Not sure

Aug 07, 2010

Well, I have been looking at the losing trend that I am in.  I don't seem to be losing well at all, I do know that I haven't put everything into this as I should, which is why I don't have optimal results. 

After 9 months, I do get hungry.  I am a stress eater.  I have been giving myself 2 free days per week, but really its just an excuse to eat whatever I want.  Yesterday I had 2 orders of french fries in one day!  This is crazy. 

Most days I am completely unhappy with the way I look.  My current measurements are 40" chest, 46" waist, 41" hips (pre op my waist was 57" and my chest was 50").  So I guess you all know the area of most concern.  I was exercising pretty regularly, but honestly did not see any improvements in my weight loss, although I felt better.  I haven't turned back into a total slacker, but I have not been waking up and riding my bike before work lately...once in the last 7 days.

I am still wearing 14-18 pants, 16 shirt.  It feels good, but I have the aweful midsection.  I hae been reading the OA book and I really want to go to WLS support groups, but my schedule is horrible.  I know I need to take charge of things.  I also know I can end up exactly where I came from it I don't get a handle on things.  Usually, I eat ok.  today I had protein coffee drink for breakfast, hamburger no bun or cheese for lunch, a peach for a snack.  I am not sure what dinner will look like.  I try to avoid bread, fried food, and sugar.  However, I am more successful some days than others.

I am just asking for support.  I know I am not supposed to compare my loses with others, but I still do and feel like I am incredibly behind.  I KNOW I HAVE AN ADDICTION.  I think of food all day whether I am eating it or not. 

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