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It's been a long time coming
Aug 22, 2009
for being honest 
) told me my tummy (OK. big ole stomach) has gotten bigger.These are my Confessions Usher says about his unfaithfulness.....so these are MY confessions from Harriet about not being faithful to the weightloss (and keeping it off) journey...
I have truely been doing all the wrong things; 'enjoying' life to much and eating the wrong things. I have lost my mind with what I've been eating lately and even worst, no exercise...
I went to Omaha this past weekend for an all White Linen Party and had a blast and everyone there hadn't seen me in years, so they thought I looked awesome; but deep down in side I really knew I could have looked even better if I had stayed true to myself and this journey. I felt like a lier because they were like "is that all you're eating", " you look great", etc...but I knew I had started back to my old habits. "Sneaking" little pieces of this and that which I know is addicting to me (cake, candy, chips, etc) and felt like I was just playing a role in front of them and sneaking like I used to.
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Well, after my family told me they can see the weight gain (only a couple lbs by the scale, but definately something I can feel in my clothes...) I decided I have to start over AGAIN. Writing things down, exercising (today I did my treadmill), drinking my water and being conscience of EVERYTHING that goes into my mouth...oh yeah, am I supposed to be taking my vits, mins, etc? Shucks I've just about forgotten about those....so yep, today started that too. Getting back into routine is my plan.
My 43rd bday is in 3 weeks (send me a bday shout out LOL) and I really want to be at 165. I"m 170.8 today That's only 5.8 lbs in 25 days right? ... well, i've been trying to get to 165 for a year...lol. Plauteau is no joke. Can I do it? Yes I can. with you prayers and encouragement I can do it...Oh yeah, with my will and determination....I'm gonna try OH Fam. I"ll let you know how things are going.
Accountability is the word of the day.
P E A C E,
Isn't it funny!
Jul 19, 2009
I got three of the most beautiful and uplifing compliments that I wantd to share:
1) Several guys that were talking a picture together as I passed by (I am really bad with faces, so I didin't remember them) called out my name. when I saw their name tags I remenmbered them and hugged them and we all started laughing and taking bout ole times....One of them say....You have not changed one bit since high school. You look the exact same. ROFLOL. If they only knew.
2) One girl a year younger than me ran and hugged me and said "Girl, you still skinny. How did all of us get older and you look like you did when we were kids".
3) THIS WAS THE BEST ONE. A guy, the star basket ball player hugged me and we talked. We shared stories about the family etc. Then I brought him to meet my husband. He told my husband I was such a good person in high school. He said he had so much respect for me because although I was 'part of the crowd' I had so much respect for myself and carried my self as such a lady and didn't participate in alot that was going on around me and he just always respected that (maybe I should ask him to write that down so I can send it to my parents too lol). He said "Man,your wife is still so beautiful just like in high school. What a blessing". I"m thinking in my head...."DID WE LIKE EACH OTHER IN HIGH SCHOOL..DID I MISS SOMETHING? WHERE IS THIS COMING FROM"...ROFLOL...My husbnad told him I paid him to tell him this. Every time he saw me he was like "WoW". I'm not kidding....Im still tripping out about this guy.
What I thought about on the way home is how you can go through the fire of whatever your situation is and the Lord bring you out looking unscaved. ONE of the fires in my life was weight, insecurity, a feeling that I didn't equal the beautiful people, etc. But The Lord brought me through that fire unscaved. Yeah, some streatch marks, hanging/flabby skin and all...but I still feel like a million bucks (well, maybe a dollar short of a million).
I had to share these three stories cause you know I write to much and didn't want to disappoint this time lol.....but that was my high school picnic update.
P E A C E, Harriet
Accountability ~ I must confess
Jun 23, 2009
Yesterday I had many unplanned eating events. Not even sure what triggered it, but I was so out of control and pretty much had to put my self on timeout and just go to bed so I would stop grazing.
I had some few cookies, cheetos, a spoon of banana pudding and then had the nerve to eat a cheese stick and 2 Triskets lol after eating the junk. I think one of the issues is that I wasn't 'satisfied' with my breakfast or lunch options that I brought to work...so didn't eat much of either..so probably was hungry first off and then just looking for something satisfying..who knows..
Again, absolutely sure what triggered it or why I was so out of control, but I did recognize it; but couldn't get a grasp on it and stop it.
Oh well, today's a new day. it's a beautiful day in the neighborhood folks and I'm gonna enjoy it to the fullest.
Today...I've drank 23 oz of water already and it's only 8:30am...so my little pouch is kinda full as it should be and I have my breakfast and lunch packed and items laid out at home for din din...so today will definately be a good day.
Have a great day OH.
P E A C E
Harriet
I'll get there
Jun 20, 2009
I have been doing the 5 day Pouch Test again this past week. I find this beneficial because it's like I"m retraining myself how to eat again, the way I did when I first got the surgery. Counting EVERYTYHING diligently, eating the right things, and really focused.
I have been reading this book that I read about on Some else's blog. It's called the Beck Diet SOLUTION. It's not a diet book, it's more of a phycological book to be successful at dieting. It talks alot about how we sabotage ourselves with negetivity. In the beginning of this blog I was going to write, .6 pounds is not alot..blah, blah, blah...but it's IS alot because it could've been a gain. It helps you establish tools to help you be successful at weight loss for the long term/ a life time. It's good reading. I got the work book and it has different tasks that you do everyday, etc.
One of the things it had me do was make ADVANTAGE cards. An advantage card is something I carry with me and read several times aday, at an appointed time. My advantage cards say...."The advantage of losing and maintaining weight loss is"..... 1) I will feel better and more confident 2) I will look better and my self esteem will be higher 3) My health will be better 4) I can cross my legs, sit indian style comfortably in a chair and over all more physically comfortable 5) I can wear and fit cute clothes 6) I can be an encouragement to others on the same journey 7) I look younger 8) I feel younger 9) I will feel a sense of accomplishment when i reach my goal 10) I feel extremely sexy with my husband 11) I will be able to wear a really nice outfit for my 25th year wedding anniversary (I add to the list as more advantages are made clear).
I read these cards as a reminder...several times a day so I never forget why losing and maintaining is SO IMPORTANT and an ADVANTAGE. Anyway,that's just a little snippet of the book.
Be encouraged people. I am reminding myself everyday that this is not a lose quick solution..or at least for me...it's truly a JOURNEY for me and probably for you to. You will get there as I will....
BTW, went to a graduation last week and then a different graduation BBQ; of which, at both celebrations I saw ppl tha tI hadn't seen in a long time. At the first one, our long itme friends were like....YOU LOOK SO YOUNG....you look like Mo (my youngest sister...13 years younger than me...I find that a compliment cause she's really pretty lol)....WOW..and I kept seeing them staring at me (husband and wife) and making comments betweent the two of them. It made me uncomfortable as I hate being the center of attention; but it was good attention. Then at the BBQ, several ladies I haven't seen in many years were like "I didn't know that was you..WOW...you are so skinny...etc. When we all went to make our plates, I had a dollop of potato salad, even less baked beans and a small piece of chicken. Out of all that...I only ate a little because I got full so fast. They started calling me BIRD for the rest of the day
. but can you imagine being called SKINNY. REALLY? Sometimes I don't give myself credit. I was a 16/18 and now I'm a 6 or 8 (that day I had on 6's lol). That may not be skinny, but it sure is little..but unfortunately, I can't see it on me...so I just have to encourage myself by saying You are in a 6. That's small chick...such an Ah Ha momentP E A C E
FINALLY. A losing week
Jun 13, 2009
Last week I decided that I would do the 5 DAY POUCH TEST starting Monday. Well I did it and stuck to it. I've done it once in the past and successfully completed it again.
I actually lost 4.2 pounds. I am so excited; BUT it still doesn't take me to my goal of 165 which is my goal for July 4th. I'm going to keep pushing. Can't give up. Gosh, WHEN I hit that 165 goal, I"ll probably pass out. I've been reaching for it for more than 7 months; which is how long this plateau has lasted. Can it be broken? I have 2 weeks to figure it out. I hope so. It will give me such a sense of accomplishment to meet and hopefully surpass that weight goal.
I am committed to eating this week as I did last week. I logged EVERYTHING that I ate, which I haven't done in a while. I took ALL my vits/mins, which I had slacked off on. I drank ALL my water/liquids, which had been minimal and I haven't had any of the gum that I was addicted to. I used to go through more than a bag of that gum a day...it was bad...sugar is so addictive.
Next goal...get my butt back on that treadmill starting tomorrow morning (or maybe this evening if I get home early enough). I will also take a 30 min walk at lunch time mon-wed and see if that'll chagne some things too.
Have a good week OH, I"ll be reporting back soon.
TALES FROM THE DARK SIDE
Jun 07, 2009
Hey, What's up OH. Happy Sunday.
I come to you today discouraged and just in a 'place'. I made a commitment to myself to exercise at least 1000 hours between last week and July 4th; well, I've deleted that post because I've just not done much of anything. I started gaining weight as soon as I started exercising again. I know; it's just muscle right? hmmmm. I don't know OH, it's just been such a hard road.
Niikki and I talk alot about how we have to stop moaning and complaining and getting discouraged because the Lord blessed us with this surgery without any hurdles or problems after surgery. I have to keep reminding myself of that and remember that I also have to be an encouragement to others...This surgery isn't just about me; but who I can help in the journey. I have to do what I need to do as far as eating the right foods and getting back to that place where I was right after surgery.
OK, enough of feeling sorry for myself....but I just needed to say this.
ROSALIND, you have done a great job. Even when they delayed you, you were so encouraged and had the right attitude...you will be amazed at where you are 6 months from now...and in a year (on the cruise) WATCH OUT!!
Nikki, you look awesome, but you know that. We just have to keep reminding ourselves that we are so blessed; beyond your wildest comprehension, we are blessed. Now, let's get back to where we were a year ago...ENCOURAGED AND DOING THE DANG THING.
Loves y'all lots!
hat
Hey OH Fam
May 29, 2009
Hey OH, how's life. By God's grace and mercy, we have seen another Memorial Day holiday come and go. What did you do? Were you healthy doing it? hmmmmmm
I went to Yosemite with my husband and youngest son. We had a ball. The views and scenery are spectacular.
Nothing new with my weight. Still at around 168ish. Going to challenge myself for 165 (again) for the 4th of July. Also going to challenge myself to do 1,000 minutes of exercise for the month of July. I"ve been eating pretty good...but the exercise has dimished again. WE did ride our bikes in Yosemite and again on Memorial Day, so I got some good work out in....but I really need to step it up.
This weekend I will log my starting weight for the challenge. Anyway want to join me? I'll update my minutes each time I exercise. Here goes nothing, Will start this weekend.
Bye for now.
Btw, check out a couple of my photos from Yosemite.
PLATEAU'S SUCK
May 20, 2009
That's good cause i'm not 169 right! yea...but i sure wish I knew what to do about breaking this. I have tried everything under the sun ....
anyway; going to Yosemite this Memorial Day weekend. Never been there so we are very excited. Plan on lots of bike riding and walking....so hoping by MOnday....challenge end day...I can be at 165 which is my memorial day challenge weight....
Whom ever out there reads this, can you tell me how the heck to break a VERY long plateau? I need some help breaking this thing.
Rosalind had her lap band today. She's doing great. I'm sure I"ll hear from her tomorrow. She's goig back to work Friday if you can belive that.
Anyway, have a safe holiday weekend and will update you on MOnday as to if I made the goal or not.
HELLLLLPPPPP! PLATEAU'S SUCK
CONFESSIONS of a serial eater
May 03, 2009
And it's not that I even eat that much, it's that I eat the wrong stuff and then feel bad about it afterwards (isn't that a good description of an addict?). Anyway, I've been doing fairly good as far as what I eat. Back to my protein drinks in the morning insted of eggs everyday, just to switch it up. Eating things like lima beans and maybe chicken for lunch, etc. Not so bad. So yesterday my neighbors daughter had a sleepover. They brought over donuts to MY house (the home of the serial eater)....Well, before even thinking, I grabbed up that G;AZED donut and dang near shoved it down my throat (gosh, it was so good)...but I didn't even really taste it because I shoved it down my throat. Maybe so I couldn't stop myself.. I didn't dump like usual, I just felt nauseous. Didn't have an appetite for the rest of the day until late afternoon. Well, I had a scoop of baked beans and a bbq chicken thigh. Oh how full I was. about an hour later my husband gets home with some cookies from the bbq he went to. Well, the serial eater again dives in head first for the cookies (home made no less). Anyway, I had to text Nikki to call me and stop me. I was honestly out of control. Haven't felt that way in a long time. It was a bad day as far as I'm concerned....I don't like that feeling of not being able to STOP.
TODAY? A new day. Slate clean and moving forward. We've decided to renew our vows next year for our 25th wedding anniversary on a cruise where a bunch of my family will be. Already thinking of a dress...I'm very excited but if my serial eating ways continue...not so cute....Anyway, my cousin Rosalind will be having her lap band on Tuesday. She's so excited and I"m right there with her. She's going on the cruise too; so she'll have a new body by then and we'll have to keep an eye on her cuase she is FASST lol. Anyway, just wanted to stop thru and say hey.
BTW, 168.4. No loss, no GAIN (which is always a good thing). Hope to hit 165 for the memorial day challenge, but we'll see. Plateau's suck.
DISAPPOINTED
Mar 21, 2009
So today I"m supposed to run a 5k, but I can't becasue i'm getting over a cold and my chest is still tight and still experiencing a shortness of breath (yeah right....any excuse right 
), so i'm disappointed about that. My 'prize' for beating my old time was giong to be a new pair of running shoes cause the heal on my current ones are shot......oh well.
I weighed in today at 168, which is a gain of .6 lbs (last week I was 167.4). I"m still pleased, especially since i haven't been in the gym for a while. My eating has been REALLY good. still eating few meals concentrating on protein first like the NUT says and not experiencing hunger. I really want to hit my goal of 165 by easter. You may say that's only 3 lbs..but you have to remember losing for me has not been an easy task.
in my last post I indicated that I havent dumped really bad lately...well that very next day (Sunday) I dumped so bad...doubled over in cramps, diarria (TMI) moaning, groaning and everything......AS Nikki and I laughed I should'a weighed after that cause I know I lost a few lbs.
That's my update for now. HAPPY LOSING
