I guess I should aim to post at least annually
Jul 01, 2018
Back again! And after another year-long absence—more than a year this time, I guess. Things are largely okay? I'm seeing a new counselor (although now that I think about it, it's probably been close to a year since I started seeing him so he's not that new to me anymore), the primary care physician I mentioned in my last blog post is still good, eventually I got my labs done and made it back to the C4WLS for a follow-up, and...yeah, stuff is mostly fine.
When I was last posting actively, I was at the beginning of Getting Serious About Getting Back On Track, and it worked for a long time. Then some stressful life stuff happened (funny how it always seems to), and for the last ~6 months or so I basically gave myself free reign to eat and drink whatever I wanted. I also stopped doing much intentional exercise. I, uh, don't recommend this "eat whatever, exercise maybe never" strategy. I'm pudgy as hell right now—no idea what I weigh at the moment, but if I was going to guess I'd say around 180. I have follow-up appointments at Dr. Srikanth's office within the next month or two, so that should be a good motivator since I know I'll get weighed whenever I show up there. Need to schedule a bone density test too, actually—I think the ARNP ordered that in like February and I probably have about a month until I see her again so I should prrrooobably get that taken care of. Note to self.
I think I'm going to start tracking food and exercise again, at least for a little while. I alway seem to cycle back to tracking, as if I periodically need to recalibrate my poor brain if I want a chance to lose/maintain my weight. Maybe that's just how it's always going to be: a few months or weeks of tracking, a few months of being "normal" and doing OK without needing to track, and then maybe a period of restless rebellion where everything goes to hell and then, whomp whomp, back to tracking. I'd like to get to a point where the cycle skips the restless rebellion, but we'll see.
Anyway, not much excitement to report but I'm still here, trying to log into the Baritastic app I just downloaded (but it doesn't recognize my email address as valid, argh) so I can start tracking food and exercise again.