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When I first made the call to Joyce to start this journey I was at my highest of around 330.  I probably weighed a little less but I believe I was around there.  Anyways, that was in May 2008.  As of this morning at approximately 0530 I am now 269.  I'VE LOST 60 LBS!!!  I'm so proud of myself.  I also can kind of sorta wear my wedding band again.  It's still a little snug but I can now bring it below my knuckle.  LOL  Every little bit counts.  Things are going so good.  I got a bad scare the last time I went to see my doc.  I actually gained weight from the last time I saw him.  5 lbs to be exact.  I was devastated but I didn't let myself get complacent.  I got home and started working out and really watching what I ate.  I knew a few lbs could just be from water weight (I was about to start my cycle) and the rest from too much fun over the holidays but that is no excuse when you are doing a lifestyle change.  I didn't let it hold me down and it is now shining.  I'm hoping I'll be able to stand strong and lose 5 more lbs before Valentine's Day.

I'm well on my way of reaching my personal goal of 200 lbs by my bandiversary date.  I maybe reaching for the stars but hey jumping is good exercise.

PS...Dr. McDevitt, Joyce, or Cathy:  if you are reading this don't be too hard on me about using my scale at home.  Gaining that weight has scared me straight.  LOL

My title of this post says it all!  Yup that right I can wear a size 20.  It was kind of snug in some places but I didn't have to hold my breathe and wear a girdle to button them up.  I even had to wear a belt.  Oh yeah and speaking of belts I can wear a size 44 (men's) and still have to go in a couple of notches.  I'm so proud of myself.  I was kind of unmotivated because I wasn't losing any weight but apparently I was losing inches.

The day I tried on the size 20 (it feels so good to say that!) I wasn't even thinking about it.  I was getting ready to go to the store and needed to find some jeans.  I pulled a pair of pants from my closet and checked the size.  I saw that they were 20's and I just thought I would try to see what progress I had made.  I tried them on and sure enough they came up over my hips and I could button them.  They were snug on my thighs but they fit and I could sit, stand, and walk with no problems.  I ran in the living room and showed my husband.  He was happy for me in his own way.  (You have to know my hubby to really get that statement.)  I was so excited!  I'm still so excited!  The last time I wore a size 20 was almost 8 yrs ago.  I wanted to be in a size 20 by Valentine's day but now I may change that into a size 18 or at least close to it.  I still have almost 70 lbs until I hit my goal of 200 lbs by my surgery anniversary date but I think I'll make it by then or even before.  My greatest cheerleader outside my family says I can make that goal before August.  I think I can to as long as I stay the course.

As soon as I can I'll have to post a picture of myself in those jeans.

I'm so not motivated right now.  Don't get me wrong I do my exercise in the morning and the evening.  I guess I'm just kind of bored with it.  I'm going to do some research tonight on some other things I can do.  I'm running out of movies/tv shows to watch on my ipod and I notice that I tend to look at the time more.  I never did that before.

This morning I was so tempted to go for a jog, or at least try to.  I don't know why I didn't.  I may just venture out tonight.  I'm tired of looking at my garage 2x a day.

Ok so I'm done babbling/ranting I'm going to jump on the band wagon and find some new exercises to do.  Actually I may find some exercise shows on Fit Tv.  Maybe I'll finally get some real use out of that channel.  LOL

Ok so I've been gone for a while. Ever since the ball I've been busy, busy, busy. With my hectic lifestyle I've been kind of lax on my workouts. Not that I haven't been exercising but I haven't been putting in as much time as I did before. Right now I can't work out in the afternoons because of office coverage but I'm hoping that soon I will be able to start that up again. I know that helped me in the beginning with dropping a lot of weight quickly. Also I had my cycle and didn't work out for a week because I had to travel to NC for traffic court (That's another long story) then there was Thanksgivings! With all this happening I gained 4 lbs but I lost it in a week once I recommitted myself.

My hubby noticed how I had tappered off and saw that I gained a little back and he blew his top. I know that he has been helping me in every way that he can but he also needs to realize that a woman doesn't lose like a man does. I had expected to gain during my cycle. I always do but I know that now with the help of the Band I can lose it just as fast. It probably sounds like I'm making excuses but I guess in a way they are but I also know what I need to do to succeed and I'm doing it. I've started working out in the morning and the evening. To make sure I don't talk myself out of it I go to bed with my workout shorts and bra on. All I have to do is get up, turn off the alarm, put on a sweatshirt, and head to the garage. After work I come home change my clothes before my mind has a chance to think about sitting down and head to the garage. With this method I've been able to keep up on my excercises and make sure that I put in the time and effort so I can reach my year goal of getting to 200 lbs or less. I'm shooting for less but to reach 200 lbs would be great also. Anyhoo, I just wanted to let everyone know that I haven't given up. Everyone has a set back and I had one just recently. I'm disappointmented in myself but I am not defeated. I am now going strong, back on the right track. I'm hoping by the time my daughter gets off winter break I'll be down to 260! There's my new mini goal. Wish me luck!

Well my hubby's ball is over. I had a blast as you can see from my previous post. Now I'm asking myself what next? What do I have to look forward to so that I have a mini goal on my way to my ultimate goal. Well my birthday is coming up. 38 days from today to be exact. My birthday isn't really a major event for me since it's so close to Christmas but this one in particular I'm going to sort of make a fuss about. That's right people I'm turning...pause for dramatics *GULP*...30! That's right I said it I'm turining 30. Majority of the people I know have either past 30 or have a few years before they are even close to it. Nobody understands my pain except those in the same boat as me. All my older friends tell me that I'll love my 30s but I'm not looking at it the same way. I remember when my mother turned 30 and I used to mess with her about it. Now I'm turning 30 and it's not a happy time because to me 30 means I'm getting older and I want to be young as long as I can. I know that you are as young as you feel but hey some days I can feel like I'm in my 70s. Maybe I'll feel better about it when I get there but I just feel like I'm on a ledge and I see another ledge and another ledge all aging me 10 yrs until I reach the bottom which is death. It's a morbid way to look at life but that's what going through my mind. Either way I will make my 30s a fun time since my 20s sucked. In my 20s I was morbidly obese and miserable. In my 30s I'll be a normal weight and happy.

I can't stop it from happening so I'll have to accept it and face whatever challenges it brings. COME ON 30s BRING IT ON! I'M STRONGER THAN I LOOK!

Ok well as you can see I don't have pictures. I mean we took professional pictures there but no candids. Wouldn't you know it I forgot my camera and I was sitting at such a bad angle that I couldn't get any candid shots of my hubby with my phone. I'm sure some pictures will filter down to us from other people.

Anyhoo...I had a great time. Although the evening started off kind of shitty. Well I got up started cleaning my house and didn't get a chance to finish because I was going to be late dropping the kids off at the sitters which would inturn make everything else late. I rushed out the house after packing our bags went to get my nails/toes and eyebrows done. I loved how my nails came out althought I think my eye brows are too thin. I hope they grow back soon because I feel like a clown. I dropped my phone in the car on my way to the hotel and ended chipping some of the paint off my nails. By this time I was too far from the salon to go back and get it fixed so I just bought some white out (I had a french manicure) to cover up the chip. It worked. So I get to the hotel and the valet helps me get everything out of my car. I get to the front desk and realize I forgot my dress in the car. The bell hop actually went down and got it for me. I had to give him a tip after that. He was so nice. I get to the room and didn't even have a chance to relax because I had to start getting ready because my hubby decided that he was going to let one of his friends get ready in our room so I spent about an hour and a half in the bathroom with no fan because his friend was in the room with us.

I finally get my dress on and it was LOOSE! That's right loose! When I picked it up on Tuesday it fit perfectly. I put it on 4 days later and it's loose in top. My hubby had to put pins in the straps so it would stay on securely. This whole time he's telling me to calm down and relax. Easy for him to say. I was happy that it wasn't any worse that it was just then but OMG how could I loose a significant amount of inches in such a short period of time? I'm not angry about loosing the inches but it is kind of annoying when you just got your dress back from the tailors.

We head from our room to the ball. I could barely make it to the elevator in my shoes. I HATE those shoes. I can walk short distances and stand up in them but to walk across a lobby in them is asking too much. I was walking through the hotel like my leg was broken or my knee was sprained. As soon as I got to our table I kicked those damn shoes off. The ceremony was beautiful. Hubby was in the honor guard so he wasn't able to sit with me during the ceremony. The buffet, that's right buffet, was good also. I was afraid that I wouldn't be able to eat anything there but they had a beef that was so tender that I ended up eating 4 slices, don't worry they were sliced thin. We danced and drank until the ball was over.

After the ball I changed out of my dress and put on some comfortable clothes. He stayed in his dress blues and so did a few of his friends. We went prowling the streets of Savannah for some clubs. We ended up at this club that I hear about on the radio all the time. Once there I drank some more and danced some more. We went to another club and danced until it closed. At this point in time I was fine. My feet hurt that's it but I assumed it was from wearing those GOD awful shoes. Now mind you I left the room around 6:30pm we didn't get home until 5:00am. We didn't care about anything else but getting back to our room and going to sleep. All other "activities" that I wanted to partake in were canceled. Even if I still wanted to I had no energy for such "activities".

The next day when I woke up I started to get out of bed and my knees almost gave out on me. My legs were KILLING me! I mean if I could have motrin again I probably would have taken a double dose. Oh my goodness it was so wrong how my legs hurt. I somehow gathered my things, ate breakfast, and headed home. My kids had a wonderful time at the sitters. My son didn't want to come home. He still talks about going back. I keep telling him mommy's birthday is 40 days away and anything is possible. I would love to go away for my b-day with no kids since it's a milestone birthday but that's another post entirely.

Well there goes my night. I'm sorry that it's the abridged version but if I went into details I would be here all night typing away but I've got to finish what I started on Saturday.

Well I didn't get to have my Mary Kay makeover but that's ok. I was dealing with other things yesterday (refer to previous post). Today I'm going to finish up cleaning my house and doing my laundry. I have to get groceries on Friday and then on Saturday that's when the real fun begins. I have to get the kids ready for the sitter, go get my eyebrows, pedi, and nails done. After that race down to Savannah and at least have a little time to relax (and drink lol) before it's time to get ready for the ball. I still don't know what they are serving for food. I hope it's at least something that I can eat because I'd hate to be the only one not eating. Having your stomach rumbling loudly during General Lejuene's speech. LOL Since we are staying at a hotel I may be able to sneak in a little workout before the craziness begins.

That's right folks I'm just that dedicated!

Ok so I'm not the best housekeeper in the world but I'm not a dirty person either. So that being said I found an infestation in my house. Well actually on my hubby's computer desk. So here I am at home for the day freaking out! I thought all I would have to worry about is cleaning my house and not passing out from the fumes. LOL I call maintenance and they were going to have the pest control people just call me later. OH HELL NAW!!! I called back and spoke to a wonderful lady that got the pest control people to come to my house today. The bug guy came, he saw, and he damn sure conquered because it was the easiest visit I've ever had from a maintenance man. He just came in looked at the computer desk and said...Oh these are dry wood termites attracted to your computer desk, you'll have to get rid of it. Well that's all he had to say. He was even nice enough to help me get the desk outside. I asked him if he needed to spray in case they spread but he said they are just attracted to that piece of furniture. If I see or imagine I see something that moves on any other piece of furniture in my living room I'm going to a hotel. Tonight hubby is going to take the desk to the curb. I already feel dirty enough. At least now I can sleep tonight.

Ok so other than that I'm almost done with my cleaning and I picked up my dress. I'm going to try it on tonight. I hope I can stil feel pretty even with all this excitement today.

Don't you just hate it when you watch a tv show or a movie and a song gets stuck in your head? Well it has happened to me. I've been watching The Boondocks while on break and now I have the song stuck in my head.

The Boondocks Theme Song by Asheru

I am the stone that builder refused
I am the visual
The inspiration
That made lady sing the blues

I'm the spark that makes your idea bright
The same spark
that lights the dark
So that you can know your left from your right

I am the ballot in your box
The bullet in your gun
The inner glow that lets you know
To call your brother son
The story that just begun
The promise of what's to come
And I'm 'a remain a soldier till the war is won

Ok I don't know about you but my appetite and weight increases with my TOM. Now the appetite I can control. Instead of giving into food craving I replace it with more water and/or protein drinks. Seems to be helping so far. As for weight increase well that's just water. FRICKING BLOATING! I hate it with a passion. Now my clothes aren't fitting like they used to. I know that it will go away in a week but for this week it's going to be HELL! I'm trying to work out to help offset the bloating but as I work out I have to drink water. I try to really watch my sodium and I know that this can't cure my bloating but I figure...Hey it's worth a shot. All I know is that I always have 2-3 of weight weight that I put on every month and I HATE IT I HATE IT I HATE IT!

Ok I'm done with ranting for today but who knows what tomorrow will bring.