Mixed emotions....08/01/08

Aug 01, 2008

Here I go.... in my lifetime this will be the third { in another 5 lbs. or so } time I have lost a 100 lbs. or more . My weight loss history has been like a bad relationship you can't get away from ...until ...now . I bought the cutest size ten capri pants yesterday that fit really good on the hips .... and I don't understand this.... they look big to me..... that sounds so ungratful after being in a size 2-3 X and I can't figure out why I feel this way ! I am fast approaching the point where I have failed and I am scared.... of gaining and scared of not getting any smaller . If I get to an 8 will that look big will I not be satisfied ? I just have mixed emotions right now . I'm happy and scared . I weighed 171 lbs. today but I know I won't be happy staying there I want to be 135 lbs. I just have to keep the mind set I have my "tool" this time is different... I have help... and IT is going to work ! Third times a charm right ? I feel better already . ~ Cy

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