Coming Home...

Jun 22, 2015

When I saw the Obesity Help conference was coming to a town 2 hours away, I decided to click back on the site... after more than three years.  Yes, I have gained, yes, it has been a roller coaster ride, yes, I wish I could have kept the weight off, yes, yes, yes.  I started reading some of my old friend blogs and they have not been on for years.  I found a few who posted about a year ago.  In October, it will be six years.  I have not gained it all back, but enuff that I would go through surgery again. lol.  Yes, I would do it or anothe surgery, if I thought I could lose more weight.  My doctor after a whole week of test, said you are that one on the million  - you body wants to be fat and no matter what we are doing, you metabolism slows down.  I was working with a nutritionist - doing what I was told, and going to the gym at least five times a day, swimming, bike, treadmill. Yet, I continued to gain. I cried hysterically and told him I would rather be dead than fat again.  As I write, I have come to love myself, regardless of my size.  I am not back to my original weight, but a far cry from the weight I had lost.  Know what I found out, people react more to how I present myself, than the self I present. If you carry yourself like you are beautiful, people treat you like you are beautiful.  I cannot lie, when I experienced the greatest loss, I was happier than I had been in years, I loved how I looked and felt.  I was almost arrogant with it.  God has a way of putting you in your place.  But, I tell you this, coming back to Obesity help, it feels like coming home.   Cakes

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