lauraanne715
It has been too long....
Aug 19, 2010
I can not believe it has been since February since I last posted to my blog here on OH. I remember two years ago promising myself I would continue to post on the boards regularly and keep up with my blog and here I am two years out and I have not done either. So frustrating...so so frustrating!!!I know my life spiraled out of control a bit in the last year...relationship issues....and then just recently the hellish nightmare of being attacked and having the apartment vandalized...so much to deal with and so hard to do it when you are alone. My weightloss continued on and now I am down about 176 pounds from my starting weight pre surgery. I am now officially smaller than I was in high school and sometimes (okay alot of times!! ) I do not recognize the woman looking back at me in the mirror.
Who is that girl?? Who's face is that? I wonder...she looks like me but yet she does not. I know I need to love both the big girl that I was and this new woman in front of me...but sometimes it is difficult. Sometimes I am stuck in fear --I do not want to regain after losing all this weight. Carbs are my downfall and I need to be super aware of that. I have to say that I have not in over two years tried anything with sugar nor do I want to!!! All the treats--chocolates , ice cream, cakes I once ran to for comfort I no longer even look at or even think about. That is a huge accomplishment for me. So I try to focus on the positives. The girl in the mirror now is the girl who made the choice to live and to live healthier...
Second chances like this are very rare in life...I don't want to waste this chance. I know this was a bit of a ramble but...I have to get back into the goove of posting and blogging ...I'll do better next time!! LOL
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About Me
Pottstown, PA
Location
29.7
BMI
Surgery
05/28/2008
Surgery Date
Feb 18, 2008
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