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I've had such a difficult time losing lately!  Well, of course, that COULD be because I never get to exercise.  We leave for Orlando (me going under huge protest) on Sunday.  He's had client issues so I've had to handle the business AND the house AND do everything else.  I'm wiped.  So, I was excited to hop on Mr. Scale and it say 205.  Holy crap!  I've lost 60 lbs, I need to lose another 60 lbs. AND I'm 6 freaking pounds from 199!!!!!  I was thrilled this morning.  If I could hit 199 before Sunday I'd be less miserable in Orlando.

Well, I'm off to do laundry, fix a curtain rod, assure a dog that SHE, not the new kitten, is Queen of the Pets and get packing lists started for three people and two pets.  What a week this is gonna be!

Yesterday we got a new addition to the family.  I'm sure you've all seen the Petsmart commercial with the huge bulldog with the red toy.  His mommy and daddy bring him a new baby sister.  Well, we went to the pet store yesterday to get elodea for our crayfish, Marilyn, who, I can't believe, will be with us for a year in October.  We've had our rescued dog, Noel, for about 4 years (I always forget....seems like she's always been here).  She's part Rottweiler and part Siberian Husky.  Yup, one brown eye and one blue eye.  She's the sweetest, most laid back dog I've ever seen.  Well, we added a not-yet-2 month old kitten to the family.  Her name is Speckles.  Noel spent the weekend with our groomer so I picked her up this morning.  Noel could care less about this fuzzy little creature.  Speckles is another story.  You'd think being at a pet store she'd be used to dogs.  It's not been a very good introduction period.  Now Britt's so sorry we got the kitten.  I knew it would happen but I told her now we're stuck so the kitten better get used to the dog. lol

Moms just fall for everything. LOL

Note:  I'm such a moron.  I forgot that the ticker factory tickers ALL change when you change them in the system.  This particular ticker was 56.6 lbs lost. lol  Protein and vitamin deficiency maybe???

That's the newest ticker as of this morning.  I'm 5.6 lbs from my halfway mark.  I'm pretty excited about that.  Honestly, I'm bored with food.  I'm bored with drinking water and SF Kool Aid.  I'd rather just have a fun day and not have to even think about food.  Isn't that wild?  Before, a stop at McDonald's for a Quarter Pounder with cheese, fries and a Diet Coke would have been cause for celebration.  Now it's just a big ol' hassle to even want to deal with food.

Unfortunately this surgery and its effects have come to land on my dear 10-yr-old daughter.  As you can see from the avatar, she is the light of my life.  We have an ice cream stand here in town that's been here forever.  They open right before Easter.  Until today we still hadn't gone.  Why should my baby be deprived of ice cream or a shake because MOM decided to have this surgery?  I got angry at myself.  So, we just got back from The Custard Stand and she got a black & white shake.  Sure it was hard for me to not even order a kiddie sized orange creamsicle custard (my all-time fave!).  But, my RNY is much more important to me now than a small custard.  So, she's in the living room happily sipping on her shake while I come in here and blog.  No one said every day would be easy.  Do I miss Diet Coke?  HELL YEAH!  But, I don't dare even take a sip.  How stupid would that be!  So, I sit here on my blog and printing my pictures from the previous 10 weeks.   I guess I better get my butt at my scrap table and get caught up. :)

Well, what we've all thought was true IS true.  I'm kind of conflicted on how I feel.  I mean, did she *really* think no one knew?  I understand keeping something like this a secret.  Crap, I tried to but my blabbermouth husband told EVERYONE...including the cashier at the local grocery store.  But, I think sometimes celebrities owe it to us.  Can you imagine the great publicity for us?  Star looks GREAT!  I want the number of her plastic surgeon.   I owe my successes to wonderful people like Carnie Wilson, Jackie Guerra, and my dear friends Lisa, Nichole, Kelly, Michael and all the other bypass patients I know.  I owe most to my fabulous May 2007 surgery buddies.  I hope Star really comes out so people understand this is NOT an easy decision.  It's NOT an easy way out.  It's HARD!!!!!  But, it's totally worth it!

One of the drawback of drawstring is that you don't really realize your size.  I have these beautiful shorts from Cato that are really nice, have elastic in the waist and have nice drawstrings on the outside.  I've had these shorts about 4 years and they're size 22/24.  I've lost about 52 lbs since surgery so I got a little curious.  I have a pair of 18WT jeans that still have the tags on them.  I couldn't get them over my hips when I bought them so the tags stayed on and they stayed in the back of my closet.

I dug them out this morning and put them on.  I'm still wearing that icky binder so I rolled it up.  I need to lose about 2 inches in my waist and they'll be PERFECT!  I was in such shock that I screamed for my husband.  Jeans have always been huge in the waist for me because my most "prominent" feature has always been in the back of me so to speak.  They fit great in the butt.  Thin people don't realize the excitement we feel when this happens.  I can't wait to finally have a massive yard sale next year to get rid of all these "chunky" clothes.  I wish the summer were longer. ;)

I'm so happy with my first WOW!!!

It's only 9:35 am and it's been a great day already.  My nephew, age 17, started working for our company today.  His mom and my younger brother got together when he was about 3.  When she found out she was pregnant, her a**hole military husband left.  She was divorced, working her butt off and met my brother at a now closed country music dance bar here.  They hit if off immediately and have been together ever since.  They got married when my daughter was about 1 1/2.  Though not "blood" Britt and Jarett (both blondes in with all us brunettes) get along great despite the 7 year age difference. lol

So, I have a really good feeling about this!  We have hired and fired more young people this year than all the other years combined.  They are sooooo lazy!  I swear they think they should get a huge paycheck just for showing up.  Jarett was overjoyed when we asked if the pay per hour was okay.  You'd think we told him a million an hour.

Now on to my weight loss....after huge stalls up and down I finally hit the -50 mark yesterday.  I woke up, got on the scale and found I was down a pound since yesterday!  Woohoo!!!!  I'm down to 214.8 this morning.  I finally broke down and bought new underwear.  I got tired of them saying it looked like a full diaper load because they were so baggy. LOL  The frustrating part?  I've lost 51 lbs and I thought every 10 lbs were 1 size.  Boy, not with me. lol  My jeans will never be on me again but I'm still not in those "hopeful" size 18 jeans that have been collecting dust.  Someday.  Just not yet. :)  But, never in my wildest dreams last year did I think I'd be 9 weeks post op and down 51 pounds.  This time last year I was about 255 and miserable wondering how the hell I'd fit on the rides with my daughter at Septemberfest (first Saturday after Labor Day here in our little town).  Every year they SLAM the rides shut on me.  They won't have to this year!!!!

I hope anyone reading this has as wonderful a day today as I've had already!

Well, I've been complaining that I have no energy.  Hmm...don't know what happened today.  I did a Leslie Sansone 3 Mile Walk and then tonight after dinner I went walking across the street.  The park has a 1.1 mile path.  I was on my 2nd mile when this very nice lady RAN to catch up to me and asked if she could walk with me since I was doing a really great pace.  Me???? I thought.  So, I ended up speed walking and chatting with this very nice lady named Debbie.  In the end I walked 4 miles!!!!  I got home and my husband said they had seen me going around repeatedly and asked how many miles I walked.  He and Britt were so excited for me.  Shoot, I can't believe someone actually had to run to catch up to me.  So, I used my iPod for the last half mile.  She had parked and I had to finish the track and walk home.  Sure I was exhausted but so darned proud of myself at the same time!

I think my bod is determined to get to that 50 lbs down before we see Dr. Iqbal Tuesday.

It's been a while since I posted.  I'm down about 43 lbs so far.  I still feel kinda icky but my clothes are getting HUGE so there's the toss up. :)

Yesterday Britt's "friend" spent a few hours with us.  As she got to the door, Mark was on his way to the ER.  Now, any mom with half a brain would have taken her kid home seeing my husband had to go to the hospital.  Nope.  No such luck for me.  So, after this kid went home Britt and I called the hospital.  28 rings and no answer sent us straight to the car.  We got there about 5.  Mark had already been there 4 freaking hours.  Long story short it's his appendix.  So, like a good little wifey I was at the hospital at 5:15 am waiting with him.  They got him at 7 am and the doctor talked with me at 9 am.  I'm exhausted but Mark happily lost 3 oz this morning.  That, my friends, is the total weight of an appendix. LOL  I told the surgeon that weighed more than I can eat at a meal!!!!  I love this surgeon and he was sweet enough to come in on the holiday to do this operation.  He did my gallbladder in 1989 and my lumpectomy in 2005.  He's a great guy.

I'm looking forward to at least one day without some drama.

I can't believe it's been a month today since I had the surgery.  I wish I could say that it's the best thing I've ever done for myself.  Honestly, I'm still sorry I did it.  Lots of people just fly through this thing thrilled that they did it.  Obviously they are people who are supported by family and friends the whole way.  I've had pretty much no support.  My daughter helps me as much as she can but she's 10.  I'm not turning her into Cinderella.  So, like the typical martyr mom, I'm doing EVERYTHING myself.

I've had a LOT of pain lately.  The incision is healing nicely but I have a huge amount of pain.  I have no appetite at all.  Nothing I eat even has a taste to it.  That's horribly frustrating.  I had to force myself to eat pudding this morning.  As much as I "love" pudding, it had no taste whatsoever. :(

So, if I'd had a crystal ball about 6 weeks ago, I think I would have called the whole thing off.

Well, we've been done with school for a week.  Thank goodness!  She had a teacher who was too busy internet shopping.  I feel sorry for the group who gets that woman next year.

I've been doing "okay".  I'm tired all the time.  I feel like crap all the time.  Britt and I are going to get out and walk today over at the park.  I've been pretty much back at my housewife job since I came home from the hospital.  I know, I've done WAY too much WAY too soon.  That's what happens when you have a husband who says one minute he supports you and the next minute proves he could care less about you.  So, I know why I feel like crap.

I'm doing okay with the weight loss.  My highest was 265.  I'm down to 229.2 as of this morning!

Post Edit:  Britt and I just got back from a 1.5 mile walk.  I'm so glad I did it!  Miss Britt needs a little toning up as well so we've decided to do this every morning.  We'd like to build up to 3 miles.  Our park across the street has a 1.1 mile trail so 3 times around should be easy. :)