Carmen C.

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Well I have hidden my scales, seems getting on the scale every day, sometimes 3-4 times a day was getting frustrating. One minue I was 5 pounds lighter, the next 4 pounds heavier. SO i have decided to put them away, and allow my body to do what it's doing and believe this weight will come off and only weigh myself once a week.

I feel better about it just anxious to know if I have lost any weight.

I was getting so angry and frusting not seeing that scale change.

I am trying to make up in my mind that no matter what the results is, I am loosing, and I am getting smaller and eventually the weight will come off, it has to.

Well, I have not lost any weight since I hit my 3 months. I did loose 10 pounds in the month of March, but I lost 8 in the first few days of March and then only 2 pounds for the month.

I ask myself, I know I was cheating and eating a few bites in March- was it that? 
Did I screw this up? 
Was it that i eat a bite or so of bread here and there? 
I am so frustrated I want to cry. I feel that this is just the begening of my journey and slow weight loss, I hate this, this is not what I have expected.

I pray and hope that the scale changes. I have been watching what I eat more, and drinking lots more water.

I even thought about if the numbers don't have in 1 week to do the 5 day pouch test.

Seems I should not be struggling this hard so early in my stage.

I have only lost 48 pounds since surgery. plus the 10 pounds of preopt.

Today it's been 3 months since surgery. Overall I can't complain. I am soo happy because I am back to where I was before I had my last baby 9 months ago, the lowest I have been in 15 years. I can't wait to see how much more weight loss I will continue to loose.

I still struggle with the food and learning that I can't and WILL Not be able to eat like I used it. It's a MIND thing.

I have only thrown up once - so I think I have done not too bad.

Either then that. I am still learning and learning to adapt to my new life.

I excersise 3 times a week, 1 hour each time, and try as much as possible to stay active ALL THE TIME. cleaning, cooking etc.

I noticed if I make wiser choices of food, but not so over contious that I make myself "stress" sick I loose weight faster.

I started at 315
Lost 20 pounds on my own
Lost 10 pounds on 2 week diet problem
Lost 45.5 pounds since surgery comes out to 3.79 pounds a week.

Well as of today down 44 pounds = averaging about 4 pounds a week.

It has not been bad, last sunday was my first time I threw up, that was horrible I felt like I was having a heart attack.
Either then that, food has been challenging at times, it's still a transformation in the mind I am working on.

I am SOOOO happy I am only 243, 3 pounds away since before I got pregnant.

I can't wait till I hit under 200 pounds. I am excited about the weight loss.


I also wanted to note my bougie is a size 34, before I forget- its the second to the smallest one out there.

WOW, I never thought I would of known I was so addicted to food as I was.  I have been really been tripping allot with the food. I did already started getting really tried.

I have only excersised 2 times last week, but been really pushing myself to do anything, moving, cleaning etc.

Well, can't believe it's been 3  weeks. I feel great. Many times I forget that I have had the surgery and have to remember. I started excersing yesterday. WOW that was shocker, I am so out of shape. I have decided to start with just 1 class and take it easy. Been still cleaning and cooking, on top of my class, just pray god strengthens me.

Every day gets better, really missing foods. Can't wait till I can at least eat meats, not allot just a taste.

Can't believe it's been 1 week.
I feel great- little sore from OVER doing it.
but I am drinking about 3oz each drink almost every hour.

Can't wait till I am 1 month out, and start excersing.

Well, I am almost out of this hospital. They said I could go home tommorrow.

I am drinking about 2oz every hour.

Gosh I remember the pain when I woke up.

When I woke up, I kept telling them I was in allot of pain, the nurse kept telling me, hit the button, It was nothing happening. I even remembering pulling on her, telling her I was in pain. I remembered seeing her run back and forth from patients. The first few days where HELL.

I can't image, doing it all over again now- that is why I am determined NOT TO gain any of this weight back, this will be enough for me.

I can do with this surgery.

Well, Here I am back, in the hospital. I was not able to hold anything down. Felt like I was chocking every time I drank something. Couldn't do nothing but cry and sleep. That is all I wanted to do.

They readdmitted me - wanting me to get some liquids in.

I do feel better.

Even had an encopscopy- they streached a little, stated I would stay an additional 2-3 days. . I have already been here for 3 days. Almost 4 days.

Well. I am trying to get my popcicles down, and protein.

Can't wait till I see the kids. I miss them so much.


Either than that- can't waill till it's next week. =And I am out and feeling good.

Now I am getting really nervous.

Can't wait.