Samuel V.

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IT HAS BEEN SOMETIME SINCE THE LAST POSTING, WEIGHT LOSS HAS SLOWED TO A CRAWL.  I HAD A DOCTOR'S APPOINTMENT AND MY INSTRUCTIONS WAS TO LOOOSE ABOUT FORTY MORE POUNDS.  I AM RESTING AT 235.  I HAVE STARTED BACK INTO THE GYM AGAIN.  COUNTING CALORIES, AND WATCHING THE SUGARS AND CARBS.  I DON'T KNOW IF ANYBODY KNOW IT, BUT THERE IS A CONDITION THAT I HAVE FOUND OUT THAT SOME PEOPLE WITH WEIGHT LOSS SUFFERS FROM.  INSTEAD OF MY PANCREAS NOT PUT OUT INSULIN, IT PUTS OUT TOO MUCH INSULIN AND MY BLOOD SUGAR LEVELS DROPS BETWEEN 40 AND 60. NOW I HAVE TO WATCH THE STARCHES AND SUGARS VERY CLOSE.  TWICE LATE INTO THE NIGHT IT HAS DROPPED SO LOW THAT IT WAS HARD FOR ME TO GET UP.  THIS HAPPENS EVEN THOUGH YOU ARE NOT DIABETICS.  SO WATCH IT.

Today I was getting dressed to go to work and there were a pair of my son's pants in my room.  Temptation hit me like a ton of bricks.  It said try them on.  I looked at the size and said there is no way.  Curiosity got the best of me.  I tried them on and guess what they fit.  A size 36.  My weight loss has tremendously slowed to a snail's pace but the inches are still coming off.  This just encourages me to stay in the gym more.  There are people telling me that I am loosing too much weight.  My reply is nobody told me that I was gaining too much weight.  It doesn't bother me because when I use to see my friends that had the surgery, when they said I need to loss more I said the same thing.  I believe all my weight now is in my stomach area.  It really looks like a tire that I am wearing.  I am working out on the eliptical machine and that is really toning my flabby thighs and arms.  It is also helping my abs. 

I had my six months check on the first of July.  The doctor said everything looks great.  Only the Vitamin D Count was low but still good.  I'm Down 125 pounds and feeling very good about life and myself.  I have bought myself three suits.  Down from size 64 to 50.  It feels good to be able to shop in the discount stores like walmar and DD's.

I bought a suit about ten years ago.  I use to wear it and it got too small.  So I just had it hanging in the closet.  To my surprise last night I was able to wear it to a concert. I have another suit that somebody gave me a few years ago and tomorrow I will wear it to church.  Life is so exciting. I feel that now I can fulfill my ministry obligations better.  When I use to work the alter to help the people my back would hurt and I would have to quit before we were finished.  Not any more, satan you better watch out I am a "Lion on the Loose".  I got so many compliments about how well I look.  It makes you feel good when people compliments you on your looks.  I was told the other day that I look much younger now. My wife is waiting for her surgery date so keep her in your prayers.  102 pounds down.

I have done it.  All my heard work has paid off once again.  I am three and a half months post op and down 100 pounds.  I never thought this would ever be.  I feel so good about myself.  I have seventy five more pounds to go and have about one more year to do that.  I am in the gym every morning before the break of day.  At least one hour or more.  I am the newest member of the Century Club.  Before I did not like shopping or want to shop.  Now I still don't like having to hunt for clothes but I can go shopping.

Today when I weigh myself it is a mile stone again.  Today I am half way to my goal.  Down 87 pounds since surgery in January 09. I was 375 and now I am 286.  My body don't look too good because of the excess skin but it really feels good.  I am more active now than ever, I am in the gym every morning at 5 a.m.  It's because I want to be there.  Each day I thank God for this opportunity again.  I don't want to mess it up. 

Last night I was going to the gym when I realized I did not have any swimming trunks.  My son offered his trunks to wear.  In my mind I said I can't wear these.  They were a size 38.  To my amazement I put them on.  The last pair of pants that I bought was a size 48 before the surgery. I calculated my BMI today.  Before surgery it was 49.5 but today it is 39.4 and still dropping.   I have lost about 10 pants sizes since the surgery.  Hurray for me.

Today I have made a mile stone.  It has been at least 15 years since I have been where I am today.  When I got on the scale and saw 299 I started hollowing. 77 pounds since Jan 6.   I have made my first goal.  This past Sunday I have a moment that I called (sorry ladies) a woman's moment.  I was getting dressed for church and could not find anything to wear.  It was either too big or too small.  I had the bed covered in suits.  I finally decided to wear one and at the end was uncomfortable with the choice.  I got up set then told the family go without me and I will follow.  Looking back that was a good thing.  Most of the suits are for a fat man.  I am not fat anymore. 

Good morning gang.  I am enjoying this road that I am on.  I have begun to do things that I could not do before.  I can actually cross my legs now.  I havn't worn a real belt in years.  I did my own lawn on saturday and then had enough energy to work on my garage.  I am excited about this. The biggest mile stone is that I am no longer on by blood pressure medication or my diabetic meds.  I did a stress test a few weeks ago and they found that my blood pressure was too low (80/68).  They almost did not do the test.   My biggest goal is to get under 300 pounds. I am only two pounds away.  I live in the gym now.  That has become a part of my life.  I neaver want to go back to being the old me again.  I remember what got me there the first time so I am doing something different.  They say insanity is doing the same thing expecting different results.  I am not insane any more.  I cleaned the garage so that I could get to my home gym that had been collecting dust since I had it.  Keep my wife in your prayers because she is up for the surgery and she is waiting to hear from her doctor.  We want to be on this journey together.

After surgery one of the things that I have realized is that I have better self-esteem.  There was times that when I went places I felt embarrassed because of my size.  I am a minister and when I stand before the people I felt as if they were all staring at me because of my size.  But now, I feel good about myself.  My wife told me since I had the surgery that I seem to be easier to get alone with.  Even though I did not know she felt that way, I told her that is because now I like myself.  You can't like people if you don't like yourself.  I feel as if I can do "all thing through Christ that strengthens me. "  " I am more than a conqueror through him".  Every day I thank God for this opportunity to become new all over again.  When I see other over weight people, my heart goes out to them.