Back on OH

Jan 24, 2015

Seems like the Old rollercoaster..back on, back off, back on, back off. There needs to be an end to it. I was up to 238 over the holidays and finally said - Dammit that's enough. Cookies, snacks, breads, cereals, potatoes...I would eat them then feel like shit, but later eat them again. I am tired of it - clothes I was so proud to be able to wear don't fit anymore - I WANT THAT BACK! I am going to take it back!

I wiped the guilt clean this week, I wiped the excuses clean this week - I know I can't afford a gym - but I can get up and move. I know I hate tracking my food, but I know it helps. I got into the bad habit of drinking diet pop even though I knew it was bad, even hurt sometimes...done with it! I have wiped it all clean - that's OK to do. The only one who can make the start and get over the crappy mistakes you make is yourself. This is not some new years resolution - this is my personal revolution - I have to FIGHT myself to be healthy and happy.

Isn't that funny - it's our own selves who get in the way of our own happiness and healthiness. Nobody else!!!  Well, screw me - I am not going to let me ruin me!!!   (that is one of stupidest sounding things I think I have ever thought or wrote - but I think it might be on track!)  SO I am going to overcome myself! I can succeed where I have failed. I know I can, and I know I will.

There...new slate...new dream...on route to the me I know I can be!

God Bless you all!!!

Chris

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