poppy1
Counting down .....
Jan 21, 2009
Its now one month and 2 days to my surgery...the weeks are slowy passing by .
I am feeling good today ..calm and looking ahead to the good things that post op life will bring me . All those wow moments I keep reading about here .I am looking forwards to posting my own ...
I go up and down in mood like a yoyo ....excited and happy then depressed and very nervous ..tears one day , smiles and laughter the next . It feels unreal sometimes ..every thing is the same in day to day life..and yet everything will be so different after the 24th Feb and my revision to RNY.
I really loved meeting every one at the weekend ...Sharon in Peterborough is a sweetheart ..we clicked straight away ..had a gabfest for 2 hours at Timmies..she looks great and was very friendly.We will meet again soon .
Sunday was great fun at the York region meeting also . Support is sooo important..and I got a big lift from going .Jo-Anna took my before picture ..and I was given my cute angel surgery bear ...plus some lovely things from the clothes exchange ..every one was soo nice .For sure Peter and I will get to as many meetings as we can in the coming months .
My weight is holding steady ..lost a couple of pounds ..sitting at 258 at present . I am still over eating (not to badly though)...and enjoying it ..bad me !!!! I made lemon meringue pie today ...Peter loved it ..we both had a big slice !
I start optifast in just over 2 weeks ....so not much longer to indulge in my favourite foods .
I am enjoying reading the forum ..getting lots of good info ..and making new wls buddies . What a strong group of people I have found here .
Making new WLS friends ..a great feeling .
Jan 13, 2009
Making new WLS friends ..a great feeling .Tues Jan 13th 2009 .
So I am enjoying making new friends through this wonderful site . I am e mailing back and forth with Sharon in Peterborough ..and we are meeting up for coffee this coming Saturday ..at Timmies in Peterborough. There isnt a regular support group in the Peterborough and Kawarthas area ..we are gung ho to start one ...wish us luck !
I am also really looking forwards to getting to my first York Region support group meeting this Sunday upstairs at the Richmond Hill Loblaws . Waves to J ..the group leader x
We will leave the Norwood house early and I will hopefully arrive near the beginning . I dont have any clothes yet for the exchange ..but expect to be able to donate a TON of good stuff down the road . I do need new PJ's for my hospital stay ..so if any one has any that would be good . We are on a big frugal kick here ..hubby is going to take a massive drop in income when he retires so we are watching every penny lately .I am in a 2-3X at the moment ...its seems a waste to buy when I will be shrinking in size so soon but I need them for while in hospital .
I was down 2 pounds this morning ..yeahhh ...I think I was retaining water last week . I am trying to reign in my appetite again after last weeks debacle . I have made a big pan of chicken broth for my lunches . I will freeze some for when I am on liquids only too . I am freezing ready to heat meals for hubby and son ..for when I am away . They will have to learn to cook for them selves for a long time too ..I have told them my role as chief chef is soon coming to an end ..lol .
I have started stock piling things for me post op ..sugar free jello and apple sauce , various herbal teas ..protein powders ...I have vanilla , strawberry and cofee flavours in the Iso range from GNC.I have crystal light and also have multivitamins , B12 and liquid calcium citrate all ready to go .
So I do feel that I am getting into a more organised and prepared head space ..especially since starting to read here every day .
Surgery is 5 weeks from today ....roll on .
Weekending again ...and emotional ups and downs.
Jan 11, 2009
My husband is so wonderful ..the love of my life and my best friend and support system .I feel bad for him lately as all I do is talk about is my upcoming surgery ..and I know I must sound like a stuck record sometimes ..lol .
I have chosen not to share my decision to have my vbg revised to RNY with many who know me ..so he gets all my emotions poured onto him.the poor guy . I have been a long time member of the Barrie support group..and am hoping to start going to the monthly meetings again after surgery . Its hard to get there now as since we bought the Norwood house ..we never have a free weekend . I have a lot of wls friends that go back over the last 5 years ...some are doing well but some are struggling (like me ) with regain and a return to old bad habits .Most have been supportive of my plan for revision but some have been surprisingly cool towards me since I told them ..hmmm . I am sad about that ..as my friends are important to me .
I am a transplanted Brit ( a yorkshire woman with the accent still) so have no other family here ..apart from my kids and hubbies bro (single) who lives in Markham .
I will continue to fill in the blanks in my story over the next few entries .
Like I have already had plastics ..an extended abdominoplasty and lipo with breast reduction and lift ..4 years ago ..in a way I am doing this back wards to most ..lol .
Very cold out today ...deep crisp snow but blue skies and sunshine ..we are packing a small picnic and will take a detour to Rice Lake on our back to the city this afternoon .
I have come to terms with my date change ..to 24th feb ..its only 5 weeks away after all .
I am still an emotional wreck at times and very nervous but also very excited about the new me a year from now ...I cant wait to get to my 135 pounds goal . Thats 125 pounds away ...
roll on my surgery ....
Date changed to the 24th Feb .....
Jan 08, 2009
My Patts are going to be changed to a later date also ..she will call me back on those ...
I am just feeling numb at the moment ...trying to reprocess for this later surgery date .
Any advice out there ?
Up again ..
Jan 07, 2009
I was up till 3 am again last night ...I am not sleeping lately . My husband tells me I am turning into a Bat !! I have a lot on my mind regarding my upcoming surgery ..thats for sure !
I wish it were here already !
I must say its nice to find new friends here ...waving hello at you all .
Woke up to deep snow ...am listening to the snow plough roll by as I write this . The joys of January in Canada .
I am going to try to write here daily from now on . I have added new photos ..come take a peek guys . x
The beginning .. my run up to surgery next month ......
Jan 02, 2009
BMI 44
Started cutting back today ...getting ready for my revision surgery on 10th Feb 09.
Tried a chocolate Optifast ..not too yucky ..will try replace one meal a day with a protein shake ..
I start the Optifast diet in just over 2 weeks .
My goal is to lose 12 pounds before my surgery .
Excited and scared to death all at the same time .
