Holier than Thou Attitudes!

Dec 25, 2009

Unlike Thanksgiving and my feelings of guilt and remorse, I took a completely different approach.  Don't make food the enemy or treat my WLS as a "curse".  I took a tablespoon or two of certain dishes, leaving the bread alone. Oh I loved the sweet potato pudding, cabbage, and shrimp and macroni salad (which is to die for...). I didn't need or want the turkey. Because everyones' plate was full to the brim, I could take my time to chew, chew, chew.  Everything stayed down, no nausea, and no dumping.  I was satisfied, felt no guilt. Later, while everyone was having carmel and nut covered apple pie and ice cream, I flirted with "sad".  People kept apologizing to me when they made their plate.  Finally, I  took a fork and cut off an edge and enjoyed that blasterd pie.  

Without trying to sound holier than thou, I was truly able to see how I became overweight by watching the eating habits of my family.   But, I also learned that with my weight loss, small portions, and chew, chew, chewing... I could see in their eyes - unspoken feelings - so I grew increasingly silent and less conspicous about my weight loss and my approach to eating. 

They are my family and less than four months ago, I was equal in my size and eating habits.  Who the heck did I think I was that by my mere presence,  making them feel guilt and remorseful for enjoying food and a Christmas meal where it has always been legal to cheat.  Notice in the word cheat is "eat"?   Folk wanted to talk about something besides me and my new "culture".   You know, we sort of develop a new attitude about ourselves.  We must take care that it is not a "holier than thou" attitude. 

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