dahoodman
Countdown To Slim-Down -- T Minus 11, 10 Days & Counting
Mar 15, 2013
I missed a day. That's probably a good thing. I think it means that I wasn't thinking as much about the surgery as I usually do. So many things going through the head about after the surgery and I mean wayyyyy after like years down the road. Am I really up for this lifetime change? It's odd that I keep putting myself through this because I know a couple people that are 5-10+ years out and they are fine. They eat what they want, just not as much of it. One of them, however, REALLY eats what he wants and that guy scares me some. He eats what, when, how much, bla bla bla he wants. Of course the weight has come back on for him.
When I first met him and found out he had surgery he was pretty slim. You could see the excess skin but he was slim. He had the surgery done right after high school and he apparently had a pretty rough youth I think. Since his surgery he has gone up and down in weight a lot. He's had complications that he has caused on his own with smoking, drinking, just all around rough behavior. I won't get into much more of his personal life. He is my role model for what NOT to do essentially. Before I really put in a lot of research into WLS I didn't think much of what he was doing and I couldn't figure out why someone with WLS could gain weight. Now that I have researched it, wow, he's doing everything wrong. I've talked to him some about it, and he knows what he's doing, but he still doesn't seem to care much. He has the attitude that he had this done before he really knew what he was doing so whatever.
I have a good feeling about this surgery and how it's going to help me. I am still nervous, scared, whatever, but I think I'm ready. Someone in my office (yes you know who you are because you are probably reading this now that we are "hooked up" on OH) has really been my inspiration and motivation. Her and I were considering this when our insurance at work changed. She did it and I chose to try to do it myself one more time. I have watched as she did it and as I "failed" one more time. She never once harped on me or tried to talk me into or out of anything. She simply supports me when I ask her questions. She recently made me a cookbook for liquids, mushies, and meals. What a friend!
Something kind of interesting happened to me the other day I almost forgot to put in here. I didn't think much about what was going on until a few hours later. I have a file on my home computer with all my usernames and passwords for various web pages like our cell phones, electric bill, all that stuff. My wife has taken no interest in this stuff ever. The other day she asked me if I could show her that file so she could add some of her own stuff to it. So I did. A few hours later it kind of hit me. She wanted to know where this was, just in case. Just in case something happens on the operating table!! I know in my head that it's the proper thing and I now plan to make sure that all things like that are taken care of before-hand, but I was just a little stunned for about a day. Not at the thought of dying, but that she had to think about that. Kind of creepy.
Well that's enough writing for two days I guess. I suppose that the real rants will begin post-op when I'm pissed about pain and food or lack thereof. Damn!!! 10 Friggin' Days!!!
