUT EVERY UNHEALTHY THING POSSIBLE.  I HAVE EATEN A BAG OF POPCORN 2-3 TIMES PER WEEK FOR A COUPLE WEEKS NOW. 

I WAS AT A POINT WHERE I WAS VERY HAPPY WITH MY PROGRESS, BUT NOW I REALIZE THAT I HAVE MUCH MORE TO LOSE AND IT IS GETTING VERY HARD.  I HAVE BEEN WORKING OUT 2-3 TIMES WEEKLY, BUT MY STALL HASN'T MOVED.  I HAVE BEEN BOUNCING FROM 232-236 FOR A LONG TIME.

I SO KNOW I NEED TO GET BACK TO BASICS.  I AM GOING TO BUY A FOOD SCALE TODAY, BECAUSE I HAVE BEEN EYEBALLING MY PORTIONS FOR THE PAST 7 MONTHS.  I HAVEN'T BEEN MEASURING A THING.  I HAVEN'T BEEN PUSHING MYSELF AWAY FROM THE TABLE.  I DIDN'T WANT TO BLOG THIS, BECAUSE I KNOW THAT I WILL PROBABLY BE ENCOURAGED TO GET A THERAPIST.  I WAS UTILIZING OA FOR A SHORT WHILE, BUT WHEN I WENT TO A MEETING I REALLY COULDN'T IDENTIFY WITH THE TWO OTHER PEOPLE THERE.

I AM WORKING TO GET MOTIVATED, BUT THE TRUTH IS I HAVE AN ADDICTION TO FOOD.  I HAVE BEEN LOOKING FOR OTHER BLOGGERS THAT MAY HAVE HAD SIMILAR ISSUES AT THIS POINT, BUT REALLY IT SEEMS LIKE EVERYONE ELSE IS DOING REALLY WELL.  I KNOW I REALLY NEED TO LET GO OF ALL THE PAST EATING HABITS AGAIN!

ANY SUGGESTIONS ARE WELCOME, ALTHOUGH I KNOW I PROBABLY WON'T LIKE THEM.  THANK YOU IN ADVANCE FOR YOUR SUPPORT.  I LOOK FORWARD TO READING YOUR REPLYS.

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