The big "Date"!
Jan 27, 2009
So here I am again pondering life...
Today I got my date for surgery- May 7th (was the 14th but they fit me in sooner) and don't get me wrong I'm excited, just also nervous and overwhelmed and all that stuff. In many ways it makes it real and in many ways I wish it was so much sooner - Like tomorrow! :)
Things are okay- I am still not eating as well as I could but I'm getting there. Last night I got on the new treadmill for awhile and did some exercise instead of none. Tonight I just got home and I'm probably not going to since I'm pooped!
Today I made an appointment with a counselor to get back into working on some of the anxiety/panic disorder stuff as well as my relationship with food and my mental "cop-outs" regarding food prior to surgery. Wish me luck here, it's always hard starting to go to counseling for yourself when your job is to help and counselor others- I think me being a social worker already makes it even harder for me to let go in counseling and not try to micro-organize everything including the counselor.
So, I've found some wonderful and encouraging people on here so far and I appreciate all the help and support and can't wait to meet more people. thank you all for your kind words!